,,What the bloody hell is wrong with you?", he screamed and angrily shut the door of our room.

I breathed heavily and turned back to him. ,,You're kidding, right? You must be kidding."

,,No, no I'm not kidding. I'm not fucking kidding! What's wrong with you? Did I something wrong? Tommy, the last weeks you were always pissed!"

He didn't look the same. That wasn't my Newt. His brown eyes looked broken, they had lost their sparkling. They looked empty. The beautiful eyes of my boyfriend were foggy, because of all the drugs.

,,Is there another guy I should know about?" Shyly he looked at me. His golden hair hung over his left eye. Fast, he smoothed it back.

Stunned I started to laugh. Not a happy laugh. Just a sad, stunned laugh. How is it possible, that he doesn't get it?

,,You're only fucking happy when you're on your bloody drugs. You won't make it to your 23. birthday if you don't stop. You lied to me. Newt, you always told me you stopped it. You fucking promised me this shit! How could you dare, how could you fucking dare, lying right into my bloody face?"

My boyfriend swallowed hard. Then he made two steps towards me. ,,Tommy, let me explain, I-"

,,No.", I said and shook off his hand, which he just laid on my left shoulder.

,,Thomas. Please, I didn't know you would be so fucking mad because of these little drugs-"

I runned my fingers trough my hair. ,,I'm so tired of this shit."

His eyes widened. ,,No. Don't say what I think you are going to say!"

I stepped back, my eyes filled with tears. ,,I don't know what I should do. It's ruining you, and it's ruining me. I can't watch, how you get more and more broken every day. You are lost. You can only help yourself now."

His eyes filled with tears, too. ,,Please-"

I bit my lip. ,,I'm sorry.", I whispered.

Almost crying out loud, I went to our shared room and took a sportbag.

Newt followed me. ,,Please, Tommy, please don't! I fucking love you, you can't do this! You can't do this to me! I'll promise, I fucking stop!"

,,I love you too. And that's why I can't watch this anymore. You need help."

,,I'll fucking get help, but stay here!", he cried out and looked at me desperately. His hazed eyes were filled with tears, which made their way over his cheeks.

,,Please.", he whispered and stepped next to me. Normally, he was the taller one of us two. My boyfriend was one centimeter taller than me. But now, he was so tiny. His shoulders were slumped, he looked on the floor.

Newt looked so tiny, so vulnerable. I felt my cheeks getting wet from the tears. If I would speak now, my voice would break.

I loved him so much. But I couldn't take this anymore.

Newt looked at me. He was so beautiful. I've never seen anything more beautiful than this boy.

,,Thomas. I will do everything, but just... just don't leave me."

He stepped forwards and this time, I didn't step backwards.

His sad eyes made me tear up even more and before I could answer him, he smashed his soft, pink lips onto mine.

,,I love you.", he whispered against my lips, after he broke the kiss. I could feel his warm breath.

Even trough the smell of all the drugs, I could slightly smell the vanilla softener, he always buys because he only likes this one.

I noticed, that Newt is wearing my black pullover, which is too big for him because he is so thin.

,,You promise you stop?"

His eyes widened. ,,Yes! Yes, yes. I will get help, I will never ever lie to you again or disappoint you. I love you Tommy."

I placed my hand in his neck and pulled him against me. ,,I love you too, Newt."

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