Unkown to Tom that on the next full moon I would shift into a giant wolf against my will. He only looked at me with guilty eyes as we approached the Malfoy Manor without a word to one another. The others seemed to gather that something happened while he was in New Orleans with me. But neither of us spoke a word, Cissy showed me to the room I would stay in whenever I was around. And while I was around the week of break I never once saw Lucius glare at me or speak to me ever. It didn't really bother me to be honest, but what bothered me was Tom not speaking to me. As we got back to Hogwarts he barely spoke at all to anyone and everyone more so me was worried. So, when we got to the common room after dinner that night I ignored everyone and followed after Tom to his dorm.

It wasn't too hard to get past the charms on the stairs as I basically used my new found abilities to get there.

"What are you doing in here?" Tom hissed

"Tommy please we must speak about what happened" I said

"Nothing to speak of" He said

"On the next full moon, I will turn into a wolf and I want you to help me through it" I said

"Why, after all I forced this curse to be triggered upon you" He argued

"Because it wasn't your fault but mine, my own fault and I need to come to terms with my new abilities" I said

"Why aren't you angry with me? I am the result of what's to come the next full moon" he snapped

"Because I can't blame you for something that was bound to happen eventually, it was inevitable and you can't blame this upon yourself either" I said

"But I can, your mother explained what happens, every bone in your body that's worse than the curcio curse" he said with pain in his tone

"That isn't, I know it's going to be painful but if someone is there it will distract me from the pain, and if you don't want to that's fine" I said and turned to leave but stopped for a moment

"I won't beg for you to come there but if you want I'll see you next full moon in the forbidden forest close to the broken tree" I said and left

I went straight back to my dorm ignoring the looks from the others, the questions weren't something I was wanting to answer at the moment. I just didn't know what else to say to Tom to convince him it wasn't his fault and that I don't blame him for what happened. Yes, I should be mad at him for it but I can't be mad at him. Not when I knew this was going to happen, I had a dream of it happening but no one knew. I didn't tell anyone not even Tom and that's something I couldn't tell him now. I couldn't tell him that he changed the outcome of the dream or that I even had it to begin with. It wasn't his fault but all I did was speed up the process of the dream. I knew Tom was going to be there when I triggered the curse.

I knew that I ended up taking an innocent kids' life but I didn't want to tell Tom him and I got into a fight which caused me to kill. I didn't know how to tell him, how to break it to him that other than saying it was inevitable. When you have the gene, you have to be extra careful when you're doing anything especially when it comes to the anger. I felt it, the building rage deep inside that wanted out in the form of my wolf. Each wolf was different, and I even had a dream about hope triggering the curse but much later in her life. When she turned fifteen, but I can't tell anyone it would trigger a butterfly effect and that can't happen. Or something around that age I have these weird dreams that tend to come true kind of like visions I guess you could call them.

Trust me I wanted to tell them, all of them but I can't risk it, I can't risk them thinking I'm crazy or untrustworthy. I hate when someone calls me that and a liar, I barely feel welcomed here again all of the sudden. And now it feels worse because I'm distancing myself because of what happened between me and Tom. I now am going to be living with the Malfoy's which also includes Matteo and Tom. What am I going to do if things don't go how I need them to or how I want them to. Trust me I want to tell them, I want to trust them, but with my family history can I trust them.
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A few days later

I have still haven't really talked to anyone, especially with the building anger that I've been trying to hide. I hate that I've built up this anger so high that I've been getting more and more aggressive with people.

"Okay that's enough what's going on with you?" Pansy said stopping me in the common room before breakfast

I looked at her and then noticed that Matteo and Draco were also waiting patiently for me to answer.

"I triggered my curse" I said looking for any form of hate or distrust in their eyes

I saw none and that worried me even more because if they truly cared that would be even harder on me and them that's for sure.

"Oh when?" Pansy asked

"When I got home to New Orleans an accident happened I got angry and some kid was in the crossfire that's all" I said

"You killed someone?" Draco said shocked

I saw the fear in his eyes, the resentment and the betrayal in his eye.

"She didn't have a choice" a voice so familiar said from behind me

"Tom" I said in acknowledgment

"It wasn't entirely her fault either" Tom said

"Tom don't" I warned

"They should know" he said

"Know what?" Matter asked

"I pissed her off causing it to happen" Tom said leaving out the fact he tried to cause me harm

"Oh" Matteo said