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"how was your birthday?" i smiled at eunbi.

"it was so fun! yeonjun was so hyper!" she said and looked over at yeonjun who's just smiling at her.

his eyes looking at her as if he's looking at the stars that shines through the night.

i lowered my head when a pang of pain hit my chest.

"well, see you later eunbi!" we waved and i silently went to the room with yeonjun.

"eunbi was a little disappointed yesterday, she feels like you don't want to come to her parties because it's cheap—"

"it's not like that." i said and pulled out my notebook.

"it's been years, ever since we met you. where do you go?" he asked.

i pulled down my pen and gulped, "nowhere." i picked out my pen.

"then why is it so hard to come to our parties? don't you really like it because you want luxurious events only?"

you don't know why.

and you'll never know.

i'll just let him think like that, i'm too lazy to explain myself.

the teacher arrived and taught us everything he prepared for today. i almost felt sleepy but smiled until my whole gums showed when i heard the bell.

i quickly stood up and arranged my things.

we went out and directly to the cafeteria, we saw eunbi waving at me with foods in thr tray now. i furrowed my eyebrows.

"you bought us lunch?" i asked her and she nodded happily.

"yeah, i received my payment earlier before going to school." she said.

"you should've used that for your savings." yeonjun said, lowkey scolding her.

i sat and they continued talking while i silently ate my food. i have no appetite today but eunbi bought this.

"yow, yeonjun!" we heard someone behind us.

i turned my head to see a tall guy, went over to yeonjun that headlock him.

"what the heck? why are you here?" yeonjun asked, pushing the tall guy with dimples away.

"dad transferred me here, he have business with your dad." he said and sat beside me.

he was talking to yeonjun until he noticed us, he scratched her nape, "i'm sorry to disturb, i'm soobin."

"he's my friend." yeonjun said, rolling his eyes.

"i'm eunbi," she smiled.

"eunbi? wait? eunbi that yeonjun always talk about—" yeonjun inserted a piece of food inside his mouth.

i chuckled, lowering my head.

i don't want to be jealous, but i can't help it. it's not wrong to be jealous right?

"how about you?" i heard soobin beside me.

i looked up to meet his eyes, "i'm y/n." then looked at my food again.

they all talked but i just stayed quite, looking forward until the school ends. i just want to lay on my bed, use my phone until the radiation eat me.

i stood up to dispose my food and told them i'll just go to the bathroom.

i walked up to the stairs until i reached the rooftop where no students go to. i opened the rusty door and the fresh air welcome me.

i look up to the sky and sighed.

i closed my eyes, feeling the sunlight hitting my skin.

until i heard the door creaking.

"oh? aren't you y/n?"

i looked back to see the soobin guy and i just nodded. i sighed and was about to go back when he grabbed my arms.

"did i disturb you?" he asked.

"no," i said.

"then, let's hang out here for a moment?" he smiled and his dimples showed.

"i'm busy.* i said and turned my back, going downstairs.

i need no company and i just feel like being alone.

i guess this rooftop would be crowded soon. i sighed.

the day went by so fast, the next thing i was doing is entering the car. i looked outside the window, feeling dull.

i entered the house, not giving any care about my surroundings. i lay on my bed, looking at the ceiling.

i feel alone.

but at the same time, i wanna be alone.

i feel unwanted, i hate it.

i have friends but i was never their first choice. i was never the best friend.

i don't know if i'm the problem or them?

i sighed when i heard a knock on my door, i stood up lazily to be greeted by my dad.

my eyes widened at his sudden visit and i just smiled at him a little.

"i have to tell you something." he said and told me to follow him to the living room.

i rolled my eyes behind his back and sat on the sofa.

"what is it dad?" i asked him.

he sighed, "be careful these days,"

"did something happen?"

"choyeon. she came back." he said, sighing.

mom?

"mom? where is she?" i excitedly asked.

did she want to meet me or what? did she want to see me again after 10 years?

"didn't i tell you not to call her mom? she's not your mom anymore, you don't have a mom." he gritted his teeth.

i stayed silent after that.

muttered a sorry, playing with my hands.

"don't ever talk to her if she ever contact you, stay with the guards as always, don't mention her name anymore  don't tell anyone that you have a mom. you never had a mom, remember that." he said and stood up.

he fixed his coat, ready to leave again.

so he just came home to remind me that i don't have a mom?

"i never had a dad either." i whispered, standing up.

suddenly, he pulled me, "what did you say?"

his eyes is glazing mad and i just want to cry in front of him, tell him how much i feel alone, how much i need a parent at least once in my life.

he let go of me, turning his back and leaving again.

no one,

no one really care for me.

i am unwanted.

i wiped my cheeks because i only have myself, i shouldn't let myself down like that.

i went to my room again, grabbing jacket and started walking away from home.

i only have my phone and wallet.

the sun is setting and i just sighed.

i walked around the neighborhood before hearing footsteps behind me, i looked back to see a person in hood, obviously following me.

i shrugged but stopped walking when i heard my phone buzzed.

it was a text message from unknown number.

'just remember that mom always got your back, i missed you, my sweet y/n.'

i turned around and there, i saw my mom.

with a big smile on her face, her arms open up wide.

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lel feeling unmotivated but i hope u guys liked this chapter! will check out the comments bc i don't have time so sorry if i didn't reply yet.

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