RaeJae's POV:

"Thinking about it now, I knew that becoming an idol would challenge me a lot, but I didn't realize it would start to burden me on a personal level, you know?" I think out loud to Jin.

Him and I are the only two awake after all this waiting.

"I can't even remember the moment I started to like Yoongi Hyung... it just started at some point I guess," I continue.

I look over to Jin, seeing him thoughtfully listening.

"And this whole me calling all of you 'hyung' thing never really bothered me once I got used to it. At first I was worried I was going to be seen as disrespectful but then I came to terms with the concept aspect of it. But then I realized that by calling you 'hyung', I may have sacrificed some of my femininity,"

Jin shakes his head, "a single word can't take that away from someone like you. You're sincere, so by calling us 'hyung' doesn't change how others perceive you. Besides, if you called me 'oppa' right now I'd find it strange," He starts to laugh.

"But what do you think about Yoongi Hyung and I?" I ask curiously.

He stops to think for a moment, rolling his sleeves up in the process. It's moments like these where I truly see Jin's age difference between mine. Every decision he makes has a purpose, and usually has been thought out before doing so.

"It's hard for me to give you advice," He answers honestly, "because I've known about Yoongi's feelings for you for a while, but I know that he never planned to act on them,"

I feel a slight ping in my heart followed by a sad feeling in my stomach. Jin notices my facial expression fall, immediately shaking his head.

"It's not a bad thing, trust me. He cares a lot about how others see you, and how you will never be able to be open about your relationship... at least for a long time. In a way he's also protecting himself. There was this one time after the meeting about you and Jungkook dating where he came to talk to me privately. I already knew what it was about, but basically he decided to distance himself from you because he felt that Jungkook was much better for you anyway,"

I can't help the frown that comes to my face, "I feel really guilty about how I've treated Jungkook,"

"Don't. If anything he'll become stronger because of this. You and him are still young and sometimes he can be a bit immature, but that's just life. Give it time and everything will work out," He sends me a gentle smile.

"So are you saying I should wait for Yoongi Hyung?" I raise my eyebrows in question.

"Well, He sort of already confessed... but you turn 18 in a few months. So I'd at least wait until then," He replies carefully.

I nod.

"But," he pauses for a moment, "I mean this with the best intentions, okay? We signed a contract, and relationships within the group and in general were prohibited. Although I support you two, I want you to think about the rest of us,"

"What do you mean?"

"This is the worst case scenario, but unfortunately I wouldn't put it past PD-Mom to lower the hammer on you two if it jeopardized his company... and most importantly, our group," He whispers the last part softly.

"I don't want that to happen..." I trail off.

"But, the best advice anyone has ever gave me was to follow my heart. So I say the same to you," He says in a confident voice which gives me some hope.

"Thank you, Jin Hyung," I smile.

"No problem," I smiled back, "...is this when I give her the talk?"

"What was that?" I cock my head, unable to hear the last part of his sentence.

"Oh nothing," He suddenly sits upright.

"Okay.." I chuckle lightly, "I'm going outside for so fresh air. Text me if you hear anything?"

He nods allowing me to leave with ease. I slowly walk over to a small balcony and look over Seoul. There's a slight chill in the air which makes me shiver, but I enjoy getting away from the stuffiness of the waiting room for a bit.

My eyes follow an airplane that flies overhead, now noticing all of the beautiful stars lining the night sky. Despite the load of bad things that happened today, there sure is a sliver lining to all of this. I just hope that something good can come out of this for everyone.

Tap tap.

I turn around, seeing Jimin tapping on the glass door to get my attention.

He lightly pushes the door open, "Mind if I join you?"

"Not at all," I reply, turning back to the skyline.

"Here, you're shivering," he says before handing me his jacket, "I don't want you getting hypothermia,"

I let out a laugh, "Yeah I've had plenty of that for one day, thank you,"

He stands next to me, the two of us silently watching the stars as if waiting for something astronomical to happen. I enjoy his company, even though we aren't currently talking, I don't care because I feel comforted .

I wonder if he knows anything about how Jungkook is feeling right now. Although Jin told me not to worry about it, I can't help the fact that I simply care for Jungkook. We grew up together, and I just want him to be happy.

"Has Jungkook told you anything?" I finally ask to get it off my mind.

"Not really," Jimin turns to me, "I think he's embarrassed,"

"I wish he wouldn't be... I don't even know how I got him to like me in the first place," I say softly.

Jimin snorts.

"What?" I laugh back.

"I don't know. It's just crazy to me that some people don't recognize the impact they have on other people," He shrugs.

"Oh," I sigh.

"It's just like..." He trails off, continuing on a second later, "He's been waiting for something, sort of already knowing that it isn't going to happen. In the beginning he tried really hard to see you as just a friend but that became his mistake.. because while being so close to you he realized his feelings further. Then he had to suppress them in hopes that they would go away, but when he saw you falling for someone else it became harder"

I blink a few times, "what?"

"Constantly he has to wonder why you see Yoongi Hyung in the way that you do, and not him the same. But then again he knows he never showed you how he felt, that or you were unable to notice because you didn't feel the same way,"

"Jimin Hyung, this isn't exactly making me feel any better," I frown.

"He thinks he saw the spark for a moment, but then he let it burn for too long before following his heart instead of some contract. It's m-his biggest regret,"

{a/n for some reason I got a whole lot of Jimin gifs that fit w this situation so here ya go}

Jimin looks in the opposite direction, leaving me to process his words. Everything he said makes a lot of sense. He must've talked with Jungkook a lot to have this much understanding.

It's almost like the words are coming from his own memories.

"Hyung?"

"Mm,"

"Thank you for always being someone I can talk to. I don't know what I would've done without having you here," I'm surprised by my own words, even though I now they're true.

I just don't always express my gratitude to my hyungs, but it's never bad to let them know

"Apart from all of those times I caused more trouble for you than necessary," he giggles.

"It was all worth it in the end," I smile.

"So you wouldn't be mad if I caused some trouble for you right now?" He gives me this look that makes me worry. His expression reads as if he's waiting for approval of me, but I'm confused as to what his intention are.

"...what do you mean?"

He sighs, "who am I even kidding. I could never do it,"

"What are you talking about," I can't help but chuckle at him not making any sense.

"It's better for everyone if I just keep it in here," he taps on his head, a wide smile spreading across his face.

I stare at him, wondering why his smile isn't as genuine as it usually is. It's undoubtably a smile, but it almost doesn't seem real.

"Are you o-"

He cuts me off, "I think Yoongi Hyung is out of surgery!"

I follow his pointed finger to the doctors talking to Jin. My feet are moving before I can think about other scenarios before Jimin is pulling me back.

"I think we should wait out here for a few more seconds..." he whispers, watching Jin carefully.

"Is something wrong?" My voice raises and I try to spin around to look inside but he won't let me.

"N-no, nothing wrong. I just want a hug," He looks down at me.

"A hug? I can give you a hug later," I grunt out of annoyance.

"RaeJae just hug me right now,"

He pulls me to his chest, roughly but also gently as I stand completely still. I could sense a small touch of panic in his voice which only makes me want to go inside even more.

"What do you think of the stars?" He suddenly asks, slightly shifting his weight from one foot to the other.

"T-they're pretty," I stutter.

"You know, I think the doctors were just giving an update," he informs me softly.

"Just an update?" I repeat.

"Yeah,"

"Hyung.. why is your voice wavering?" I whisper, completely terrified.

"It's not. I'm being serious it was just an update," He insists.

I wrap my arms around him, letting him stroke my hair. He continues to rock back and forth, almost as if we're now dancing. I allow myself to focus on our movements, terrified of what the unknown might bring.

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