This imagine involves self harm, please do not read if you do not feel comfortable. Remember you are worth it! Show everybody that you are stronger than they think you are, that you won't break.  If you ever want to talk, and I mean ever I am here. We may not see each other every other every day but I would go to the moon if it meant helping you.

        I let another tear slip down my cheek as I watched the blood pour out of wrist. It helped, it was the only thing that made me feel better; feeling physical pain took away from the emotional pain. I slid the blood covered razor over my wrist once more before everything went black. 

        'Where am I?' I thought to myself as I lifted my head. A large pain shot through my head as I looked into the sun coming from the window. I groaned and turned the other way to notice my arm had a bandage on it. I immediatly shot up despite the pain and walked out of the room I was currently in. I eventually found Newt. 

        "Why am I here?" I asked him. He looked at me with tears in his eyes and tear stained cheeks. He looked aweful, honestly. His hair was everywhere and dirtier than usual, he had bags under his eyes, and he didn't smell the best either. Above all of that he looked hurt. 

        "Why?" He asked me, his voice cracking. "Why would you do this, (Y/N)?" A tear falling from his eye. 

        I looked away for a moment, trying to collect my thoughts. No body EVER found out about me, well until now. I used to cut before I entered the maze, I found them the first few days I was here. "I'm sorry." I said my voice cracking. 

        Newt looked at me, probably amazed that I actually spoke. 

        "I had a hard life before the maze. I found scars on my wrists and thighs, I don't know why I did it before the maze. I know one thing, when I get out here, I am not going to back to whatever I had before." I said, tears threatening to fall from my eyes. 

        "Tell me why you do it now." He demanded in a soft voice. He was still crying but his voice wasn't cracking as much.

        "I am so tired of everyone telling me that I'm not as pretty and thin as Teresa. When she came here everyone was confused but they also thought she was pretty or 'hot'. When I showed up the only people who payed attention to me, even the slightest bit, were you, Thomas, and Chuck. Everyone else hates me and probably wishes that I had killed myself." I said, crying along side Newt. 

'        "Please. I don't know what I would have done if I lost you. I tried to do this once, it didn't work and I am so grateful because I would have never met you. You're the reason I wake up in the morning, if it wasn't for you I would have done this many more times until it worked. Please try and stop. I know it will be hard but please try. You are worth it, you deserve to live and be happy. Don't let what everyone else thinks get to you because they are wrong." He said, wiping tear from his face constantely. I was sobbing now but I didn't care that was the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me, even if I don't remember most of my life. 

        "Thank you Newt. Thank you so much. You're worth it too. I will try my hardest to stop but I am going to need you there for me." I said, still crying like a baby. 

        "I will be, (Y/N), I will be." I said, embracing me in a tight hug. We stayed that way until we both calmed down and could carry on with our day, laughing and reminding each other that we are worth it. 

************************************************************************************************************Guys I was honestly crying while writing this! Honesty though, you guys ARE worth it. Don't worry about what everyone else says about you, you are all beautiful. I love you guys so much, I can't even express it. <3 <3 

A/N: Someone requested this and I don't remember who, but you know who you are. Thank you to who ever requested it and sorry it took so long for me to get finished!