Ok so this one is a little dark at first, but just bare with me. It'll make sense as you keep reading. Enjoy.

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Lloyd's P.O.V.:

It had been about a week since the whole Harumi incident and I was still recovering from what happened. My ribs still ached every now and then, but they were feeling a lot better. Kira insisted on trying to heal me at least once a day, but I didn't want her to.

According to Nya and Skylor, elemental powers are harder to use when you're carrying a baby. Given that they don't cause any harm to the mother to be or the baby, they still tire her out. I had no idea about any of that because Harumi didn't have powers and to be honest she never let me help when she was pregnant with Ryder. All I did was get her food and deal her mood swings. I didn't get to feel him kick for the first time or be in the delivery room with her while she was giving birth.

That's why I was so happy that Nya and Skylor were giving her all kinds of advice about the pregnancy and all that stuff. It was really nice of them to help her out considering they both knew about this more than I did. Not that I would love this baby more than I do Ryder, but I just hoped with Kira it would be different.

I had been having this sharp pain in my neck since the whole thing. I asked Kira to look at it and she said there wasn't anything that she could see wrong. When she used her powers they didn't work and neither one us could figure out why.

I trusted Kira's opinion because, well she's a nurse, but it just didn't feel right. I didn't know what it was but it hurt. I would ice my neck and make it go away temporarily but it always came back. It was driving me crazy. Not to mention the migraines I would get on occasion, however I'd take being in pain over going to hospital again any day. At least at home I could be with my family and help Kira with the baby.

Kira's P.O.V.:

I felt so bad for Lloyd. When we got back from the hospital he had been blaming himself for what happened to me and Ryder. It really wasn't his fault, but he was my husband now and I wanted to make sure he was ok. I walked into our bedroom and found him on the bed staring at the ceiling, like he had been all week.

"Hey. Are you feeling any better today?" I asked.

"I'm doing ok." Lloyd answered. "I still have this sharp pain in my neck though."

"I'm sorry. I don't know why I'm not able to heal it." I frowned.

"It's ok, you shouldn't be using your powers right now anyway unless it's absolutely necessary." He said as he set up on the bed still rubbing his neck. "Don't feel like you have to take care of me."

"Sorry, that's my job." I laughed and set down next to him. I took a look at his neck again but I still didn't see anything that would be causing him pain. "I still don't see anything, but if it's bothering you that much, maybe Zane and Pixal can figure it out."

"I think I might have to pay them a visit." Lloyd sighed.

"I'll go with you." I insisted.

"You can if you want to. I might bring Ryder too so I can keep an eye on him."

"Still being overprotective I see?" I crossed my arms.

"Well can you blame me?" He shrugged. "I still haven't forgiven myself for what happened the first time, and now after that I don't wanna let him out of my sight again."

"Lloyd, that wasn't your fault." I put my hand on his shoulder.

"Maybe if I would've told somebody when I suspected something was up or if I would've took him and left her when I had the chance or..."

"Lloyd calm down, the stress isn't good for your condition." I cut him off. "What's important is that you're here for him now, and now he has two people to look after him."

"Thanks but that doesn't change the fact that his life is constantly in danger." He frowned. "What if one day I won't be around to protect him?"

"Don't be so hard on yourself. You're doing everything you can and nobody blames you for what happened."

"I still blame myself." He laid down on the bed and shoved a pillow in his face. "I'm a terrible father."

"Lloyd don't say that."

"Why not? It's true." He frowned.

"Ok that's it."

I grabbed his hands and pulled him out of bed against his will. Lloyd fell onto the floor and he was too depressed to get up.

"What did you do that for?" He exclaimed.

"I'm taking you to a therapist." I said.

"I don't need one, I don't have a problem." Lloyd stated.

"That's exactly what someone who needs a therapist would say." I said. "Come on, it'll be good for you."

"Kira I'm not going to see a therapist." He stated. "I'm fine."

"It'll be fine, my patients at the hospital that struggle with depression always feel better after going."

"I told you I'm fine, I don't need a therapist." He stated again.

"Please? You're so depressed all the time and I don't want to see you like that."

"I'm not depressed all the time, I'm just mad at myself."

"That right there. That's exactly what I'm talking about."

"I TOLD YOU I'M FINE!" He screamed in my face.

He tried to hit me but thankfully I ducked and blocked it. His eyes widened as he realized what he'd done and he held the back of his neck in pain. I had no idea what he just did or why he did it, but it was obviously against his will. He dropped to his knees and I saw a tear roll down his face. I could tell that he was even more depressed than he was before, and that scared me. Depressed people can do dangerous things to themselves.

"Kira... I-I'm sorry." He said catching his breath. "I d-don't know what came over me."

"What just happened?" I asked catching my breath.

"It felt like something was taking control of me." He frowned and looked at his hands. "I... I couldn't stop it."

"Lloyd it's ok. I'm fine." I tried to help him up, but he pushed me back.

"Please, stay back, I don't want to hurt you or the baby." He frowned.

"Lloyd I know you. That wasn't you. Whatever's happening, we're going to figure it out. Ok?"

Lloyd sat back down on the ground and buried his face in his hands. He kept shaking his head back and forth, trying to make sense of what just happened.

"I'm a monster. I'm a monster." He kept repeating to himself.

"Hey listen to me. You are not a monster." I cooed.

"Just do me a favor and take care of Ryder." He said as he got up.

"What?"

"He's not safe around me, but he trusts you. You need to be the parent I never was." He frowned. "I'm a danger to him and the baby."

"Lloyd don't say that, we can figure it out."

"Not this time." He sighed and started to walk towards the window.

"Where are you going?" I frowned.

"Relax, I'm just going to clear my head. You'll see me again."

"But what will do?" I asked.

"To see an old friend." He stated.

He jumped out the window and then I saw his dragon fly off. At least he was alive but I was concerned for his mental health. He had been in this depressive slump ever since what happened and he still blamed himself for it. I was about to go after him but then I heard Ryder on the other side of the door.

"Daddy?" He said.

I opened the door and I let Ryder in. He was looking for Lloyd.

"Where's my Dad?" He asked me.

"He went to do something." I lied. "Was there something you needed?"

"I heard a loud noise and it woke me up." He yawned.

"It was probably time for you to get up anyway." I told him. "It's ok I just dropped something."

"Oh ok." Ryder said.

"You must be hungry, how about I make you some pancakes for dinner?" I offered.

"Yay!" He exclaimed.

He went back into the kitchen and I followed him. I just hoped Lloyd would be ok.

Lloyd's P.O.V.:

I was on my way to Kryptarian. I had to see Harumi and find out what she did to me. If she did what I think she did, then they might as well lock me up too. At least then I won't hurt anyone.

Ryder and Kira would be safer that way and they seem to have no problem looking out for each other. I know I didn't want my baby to grew up without me, but my mom and all my friends would help Kira with the baby instead. It was best for everyone.

I parked my dragon and ran in the building. I went straight to see the warden.

"Where is she?" I asked.

"What?" He asked.

"Harumi, she did something to me and I need to find out what before I end up accidentally hurting someone I care about." I explained.

"We'll set up an interrogation room for you." The warden agreed.

"Make sure she drinks the tea of truth if you have to shove it down her throat." I said. "I want to make sure that I get this right."

"Of course." He agreed.

About an hour later, I walked up to the visiting place and spoke to her from behind the glass window. I felt more comfortable that way. What scared me was that for once, everything that came out of her mouth would be the truth and I wasn't sure I wanted to hear it.

"Oh when I heard someone came to visit me I didn't expect to see you." Harumi said.

"Save it." I scowled. "You know why I'm here."

"Is there something wrong with Ryder?" She asked.

"No, not that you'd care if there was." I crossed my arms.

"True." She said.

"I'm here because I wanna know what you did to me and I'm not leaving until I get my answer." I demanded.

"Fine, just sit there then. I have all the time in the world." She leaned back.

I grew frustrated and threw my fist against the glass in anger. The punch was strong enough to break it slightly, but luckily it was triple paned so she couldn't get out. A piece of glass was stuck in my hand from punching the glass, and it hurt pretty bad, but I was too focused on Harumi to care. The warden was giving me a look.

"I'll pay for that." I apologized to the warden.

Harumi burst out laughing and I took a deep breath. Even when I knew she wasn't lying, I still lost control of my emotions. Maybe I was wrong and she didn't do anything to me... wait, this is Harumi we're talking about. Of course she did something.

"Hahahahaha!" She laughed. "I didn't even have to do anything that time and you still hurt yourself. I always knew you were a softie."

'Calm down Lloyd, you're playing her games again. This is exactly what she wants.' I thought to myself. 'You have to outsmart her. Don't let her win this time. You can't let her win this time.'

"I bet that serum you injected me with had nothing to do with it right?" I asked.

"Of course it does you big..." she covered her mouth. "Oh I see what you did there. Well played."

"Spend enough time around you, you pick up a few tricks." I smirked. "But it doesn't matter because I bet there isn't an antidote."

"All the venom is doing is forcing the Oni side of you come out by going through your blood stream." She admitted. "If there's an antidote I don't know what it is."

"Did you get Ryder too?" I frowned.

"No, the stupid kid never gave me a chance." She sighed.

"Why do you hate him so much?" I frowned.

"He just exists because he's an Oni and I needed him for my plan. Now he's of no use to me." She answered.

"He is so much more and you're blind if you can't see that." I yelled. "If you had a problem with me, you should've took it up with me and left him out of it."

"Yeah but that wouldn't have been as effective." She sniped.

"You're so lucky you're behind the glass." I squinted my eyes.

"So are you." Harumi snarled.

"By the way, you are never allowed to come near Ryder ever again."

"Wasn't planning on it." She sniped.

'Don't do it. Don't do it. Don't let her win. Walk away. Walk away!"

"Good. At least he'll be safe."

Those were the final words I said before I walked away. The warden got me an ice pack for my hand and sent me on my way. I didn't know where to go. I didn't want to hurt my family or my friends. Maybe Kira was right and I really did need a therapist, but I still feel like someone was gonna get hurt.

In the end I decided to go to Pixal and Zane's to see if they could take a sample of my blood and try to find an antidote for whatever she did to me. I was only going to show up, let him do his thing and leave before anyone got hurt. When I knocked on the door, Alex answered it.

"Oh. Hello Mr. Garmadon." Alex said.

"Hi Alex." I said. "Are your parents home? I need to talk to them about something important."

"Yes. Would you like to come in?" He said.

"Sure." I agreed.

He led me inside and took me to Zane and Pixal.

"Mother and father, Mr. Garmadon is here." Alex told him.

"Why hello Lloyd." Zane greeted me. "What brings you here?"

"I need your help." I frowned.

"Lloyd you seem to be injured." Pixal noticed the blood on my hand from when I punched the glass.

"I can get a first aid kit Mom." Alex offered.

"Thank you Alex." Zane said and his son walked out of the room.

"Wait, shouldn't Kira had fixed that up for you?" Pixal asked looking at my wound.

"Relax, I'm fine." I assured them. "Kira's powers aren't working that well at the moment. Either way that's not why I'm here."

"Then why?" Zane asked.

"In the cave with Harumi, she injected me with some kind of venom or something." I explained. "It's making my Oni side come out and I need you to make an antidote before it takes control and I end up hurting someone I care about."

"Do Kira and Ryder know?" Pixal asked.

"No but I..." I stopped and stared at the floor.

"What?" Zane frowned.

"I... I almost... did something that I would've regretted." I frowned. "I don't want to talk about it."

"Well do not worry, we'll get you fixed up and then we can run some tests to see what's going on." Zane said.

"Thank you Zane." I sighed with relief.

Alex came back with the first aid kit and Zane wrapped up my hand in bandages. Then they ran those tests they talked to me about. The only thing they knew for now was that it wasn't lethal, which was a good thing, but they told me that it would take a few days to get the full results back.

I didn't want Kira, Ryder and my mother to be around me until I was sure it could be cured or until I was able to control it. I went to stay at Kira's old hideout in Hiroshi's Labyrinth, a place where I could be sure I wouldn't hurt anyone. I also didn't want them to worry about me, so I wrote them a letter before I left:

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Dear Kira, Ryder and Mom,

    I know I've made some mistakes that I'm not proud of, and I don't wanna make them again. So until I can figure everything out, I'm gonna be living somewhere else for a while. Please don't worry about me because I have everything I need, and this way no one else will get hurt. I won't be gone very long, and I should rejoin you in a few days if all goes well. I want to say something to all of you.

    Kira, I love you so much and I will never forgive myself for what I almost did to you today. I hope that one day you can forgive me and please take care of Ryder for me. You're gonna make a wonderful mom and don't have that baby until I get back.

     Mom, you've always been there for me, but now I need you to be there for Kira and Ryder too. Please take care of them the way I never could.

     And to Ryder, my son. I don't want you to think that I'm abandoning you or our family. I love you son, and I always will, I just need some time to clear my head. I'm only trying to protect you, but all I do is get you into more trouble. This is the only way I can keep you safe. Be good for your grandma and Kira. I love you bud, and I'm sorry.

                             Love,
                                  ~Lloyd/Daddy

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That was the hardest thing I've ever had to write, but it needed to be said. I just hoped that I could fix whatever this was before someone got hurt.