30/3 9:00am
Private Chat

mattia❤️:
good morning bubs, how'd you sleep?

bb💕:
uh.

i mean how'd you think?

mattia❤️:
what time did you get to bed??

bb💕:
no comment

mattia❤️:
bb please tell me you at least slept some

kairi?

bb💕:
i was busy thinking and stuff

mattia❤️:
about?
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9:01am
Private Chat

kairi❤️:
ale pls tell me that im not the dumb one

ale🥵:
youre not

kairi❤️:
i havent even EXPLAINED yet

ale🥵:
still not dumb but ye go ahead

kairi❤️:
{image: screenshot of his and mattia's conversation}
wtf??

ale🥵:
holy fucking shit is he a moron

im going to kick his ass

but more importantly

how are you feeling about all this?

kairi❤️:
i just

idek. like did i imagine it? did he really just kiss me for the joke or WHAT. why did he say "about?"

im so confused

and im just. sad. i dont knowww

ale🥵:
try telling him that? you gotta talk about it

and kai if you need a shoulder to cry on you can always come over

kairi❤️:
ikik

and i dont want to bring it up. what if i make things awkward?

ale🥵:
i can talk to him if you want?

kairi❤️:
nonono i dont want him to think that im desperate or needy or anything like that

ale🥵:
he wont, trust me

kairi❤️:
i think i might just sleep the day off. not really feeling it

ale🥵:
baby no you know how that goes

it always starts with you "sleeping the day off" and suddenly we dont see you for a week

i'll pick you up, k?

kairi❤️:
okay

and i am trying to be better

ik it doesnt seem like it but i am

ale🥵:
i can tell, and im so happy for you. this is progress

kairi❤️:
progress would be me actually being happy for more than 2seconds. progress isnt beating myself up over the tiniest things and overthinking everything and staying up all night staring at nothing. progress was me from like 2 months ago.

ale🥵:
progress is you reaching out to us. progress is you telling us when you're feeling down and recognising that

just because you're suddenly trekking uphill doesn't mean that youre going backwards

and if you ever want to look into professional help, i'll be there for you

kairi❤️:
do you think i should? am i that bad?

ale🥵:
nonono but if YOU want to. if you want to randomly shave your hair off or dye it bright blue, i'll be there for you too. all you have to do is ask

kairi❤️:
❤️

ale🥵:
❤️

be there soon

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11:55am
Private Chat

mattia👑:
yo can you reach kairi? he's not responding to me and im worried

ale:
okay bitchass. im gonna hit you i swear

mattia👑:
tf

ale:
im with him rn, he's taking a nap but seriously. what the fuck dude

mattia👑:
what

ale:
he showed me your convo and are you dumb? "aBoUt?"

what do you THINK he was stressing over all night

mattia👑:
i havent had much sleep either, ive been stressing about it too

i dont want to fuck this up

and i dont want to bring it up if he doesnt

ale:
mattia. just. talk. to. him.

and dont act clueless this time

and wait until he's awake and had some breakfast

mattia👑:
its almost 12

ale:
kairi and his 2.5hrs sleep dont care

mattia👑:
fine okay chill

he likes pancakes btw

the really fluffy japanese ones

they sort of take a while to make but i have a recipe if u want it

ale:
why dont you come over and make them for him? that can be PART of your apology

mattia👑:
are you at his?

ale:
nope, mine

doors unlocked, i aint moving from the bed so you have the kitchen to yourself

see if you can think of something lowkey to get kairi out into the sun afterwards - staying in bed just makes him more tired

mattia👑:
ikkk i havent forgotten

ale:
and no accidental kissing in my house please

mattia👑:
what about on purpose? 👀

ale:
youre literally a coward so dont even try that. i dont want you running away again

mattia👑:
i didnt run! tired me just had a lot to process! it was 1am im not exactly the best at decisions!

ale:
kairi isnt a decision! hes your friend and you dont play with his fucking feelings like that. the only decision you need to make is what you actually want, because if you dont want to date kairi and you only want to makeout with him or whatever you can fuck right off

mattia👑:
how tf could you think that. kairis the best thing that has ever happened to me and im SORRY if i dont wanna lose that because of how im feeling. its not just my decision, its about what he wants too

ale:
then ask him what he wants! dont kiss him when you want then ignore it when you want. thats fucked up

mattia👑:
i gave him the chance to talk about it and he left me on read

ale:
you know damn well kairi doesnt think like that. he straight up told me that your stupid "about?" message had him wondering if this was all a fucking joke and if it actually meant anything to you

he TOLD you that he was up all night thinking, and we all know what that means. YOU especially should know what that means.

mattia👑:
i'll fix things, okay? and i'll talk to him

and im sorry

thanks for looking out for kairi when im being an idiot

ale:
just get ur ass over here bc for some reason you make him happy

and start working on what you'll say because i stg i'll throttle you if you make him more confused

mattia👑:
yeah yeah love you too

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a/n someone asked for a flashback chapter and thats such a good idea bless you