I haven't felt this empty in a long time, it's kind of nice not having all those thoughts circulating in my head. My mind is quiet no feelings no thoughts just peace and silence. Walking, what is walking? I can't feel anything, my body is numb, I can't feel my feet hit the ground or the air in my lungs. Why do my lungs still move if I am dead? Why does my heart still beat when it once stopped?

With all these questions but no answers, my mind is now quiet.

I forget to breathe, how can one forget to breathe? Breathing is the mind's job, and my mind is quiet. I breathe again in-out, so easy but so much work why won't my mind breathe?

Blood, my body wants it but my mind does not. You should listen to your mind blood makes monsters you are not a monster. 

I don't need blood.

Where am I going? Why am I walking again? I don't know I don't need to know, my mind is quiet.

Footsteps don't I know those footsteps? Who was outside with me again? Michal, but Michal is dead, I killed him. Eric and Damon but they were inside not outside I don't know those footsteps.

There's a hand on my shoulder, who's hand is on my shoulder? Turning around Damon stands behind me hand on my shoulder I did know those footsteps. He watches me concerned or at least I think concerned I don't know my mind is quiet. "You okay?" he asks concerned.

Remember to smile people know you are fine if you smile "yes Dam I am fine." Good job you spoke now people know you are fine.

Damon watches me searching my eyes "you sure we don't know what Michal said back there but it seemed bad."

I nod "I am fine I dealt with Michal." Voice even smile on you are fine.

He nods slowly his hand swinging at his side, when did he take his hand off my shoulder? "Eric left to talk with the Base Commander do you want to pick up Enya early?"

Enya, is now safe but others want to hurt her, I must keep her safe. Others want to hurt my friends I must keep them safe. Looking at Damon I nod with a bright smile "let's go get Enya she might be bored."

Damon smiles slowly observing my attire "you might want to change first you are covered in blood."

Looking at myself I nod "I will shower can you watch Enya well I shower?" Blood means monster I am not a monster, no blood.

He smiles a little more "I can come on I will walk you to the showers." Damon walks in front of me a slight skip in his step. He thinks I am fine you are fine I am not a monster my mind is quiet.     Damon bows in front of the girl's bathroom door "your stop my lady."

I snicker bowing back "thank you, kind sir." When did we get here? When did we get inside? I don't know, my mind is quiet. Damon leaves me alone in the hall as he goes to get Enya. No one is in the bathroom when I enter not that I care I am finally at peace.

Taking my normal stall I remove my clothes placing them on top of my bag. I don't know what temperature I turned the shower to just that I am under the water. I watch the black and red water disappear down the drain. The black is so prominent against the concrete floor as it mixes with the red. I used to find my black blood pretty after I turned now it proves that I am forever part monster, a disease.

Quickly scrubbing at my arms, legs, chest, and back clear water soon flows down the drain. Dried and dressed I am out of the bathroom making my way to Enya's classroom. No sound comes from my feet as I move no sound has after I turned. Two presences come into my radar moving quickly in my direction. Ignoring them I focus on nothing moving on autopilot as I bask in the blissful quiet my mind provides.

Two hands shove me forcefully into the wall. Angry red eyes burn into my skull as they push on my neck cutting off my already small amount of oxygen. "You little vampling do you know what you have done?" The male vampire spits.

I stare at him blankly standing frozen in his grasp. A female vampire comes up behind the one holding me her red eyes glimmering against her black clothes. "This is the vampling that killed Michal," she sneers turning her nose up "so pathetic she's not even fighting back. You scared now little girl now that you are outnumbered?"

She cackles at her words well the man laughs. I watch them blankly unblinking "no," I say unfeeling.

They both stop laughing their eyes turning a darker crimson. The lady walks closer leaning a centimetre away from my face "no?" I don't answer as I continue to stare at her face blankly. "No," she laughs her eyes crazed out of nowhere her hand is on my throat the man now behind her. " Nobody says no to me little girl I don't know how a pathetic excuse of a vampire killed Michal but the witch said not to kill you, she never said we couldn't kill you for a short amount of time."

The man behind her grins taking a step back. The woman pulls me forward before slamming my head into the wall a giant crack echoes in the corridor as black blood splatter the wall dripping down my back and soaking my once clean hair. I don't blackout as they hopped as the wound stitches itself together.

The woman snarls grabbing the sides of my head and twisting. My neck snaps painfully before I fall to the floor my vision blackening, dead.

"Kaindra, Kaindra, Kaindra wake up," my neck snaps back into place as I sit up. Enya jumps into my arms squeezing tightly. Damon smiles as he sits back on his heels.

"When did you guys get here?" I ask holding onto Enya as I stand up.

Damon mimics my movements resting his hands in his front pockets as he shrugs. "A few minutes ago give or take. We found you lying on the ground you weren't breathing and your neck was broken."

He eyes me with his unspoken questions. Sighing I let Enya down "Two of Michal's vampires found me and wanted to kill me but the witch won't allow them. They did the next best thing and killed me temporarily." I say tiredly turning to look at what Enya is watching.

My dried blood still covers a small portion of the wall as well as the back of my head. Waving my hand the blood vanishes leaving the wall and myself clean again. "Let's hope no one saw you and the blood that will not end well," Damon mumbles.

I nod motioning for Enya to follow me. Continuing down the hall I was originally going to before being rudely interrupted Damon and Enya walk beside me. I nod along now and then to whatever Enya is saying not hearing anything. Crossing into the main building Eric bumps into Damon frantically looking around till his eyes land on me, "we have a problem."

Hearing that my gaze hardens from its blank look "what happened?"

Eric grabs my wrist pulling me down the way he came "someone saw you."

"Who? When? Where?" I fire questions at him as he drags me up to the top floor Enya and Damon running behind us.

"We don't know who but they saw you dead in a corridor with black blood on the walls. They told their group leader and they went to look, you were gone and so was the blood." Eric pants as he pulls me into the Base Commanders' office Damon shuts the door behind him.

Shit, I don't know how long I was dead nor can I know if someone could have seen me. Worry flashed in my mind before vanishing returning me to my quiet mind. The Base Commander sits behind his desk grey hair combed back a frown marring his wrinkled skin. I take a seat directly in front of him his eyes watching my every move.

Enya sits beside me staying as still as a statue. Damon and Eric stand guard at the door watching the Commander and me carefully. 

The Commander clears his throat leaning back in his chair eyes still on me "some news came to me saying you were dead in the hall after confirmation that Michal was also dead but his body not found."

Face blank I nod "Michal is dead."

He frowns pulling the wrinkles at the side of his eyes away "where is the body?"

"Gone I burnt it," emotionless that's how I feel talking about Michal.

His eyes widen ever so slightly "okay now let's get to the important reason why I asked for you. Where you dead." He leans forward elbows on the desk.

I blink once feeling Damon shift where he stands my eyes never leaving the Commander. "Yes, I was," He jerks sitting up straighter Eric coughs as his only reaction.

The Commander watches me closely "then how are you here if you were dead?"

Blinking twice I forget to breathe again taking some time to breathe the others wait in silence for my response. Focusing once again on the Commander I answer "because I already am."

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