#20 this fan art is the literal cutest. Not mine.
Heh. We hit 20 chapters.

Request: @Hana_Sawyer

Word count: 1007

Universe: Show

Age: 18

Status: Crushing. Really complicated.

Note/Warning: I don't know how to write this stuff. After this can you guys not request Depressed and suicidal reader. I can't write it well. Please and Thanks.
Blood and cutting mentioned.
All of the ninja (but Zane) are bitches.
Swearing.

Avoiding.

That's all I can do at the moment.

I'm trying to control my crush; my feelings. The best way I'm dealing with that is avoiding him. It's hard to be honest, but luckily I can't show my feelings.
I have a problem, well two of them actually.
One: The rest of the ninja hate me. Just because I'm the master of darkness. Oh, Y'know the daughter of the overlord. To this day, I'm still trying to figure out how I'm actually born.
Two: I think Zane is catching on. He's been giving me the side eye time to time. That's not even the worst part. I'm starting to blush. It's horrible. When I saw myself I was this new shade of pink, if not red.

We were in dinner. I hate it. Everyone is together, and everyone talks; without me. It's a lonely process that I've gotten used to. I would often have conversations in my head. It's mostly arguing, but nevertheless. I sometimes accidentally mumble the things that my head convo is saying.
Or comment on what they're saying. Zane is usually beside me and hears what I say, then say them out loud for the rest to hear. They usually agree to my comments or ideas. I don't feel mad that he 'took' my ideas. I'm actually glad that I'm getting somewhat heard.

Sometimes I wish I could restart my life. Y'know have a better life.

"What is she even doing here?" Kai said pointing at me. Wu didn't say anything, though Zane was glaring at him.

"She is a part of the team Kai," Zane stuck up for me. He's wasting his breath. I'm not that special.

"I wasn't talking to you Zane. What gives anyways?"

"Zane is right. Her element is a great essential to the team," Wu backed up. So, they're using me. They only care for my powers. How nice of them.
I didn't want to hear this conversation any longer as I got up and left; I lost my appetite anyways.

"Look, what you have done," I hear in the distance. I cause problems to this team. I can't let them see me if I'm causing such a thing.

(Time skip because I don't know what to write. A week later)

I haven't gone out of my room for a week. I couldn't deal with all of the teasing, the bullying. It was too much for me to handle.

Too much

I lit lavender candles all around me. I can't do this anymore. It's too much for me. They treat me like shit.
Sorry dad.

Sorry Zane.

Zane was wondering to where Y/n could've went. It's been a week, and it's giving him stress.
He looked all over. Except for her room. He thought that he would be intruding. He was in search of Y/n, till he smelt something. It was lavender. 'Lavender candles?' He thought. Then something clicked.

"Y/n," he whispered. He ran towards her room, he opened the door and found Y/n on the ground unconscious, due to the loss of blood.
"Don't worry I'll help you," he picked her up bridal style, then hurried towards the infirmary room.

(Another time skip: 3 hours later)

She woke up groaning. Her head was pounding. When Zane noticed her eyes were open, he ran towards her quickly. Her eyes widen of the sight-and close proximity-of Zane. She got up immediately and ran out.

"Y/n," Zane called out after her, got on her trail. When she got into her room she locked it. Then slid down the door, crying.

"I can't. I failed. Why?" She kept on repeating those words.
Zane was knocking on her door harshly. Screaming her name. Till, someone called his.

"Zane," the gentle voice asked. P.I.X.A.L.
"What're you doing?"

"Uh, nothing," he shook his head. He smiled at her.
"Nothing."

For that week, P.I.X.A.L has been hanging out with Zane a lot. It didn't bother Y/n. Maybe because she locked herself in her room again. Not in a bad way.
But to fix herself.

Find self love. Find care for herself.

She starts fixing her self. She decided to wear jeans. She fixed her hair. It was out instead of in a ponytail.
She wore shortsleeved. Scratch that. From all those scars. She's not gonna show those. She puts away her short sleeved and wore a shirt that had a turtleneck. (Anything is beautiful really. But I made it stereotypical.)

At the end of the week she got out of her Tom stunning.
Kai was looking in the magazine searching for himself till he looked up and saw who walked in. He hadn't realized that it was Y/n.

"Hello, there. You and me would be great together," he flirted. Y/n was about to push him away, however she saw Zane talking with P.I.X.A.L. She got jealous immediately and was about to run till she used it to her advantage.
She started flirting with Kai.
Zane saw and left P.I.X.A.L. She chased after him, but Zane ignored walking faster. He slammed his door shocking Y/n.

She got up and hurriedly walked to Zane. She knocked on his door.
"Zane," she kept on saying. It's like this moment repeated. But something was different.
The door actually opened.
"Zane, are you okay?" She went up and hugged him. Thus, her red hot cheeks. Zane slowly wrapped his arms around her body.

"My apologies for reacting that way." Y/n shook her head in his shoulder.

"It's my fault."

"Y/n."

"Yeah," she looked up to him.

"Will you be the label of girlfriend?"

"Sure. Sorry for cutting and scaring you the other day," she apologized.

"It's all well. All well."