Jungkook's POV:

"Hyung? Can I borrow your phone?" I ask J-Hope.

"For what?" Yoongi raises his eyebrows at me, even though I wasn't looking for his reply

"I want to text Rae," I roll my eyes, Hobie handing me his phone.

"If you want to talk to her then just wake her up," Yoongi looks at me with a disgusted face as if it's the easiest thing in the world.

"Are you being serious?" I look at him, confused.

"Hyung, she isn't here anymore, remember?" Jimin sighs, continuing to play his video game.

"Aish," Yoongi shakes his head, walking over to his room.

I look at Jimin who seems completely unfazed by this whole situation. Honestly, I'm the same at this point. At first we were all extremely sad and against the proposition to send her away, but this all happened almost a year ago from today.

After the pictures of Yoongi and her surfaced, RaeJae was riddled with anxiety. The things antis said about her were unmentionable, drowning out any of the positive remarks from ARMYs.

The worst part is no one really got angry at Yoongi, it was all directed towards her.

That's when Bang PD-Nim offered an opportunity for her to escape. He told her that she could become a host on an idol interview show that luckily wanted her to come on even after all the controversy.

This meant she had to leave us, because the idol show was based in LA.

All of us said that it was ridiculous, but RaeJae said yes to it as soon as it was mentioned. It was almost as if she wanted to leave us, but Bang PD-Nim gave her the option to return to BTS after a year.

That year is almost up and it doesn't look like she will be returning.

I look down at her text messages with Hobie. She's only ever replied twice, and Hobie has sent about a thousand messages. We all have. She never reads any of ares but has read most of Hobies. I'm curious as to why that is.

I'd just like to know.

"Everyone, we need to get to the studio by 7. Let's leave now," Namjoon comes into the living room.

"I think Yoongi Hyung went back to bed though," I say.

"Can you wake him up? Meet us in the car," Namjoon replies.

I watch my hyungs walk out, awkwardly gulping out of fear. I'm sorry but waking Yoongi up is practically a death sentence and I'd rather live for a while longer.

"Yoongi Hyung! We're leaving!" I call from where I'm sitting, too afraid to enter his room.

No answer.

I slowly walk towards his door, slightly pushing it open just to see in. Instead of sleeping, Yoongi is just staring at the wall in front of him.

"Hyung?" I ask.

There's a slight pause before he says, "Am I stupid for always forgetting?"

I blinked a few times, waiting for him to get up and walk out. Usually he says things like this and then doesn't give us time to reply. However, this time it looks like he's waiting for me to say something.

"No. If anything it just means that you have hope..." I trail off, Ive never been any good at giving advice or saying the right things to make someone feel better.

He shakes his head back and forth, looking to the ground, "I don't have any hope, Jungkook. Maybe I used to, but that was months ago,"

"Why'd you lose it?" I reluctantly ask.

"I don't deserve to have it. Every time I think about her I get sad. Which is why I force myself to forget that any of this even happened. I constantly regret telling her not to try again, because if I would've let her then we wouldn't have gotten on that stupid elevator. I even regret waiting for as long as I had... I regret not telling her that when I said 'I love you' I really did mean it as something more. I regret not saying anything back when she told me she loved me so much..."

I can't help but frown at his words. Yoongi always talks about how you should never regret any of the decisions you ever make. But now he's telling me the opposite of that.

This just shows how media can twist and turn something that was small into something much bigger, something that can crush a person.

"I call her everyday about a million times and she never answers," He whispers.

"Isn't that having hope? That maybe she'll answer one of these times," I reply.

"Maybe," he shrugs, "but if she isn't answering it means she doesn't want anything to do with us... anything to do with me,"

"I think you're wrong. She has a much bigger, better reason for this. I can feel it," I say.

He finally looks at me, surprising me when I see that his eyes are slightly glassy.

"I'll take your word on that then, since you've always been able to read Rae better than anyone," There's a slight smile on his lips.

I nod, the two of us leaving. For some reason I feel very empty. Emptier than usual and I don't know why. We've tried our best to hide or sadness from the ARMY, acting as if sending RaeJae away was completely fine with us and with her.

That she's be back for the next comeback, no worries.

If only that were the case.

As we sit in the car, I stare at Hobies phone in my hands. I wish there was something to text RaeJae that would make her reply, but I can't think of anything I haven't tried.

I sigh, thinking of how every Sunday night we all sit in the living room, watching her idol interviewing show air. The smile on her face almost hurts me, but at the same time it makes me happy to see it.

She lost it when everything happened. I have so much resentment towards the media it isn't even healthy at this point.

I follow behind V as we enter Bang PD-Nim's room, suspecting that we are most likely going to be talking about our up and coming series love yourself. We based a lot of the concept on Raejae, which makes it a bit difficult to discuss.

"You all will be going to America,"

I stare at Bang PD-Nim's face, searching for a sign that he isn't joking.

"W-what?" Jin stutters, "when?"

"Tomorrow morning," He replies with a smile.

"Tomorrow morning?!" Jimin exclaims, "Why?"

"You're going on RaeJae's show," Bang PD-Nim leans back in his chair, all of us becoming frozen in shock.

So after almost a year of not seeing her, I will finally get to come face to face with Rae...

If this is our last chance at getting her back, I will do absolutely anything.

Because let's be honest, I would give my life for her.

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Guys )): I lowkey regret uploading that YouTube reaction video. There's quite a bit of hate on it... and I think it's because people don't like the way my sister joked about them. There was a comment saying that it was the worst BTS reaction video ever and not to watch it, it made me really sad.

The thing that disappoints me is that it wasn't even meant to be hateful, and in my opinion it doesn't even have any hate towards BTS in it. It was my sisters first time seeing them and not everyone is going to like them, and that's okay. I thought we clarified this message well in the video, but I guess people didn't care. Lowkey I don't like how some ARMYs attack others opinions so quickly, instead of hearing them out first.

I think most of the hate comes from people who didn't watch the whole video... because at the end my sister ends up liking the song and we even jammed out to it in the car the next day haha.  Why are some people so quick to judge things they don't know?

I worked really hard on editing it, and was proud to upload it... I thought it was funny and that the message would be well received. I understood that not everyone would like it, but to see some of the comments it's kind of hurtful.