I run around looking for Newt.
I have to make things right. I didn't want to lose him. The best thing that's happened to me. I couldn't lose him.
"Sonya!" I scream.
I saw her sitting laughing with who I assume to be her older sister.
"(Y/N) are you okay?" She asks.
Her eyes were full of concern as she saw my tear streaked face.
"Where's Newt? I need to find Newt." I say out of breath and still crying.
"I don't know." She says.
"I have to find him Sonya. I have to. He hates me and it's not my fault but I messed up everything." I say crying.
"What happened?" She asks.
I could tell that her sister was confused.
"What's going on?" The sister asks.
"I have to find Newt. Minho, he pretend to be my boyfriend and I'm going to lose Newt because of him. He saw my mom being all friendly with Minho cause she thought he was my boyfriend." I say.
Explaining this made me cry even more.
"Didn't you tell your mom that he wasn't your boyfriend?" Lizzy asks.
"Yes. I tried. She just thought I was trying to hide the fact I had a boyfriend. And I wasn't. But she didn't know." I say. "Can you please help me find Newt?" I ask.
"Yeah. Lizzy, let's all split up. I'll text you if either of us find him." Sonya says.
Lizzy agrees and we all go our seperate ways.
I first run to his room and knock on the door.
"Come in!" I hear.
I open the door but it's only Thomas and his parents.
"Sorry. I was trying to find Newt." I say.
"It's alright. I'll see you later." Thomas says offering a smile.
"See you." I say giving him a fake smile.
I walk back out of the room and go to the library where we had our sleepover.
I open the door and step in. It was dim in the room as the lights were off. So I look everywhere. And I can't find him.
I let a few more tears slide down my face and I sink to the ground of the library to cry.
I keep crying.
Everything was messed up.
With Newt.
The boy that I loved.
He was gone.
He wouldn't want me back. I knew that. He would hate me. So would everyone else.
I keep crying into my hands. I want to give up. I want to stop looking so I don't have to face the inevitable rejection from Newt.
I can't believe that this is happening to me.
I feely phone vibrate.
Sonya: We found him. Come quick.
Sonya: He's out by the gardens.
Me: I'm coming.
Sonya: He's a mess. Please hurry up.
Me: On my way.
I run as fast as my feet can carry me and trip rolling my ankle. I cry even more. The pain in my ankle was unbearable.
But I have to keep going.
I have to.
For Newt.
I take off my heels and keep running, wincing every time my left foot hits the ground. It hurts so bad and I'm not even half way there.
Me: Sonya, I rolled my ankle and I can barely walk.
Sonya: You have to try to hurry.
Me: I'm trying. It hurts.
I keep going but I fall again on the same ankle.
"Ah!" I scream.
I was in so much pain. My ankle was throbbing.
I could barely focus on anything else. But I have to pull through.
For Newt.
That's what I keep telling myself as I sit there on the ground.
Do it for Newt.
Do it for Newt.
Do it for Newt.
Do it for Newt.
I repeat it in my head like it's a chant and I try again.
I keep pushing through, limping all the way there.
Sonya: Where are you???
Me: My ankle! I can barely walk. I'm almost there. I need you to carry me. J can't keep going. I tried so hard.
Sonya: I'm coming. Stay where you are. Lizzy and I will be there soon.
Me: Please hurry up. I need to make sure he's okay. I need to tell him what happened. I can't lose him.
"(Y/N)!" I hear Sonya scream.
I was on the ground crying in pain. My ankle was now obviously swollen.
"Oh no." Lizzy whispers.
"I can't walk anymore on it." I cry.
"It's okay. We can carry you. I promise. We got you." Lizzy says.
They attempt to pick me up but they aren't successful.
"Guys, what if this doesn't work?" I ask crying harder.
"Sonya we need to do this. This is bad." Lizzy says.
"I'm trying. I'm trying." Sonya says.
They try again and we have the same results as the last. They can't pick me up.
I start to cry harder.
"Hey, I have an idea. (Y/N), you can walk on your other foot right?" Lizzy asks.
"Yeah, just not the other one." I say.
"If we can help you stand, you can throw and arm around my shoulder and one around Sonya's. Then we need you to try to hop along with us to where Newt is." Lizzy explains.
"Okay." I say.
"Do you think that's okay?" Sonya asks.
"We have to try it. Anything to see Newt. Anything." I tell them.
Lizzy smiles at me with a sad smile.
"One, two, three." Sonya says.
They help me stand up and we start walking. I hop with one foot in the air behind me.
They keep helping me and I start to hear sobs.
Newt.
"Newt!" I call out.
We reach him and the girls set me down by him.
"Why are you here? Wanna rub Minho in my face a little more?" He asks.
"Newt-" I start but he cuts me off.
"Don't even. I heard everything. Don't act like you love me. You like Minho. I was just your play toy. How could you?" He asks.
"You never were. You didn't hear the whole conversation!" I cry.
"I heard enough to know you like Minho. I think we should break up." Newt says.
My heart shatters.