I have one chance to make my life mine. That realization really hit me yesterday, and I've been worried about it for the complete twenty-four hours. I didn't get any sleep last night, and I looked like a zombie once I caught a glance of myself in the mirror. 

Kai had texted me and I didn't have the energy to respond, nor did I have the energy to attend school. So currently, I was bundled in a ball of blankets in my bed with Netflix playing dozens upon dozens of movies I had already watched. I was hoping that would put me to sleep and let me rest, but to my dismay, I wasn't even growing the slightest bit tired.

I had been hoping Kai didn't decide to make one of his surprise visits, but of course, he did. The next thing I knew, he was in my apartment with a liter of ginger ale and a box of crackers and laying beside me in bed with his hands massaging my tense shoulders.

"College is still, like, two months away," he reminded me, his voice normally soothing me but now only making my stress elevate. "What if I fail? What if I am the worst artist enrolled and I'm kicked out? What happens when Kai? This is my one chance. And I'm going to blow it," I sighed.

"Don't think like that, Y/N. You're the most talented person I know, and if the college doesn't see that, then they aren't artists themselves. Okay? You'll do amazing." he assured me.

I turned around to face him and stared into his dark brown eyes, hoping that I could get lost in them. "I hope so, Kai. I truly do."

a / n
this is complete trash, y'all.
but whatever, i updated for the first time in a while. school work is picking up and i just don't have the time for a routine update schedule. so, hopefully, soon i can update the jay one. 

thanks