My birthday was quite possibly the worst day of my life - this year. I had thought it would be amazing, I mean, I finally had a boyfriend to celebrate it with, I had a brother, I was in contact with my dad, I had great friends, and my aunt and I were on good terms. But it was my aunt's weekend to have me and my dad got about jealous that I wasn't spending my birthday with him when he hadn't celebrated my birthday with me in probably a decade.

So, I ended up staying at my aunt's for the weekend, and then going to my dad's instead of going back to the monastery like I should have. I was exhausted and hadn't been home in five days and since my birthday had long since passed, I was not looking forward to having to have another birthday celebration at the monastery.

I wanted this miserable birthday to just be over so I can go home and lay in my bed with a box of tissues laying next to me. 

I sighed as I fumbled with the front door, my keysnot wanting to work for some reason. It was late at night and I couldn't see because it was dark outside so trying to open the door without some form of light was quite a challenge.

But, after a minute of frustrated struggling, I pushed the door open and yanked my key out. I heaved my duffel bag up from the floor and shut the door behind me, locking it, and walking through the empty training area. I heard some laughing and chatter from the kitchen and I assumed the team was having a late dinner.

I pulled open the screen door and started walking down the hallway to my room, which conveniently, I needed to pass the kitchen to get to. My presence didn't go unnoticed and I soon as my foot passed the open kitchen screen, Nya called out my name. "Y/N!"

I sighed and entered the kitchen, shifting so I was holding my duffel in both hands. Lloyd smiled at me from where he sat next to Kai and I lightly smiled back. "I didn't know you were coming back today, I would have picked you up," Cole said, gesturing for me to sit down next to him. I didn't respond to his offer so he awkwardly pursed his lips. "I had school stuff that I needed but didn't take to dad's."

"Well let's celebrate your birthday! Sit down," Jay cheered excitedly, motioning me to the table. "No, no," I shrugged off, "I really don't want to celebrate my birthday. I just want to lay down."

"It's your eighteenth," Kai agreed, trying to get me to hang out. "We can  -- " Lloyd began before I quickly cut him off. " -- Seriously, I'm tired. I just want to lay down."

As the words left my mouth, Sensei looked at me carefully and tired to draw a conclusion from my face, but I turned away from him before he could see my sadness and inner struggles. 

"Are you alright, Y/N?" Zane wondered. When I didn't respond right awy, Cole made the move to stand up, "Y/N?"

I sighed and ran a hand through my hair, "Kelly and Dad were fighting over my birthday and I'm just getting really tired of being tossed around," I explained. "My birthday is over, and I just want to keep it that way."

"I can talk to Dad and -- "

"It wouldn't do anything, Cole. I'm off to college soon so I'll just deal with it until then," I said before turning to glance at the hallway and motioning to it, "I'm just going to lay down. See you guys later."

Everyone mumbled some form of goodbye and I made my way to my room where once I had the door open, I let the tears and anxiety that I had held in for five days just pour out of me. I didn't bother turning on my lights, I just kicked off my sneakers, dropped my bag, and climbed into my bed.

I threw the covers over me and let my tears soak my pillow as I quietly cried to myself. I didn't want to be going to a different house every weekened. I had clothes at three different houses. No one understood how I felt, and honestly, no one asked. I didn't have a choice in the matter.

I heard my door creak open and I was too itired and ashamed to turn and face the person that I just sniffled and croaked out a weak "Go away."

The person didn't care about my request and instead I felt the bed dip down beside me. I didn't need to turn around to tell it was Lloyd. "Hey," he whispered, his hand finding my shoulder as he tried to push my back on the bed so he could see me. But I shrugged my shoulder away from him and he sighed, "Y/N, come here," he pleaded.

I squinted my eyes and let the tears that were pooling under them slip down my cheeks before I turnedthe other way to face my boyfriend. He saw my tears and instatnyl lifted his hand to wipe them before kissing me on the forehead and pulling me into his chest. 

His hand ran through my hair as I lightly cried on his shoulder and before I knew it, he was soothing me with soft shhs and I had fallen asleep while cuddling with Lloyd.

My birthdaymay have sucked, but all I wanted to do anyways was hang out with Lloyd and my friends.