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Naina spent whole night sitting outside... lost in all her miseries... didn't once blink her eyes... it took her a long time to calm down and fortunately she made it through the night... the night was rough... spending time alone her mind went to all sort of happenings from Kamya's weird behavior to Sameer's humiliation...

Same as with Sameer... he waited for her to come back in room, but she didn't... his guilt killing him, and he hated himself for being so helpless sometimes... without wheelchair he can't move to go out and it was beyond his reach at present...

In the early hours before dawn, Naina finally stood from her place and came inside with heavy heart... she wants to leave room early before he awakes, but shocked to see Sameer was still sitting at his bed at same place where she left him last night...

After the whole night of worries and commotions, his heart finally calmed down when he saw her... whole night he was continuously looking at the balcony door to have a glimpse of her and when their eyes met, she shocked seeing his red puffy eyes with extremely pale face, same as her's... clearly indicating how much they both had cried and bearing pain, pierced their heart...

There were tears in his eyes... at that moment, he was just grateful that she was fine... if something had happened to her, how could he possible forgive himself?

Seeing her he tried to make a move towards her to call but she turned her gaze and quickly went to washroom avoiding him... he squeezed his eyes in guilt with a tear drop on his cheeks... what else can he expect now after hurting her...

Naina came out and straight left out from room without giving a glance to him... his eyes followed her till she disappeared... soon she returned and pushed his wheelchair close to his bed... like always their silence speak... she helped him and before he stops her, she left from room again without saying a word... he wants to stop her to apologize but seeing her stern expressionless face, his words chocked in this throat... she remained calm and there was no expression on her face... blank...

Going downstairs, after a quick round from mandir, she went straight into kitchen... all maids gave her a surprised look when she said, "aaj se sabke liye naashta mein banaungi roj..."

Since the day she has come here, in initial days, servants spoke rudely and insulted her but now seeing her so calm, quiet and soft spoken always, they start somehow liking her nature and appreciate her... she never insulted them like others and give respect to all elders, which touched them... even seeing her bonding with Chinni, shows her soft heart towards an orphan kid...

An old servant came ahead to support her, "aaiye, mein batati hun ki kisko kya pasand hai... par aapko itna sab akele karne ki koi jarurat nahin... hum sab hai aapka saath dene ke liye... aap bas bata dijiye... saara kaam yun jhat se khatam ho jayega..."

Naina smiled following her and quickly prepared everyone's favorite dishes with so many helping hands... old lady blessed her lastly seeing her putting so much efforts for all, "aaj itne saalon baad kisi ghar ke sadasya ne iss rasoi mein kadam rakha hai... jab ghar ki lakshmi khud apne haathon se sabke liye khaana banati hai toh uss khaane ki Khushboo aur swad hi alag hota hai, jis mein uska pyaar chhupa hota hai sabke liye..." she blessed her wiping her tears getting emotional...

Naina came out from kitchen seeing Sameer coming towards dining area... his eyes were showing his restlessness and was eager to saw her... but she hides herself behind pillar purposely... taking stairs she went upstairs towards her room avoiding meeting anyone... though she has taken the stand for herself, but still not in a state of mind to face anyone...

Soon all joined at breakfast and greet each other... but her absence was killing him... Sameer knew he hurt her, but he wanted a chance to explain himself... wants to apologize her...

Kamya greet him cheerfully, "good morning Sameer..." seeing him still ignoring her she diverts her attention to Vishakha, telling how much they all enjoyed last night... Vishakha praised her plan for arranging a dinner for all... Sameer got more irritated seeing that there was not a tinge of regret on her face after messing up their relation... but now his focus was more on Naina, who is nowhere seen after morning...

Sameer remained lost and expressionless as his eyes were still looking around to see a glimpse of her... but she was nowhere to seen...

Soon servant served the breakfast to all... all got astonished at the sight of many exquisite dishes laid out on the dining table, everyone's favorite... the enticing aroma of breakfast spread in whole mansion though Sameer has no appetite to have anything, but his heart urged to taste finding it strikingly aromatic and appetizing, which sooth him instantly...

Kamya praised, "wow... it's so yummy... I mean roj se jyaada tasty hai... kisne banaya... koi naya chef hire kiya hai kya... aunty we should reward her for making such a delicious food..." even Vishakha and Karthik too praised the taste...

Karthik said suddenly, "ya... even its much better that our last night dinner..." he praised whole-heartedly making Kamya feels dull suddenly...

Servant replied softly, "jee nahin... chef ne nahin aaj ka khaana Chhoti bahu ne banaya hai... yeh sab unhone akele apne haathon se bayana hai , sabki pasand ka..." they informed that today it was all prepared by Naina for everyone as per their likings... Vishakha and Kamya got speechless whereas Karthik appreciate her efforts whole heartedly...

Sameer applauded her in his heart with a contended smile on his face... this was splendid after yesterday morning chaos... he knew Kamya and Vishakha willing to prove her useless but finally she took her stand and refused to let them insult her any more... someway she learnt how to fight and defend herself... and succeeded too...

But her absenteeism still killing him... soon heavy rain starts pouring outside, making him more worried about her, "iss waqt mandir mein huyi toh bheeg jayegi... mujhe dekhna chahiye..." he knows there is no hiding place at back side of the house, and she can easily get wet if she is out... she was outside whole night and now it's raining, can makes her condition worst...

Sameer shifted his gaze at Pandit who understood and gesture assuring him that she is upstairs... taking a sigh relieve Sameer too left from dining area... he hardly bothers to stay at table without her... he wanted her to know that his action last night was all unintentional... at least not to humiliate her... at all... he needs to apologize for his harsh words too... his anger always ruined everything...

Coming upstairs, Naina straight went out in balcony, her peace place... she stood holding the grill viewing the beautiful landscape in front... 

Har Waqt Milti Rahti Hain Anjani Si Saza Mujhe,

Main Kaise Poochun Taqdeer Se Mera Qasoor Kya Hai..

Suddenly raindrops pour on her face and lifted her mood... she always loves to be drenched herself in rain... no one knew but she was a fabulous dancer except him... she learnt classical dance in school and being a good learner grasp it fast... but her parents were against for her to learn all this, so she kept it remain hides from all... even Kamya was also not aware of this skill of hers...

Dancing in alone always appease her innermost passion... not only in good mood, but in her sad moments... she loves more to dance with zeal and passion to throw out all negativity from her... like a complete stress buster for her...

Subconsciously, she wrapped her dupatta on her waist and starts tapping her feet in rhythm... there was no music playing outside but she can feel it, hear it inside her heart... she smiled singing slowly by herself and completely lost in her own dream world... swaying her body slowly making different gestures from hand and foot ...

She was completely drenched and dancing so gracefully that anyone can forget his breathe... amazingly beautiful... breath taking...

Sameer came back to his room alone and looked at for her, but she was nowhere.... feeling cold breeze coming from balcony he quickly makes a move and stunned to see her dancing all alone, fully soaked in rain drops... he was about to call her, but his words chocked in this throat... the sight in front of him was mesmerizing... no doubts if he was badly craving her to be in his arms... to love her immensely...

He recalled her dancing all alone in forest where he saw her first time and lost his heart in first glimpse of her... her face still showing the same innocence even after three years... all his memories of three years back refreshed instantly, and he again lost his heart.... the only difference pricked his heart is that three years back she was smiling while dancing and today, her eyes were drowned in immense pain...

Jab Lafz Thak Gaye To Phir Ankhon Ne Baat Ki,

Jo Baatein Aankhein Na Keh Saki, Wo Phir Ashkon Se Bayaan Hui...

Breaking his thoughts, Naina soon stopped dancing, panting heavily... to catch her breathe she kneeled there only taking deep breathe... she suddenly lifts her face and shocked to see him sitting at a close distance... he was looking at her without even blinking his eyes... they both lost in each other...

Without breaking eye-lock, Sameer rolled himself going close to her... she was still sitting at floor, taking heavy breathes... coming close to her, he softly cupped her face in his palms... he kissed softly on her forehead... leaned slightly, adjoining their forehead he muttered slowly, "sorry..."

Though they both were fully drenched but can feel the tears continuously rolling out from their eyes... it was first time that they both were in such emotional state in front of each other... a perfect emotional breakdown to pour their hearts out....

Naina was hurt and Sameer was in guilt... no words were required anymore as they both understood their unsaid words... sometimes it's good to show your vulnerable side to others, who can handle you better than yourself...

Meri Aankhon Se Gire Hain Yeh Jo Chand Katre

Jo Samajh Sako To Aansu, Na Samajh Sako To Paani

She kept her head on his lap and cried hard... he had no words left to console her but keep caressing her head... at least they are together to heal each other...

Soon her sobs down and she lifted her face looking at him... his teary face, his red eyes show how much in guilt he is... he slowly pulled her from shoulder keeping her in his embrace softly... minutes passed like this forgetting their surroundings... she cried hard keeping her head on his chest... he keeps her close in his arms caressing her back to calm her... his own tears refuse to stop seeing her in so much pain because of him only...

Time passed turning the heavy rain drops into light drizzling, making her realized that they both are still outside in rain for so long... they parted slowly but none of them wants the moment to go off... Sameer cupping her face in his palms kissed softly on her forehead mumbling, "Sorry" ... though he extended an apology, his deep dark eyes remained lingering on her face, caressing her cheeks with her thumb wiping her tears softly... he looked at her pale face that was now looks like a blooming rose...

The loud thunder voice pulled them out from their dreamland... it was only at this moment she came to her senses... she stood hurriedly and pushed his wheelchair going back to room... but Sameer grasped her wrist to stop her... she said with worry in her eyes, "it's raining here... we should go inside..." though she was hurt but her concern was for him...

He too realized and accept knowingly she has low immunity and can catch cold easily... both were more worried for each other, gives them an immense feel of comfort... they came inside, and she quickly get towel wiping his head.... it was an altogether a different feeling, sensation for them... a feel of care even though you had distances... but to control his urge to keep her close to him, he said slowly, "you go and change first... I am fine... take a hot shower to save yourself from cold..." saying this he left from room outside... Naina didn't utter any word as she watched him stroll out of the bedroom silently...

She took a fresh set of clothes and went in washroom to change her dress... coming out she realized room was still empty... Sameer hasn't come back... she gets ready for office as it was already too late... she looked herself in mirror and smiled seeing a calmness on her face and in her heart too... though they didn't share any talks, but his eyes spoke much more than his words... his guilt was visible in his eyes...

Getting ready she came down seeing everyone sitting in hall... Sameer was all dressed up back in a fresh set of office wear... Kamya was sitting with Vishakha chatting randomly...

Naina walked towards Sameer to go with him when Kamya called her, "hey Naina... actually I have to go towards your office side only... why don't you join me... at least will get some time to talk in alone..." she purposely doesn't want her to go with him... she got determined to keep them away from each other as much as possible... she knew how much soft hearted Naina is and it will be easy to make her emotional fool... she wants her to accept her fate and leave Sameer as early as possible....

Naina wants to go with Sameer but confused on her sudden request... she turned to look at Sameer who suddenly said to Pandit, "let's go... we have a meeting..."

Naina wants to stop him but he moved ahead... Kamya also hold her hand dragging out towards her car...

Naina turned to look at Sameer who was sitting in car looking at her only... he turned his gaze to other side and focused his attention back on his mobile...

Pandit seeing their change of expression asked, "don't you think we should stop them... at least save her from getting hurt more... you know Kamya's intentions... Naina will get hurt more..."

Sameer took a deep sigh saying, "even I did the same... what's the difference..." his voice was muffled with so much pain...

Sameer still was in guilt of hurting her... though he apologized but she didn't reply... they were together, and her concern was visible for him but is this was enough ... she didn't say anything and now left with Kamya... he surely wants to keep her safe, happy but now at least cannot force her for anything more... but still worried for her... he has to give her some space to think on her own... to decide what is good for her...

Saying Sorry doesn't mean there is no guilt and

Forgiving doesn't mean the pain is gone...

Sameer keep his eyes closed pressing his forehead... Pandit asked concernedly, "you okay... see I told you... can we go back home..."

Sameer was more concerned for Naina and wish to see her back in office... leaving her alone with Kamya is much more distressing for him... he just keeps his eyes closed and tried hard to keep himself relaxed and calm...

Kamya drove towards their office with Naina... she initiates normal discussion to avoid any awkwardness with her, "Naina, aaj tujhe breakfast table par hona chahiye tha... tere khaane ki itni taarfi huyi ki puchh mat... aaj lagta hai sabne double breakfast kiya hoga... par tu thi kahaan... mein toh tera hi wait kar rahi thi saara time... tujhe pata hai na iss ghar ka rule hai ki sab ek saath breakfast karte hai..."

Naina replied looking out, "nothing... bas room mein hi thi... mera mood nahin tha kuchh khaane ka..."

Kamya keep her hand on hers, "Naina, tu itni tension mat liya kar... aur tujhe na apna theek se dhyaan rakhna chahiye... aakhir baby ki care bhi jaroori hai na... dekh kitni kamjor lag rahi hai... aise mein baby par bhi effect hoga na... aur tere iss behavior se roj Vishakha aunty ko mauka mil jayega tujhe daantane ka..."

Naina smiled weakly, "ya... I know... but you don't worry, I can take care of myself... vaise bhi apne pariwaar mein kiske saath kaise deal karna hai mein jaan gayi hoon... iss ghar ke rules aur logon ki soch mujhe achchhe se pata hai... toh tu meri chinta mat kar..."

Kamya paused for a moment then said, "vaise Naina, tu ne kuchh socha hai aage ka... matlab tu job kab change karne wali hai... abhi kar legi toh achchha rahega na... matlab.. iss haal mein tujhe baad mein job nahin milegi jaldi se... phir tujhe ghar bhi dekhna hai apne liye... vaise tu chinta mat kar, mein hun tere saath.. hum mil kar kuchh jaldi se dhundh hi lenge tere liye... koshish karenge agar tu iss shahar se kahin dur settle ho jaaye... sabse baar baar milna tere liye kitna mushkil hoga na... phir har koi jo tujhe jaanta hai ilzaam dega do baar divorce ka... mein nahin chahti ki tu yeh sab sahe iss haal mein... meri maan jald se jald iss shahar se kahin dur chali ja jahaan koi tujhe na jaanta ho..." she said showing her concern to hide her own guilt...

Naina suddenly turned to her side looking her keenly, "Kamya, tujhe nahin lagta tujhe kuchh jyaada jaldi hai mere divorce ki... aur mujhe yahaan se dur bhejne ki... mujhe toh ummid thi ki tu mujhe rokegi apne se dur jaane se par lagta hai tu toh mujhe abhi se bhool gayi... lagta hai tere dil mein ab koi aur hai jise tu ne meri jagah de di hai... kyun sahi kaha na maine..." she laughed slowly, trying to read her facial expressions...

Kamya got stunned on her direct question... she stammered badly replying, "tu.. tu .. mujhe... matlab tujhe aisa kyun lagta hai... I was just concerned for you... tu jaanti hai mein tujhse kitna pyaar karti hoon..."

Naina keeping her temper cool, tried to explain her again, "look Kamya, don't take me wrong... but really you do not have to get so much concern about me... I know you cares for me, but I have my own thoughts and views about my life and relations... mujhe pata hai ki sirf kuchh mahine hai mere Sameerji ke saath, par maine pehle bhi kaha tha ki mein unhein imaandari se jeena chahti hun... kal kya hoga, kaise hoga, uske baare mein soch soch kar mein apna aaj nahin kharaab karna chahti... vaise bhi zindagi mein jo hona hota hai vahi hota hai... aaj tak mere chahane se kuchh kahaan hua hai..."

She turned her gaze outside wiping tears, "tu meri dost hai aur mein nahin chahti ki meri shaadi ya usase judi kisi bhi baat ka asar hamari dosti par ho... har dosti ka ek daayra hota hai, limitations hoti hai... tera concern mein samajhati hun par mujhe mere faisle khud lene hai... kam se kam afsos nahin hoga... mein apni job se khush hun, Sameer ji ke saath shaadi shuda toh nahin par ek normal zindagi jeene ki koshish kar rahi hun... bhale hi kuchh din sahi, par mein yeh karna chahti hun... mehsoos karna chahti hun ki ek pariwaar kya hota hai... kisi apne ka saath kya hota hai... maine kabhi sapne nahin dekhe, kabhi kisi se ummide nahin ki, par ek baar mein bhi sapne dekhna chahti hoon, unhein jeena chahti hoon... chaahe kuchh waqt baad voh toot jaaye per unki yaadein mere dil mein hamesha rahegi..."

She looked back at her with a smile, "toh tu please ab iss sab se dur rah... hamari dosti jaisi thi vaise hi rehne de... I am sorry agar maine tujhe in sab mein jabardasti ghasita ho toh... par ab bas aur kuchh nahin... tu ne kaha tha ki mere maayke se koi nahin aata isliye meri koi respect nahin iss ghar mein... par tu galat thi... aaj jab maine sabke liye apne haathon se khaana banaya toh mujhe ehsaas hua ki yeh mera ghar hai, mere apne hai... aur inhein apne se jodne ke liye mujhe kisi aur ki jarurat nahin..."

Kamya was not expecting her to be so much straight forward but she control her anger replying, "Naina tu mujh par shaq kar rahi hai... I mean mera aisa koi intention nahin tha... tu jaanti hai mujhe bachpan se ki mein kitni carefree nature ki hoon... I was just..."

Naina suddenly cut her in between, "tu kal itni raat ko Sameer ji ke saath time kyun spent karna chahti thi... hum kal saari shaam baahar the tab toh tu ne kuchh nahin kaha... I mean aisa kya important discuss karna tha unse, voh bhi mere sone ke baad... aisa kya jaruri tha jo subah tak ka intzaar bhi nahin kiya tu ne..." her tone was low but sharp making her shuddered to the core...

Kamya was dumbfound, unable to reply her... Naina hold her hand calmly with a soft smile, "look Kamya, I am not putting any blame on you... mein khud ek ladki hoon aur dusri ladki ki izzat kya hoti hai mujhe pata hai... but your acts are allowing others to point out on our friendship and on your character as well... which I really don't want... isiliye mein phir se kah rahi hun ki mere liye tujhe Sameerji ke paas jaane ki ya unhein convince karne ki koi jarurat nahin hai.... pehle hi sab bohot uljha hua hai, mein aur pareshaani nahin chahti... hope tu samajh rahi hai na... aur yeh rishta aadha adhura, jaisa bhi hai, mein khud isey sambhalna chahti hun... bina kisi ki madad ke..."

Kamya was already shocked on her sudden outburst on her... initially she offered her to drop office as wants to keep her mind controlled and to ensure she should stay away from Sameer... she wants her to move out from his life willingly as early as possible... she knew Naina is soft hearted and can easily follow others, especially her... but to her dismay table turned up badly and Naina politely warned her to stay away from her and Sameer... she doesn't want any interference in her married life anymore...

Kamya parked the car at roadside outside the office building... Naina quickly walked out without giving her chance to speak any more... she heard Kamya calling her waving bye, "see you in evening..." but she didn't turn back to look at her and entered in office building... she was more eager to meet Sameer rather spending more time with Kamya to hear any further justification from her... she knew in all sense whatever has happened last night was Kamya's fault...

Entering elevator, Naina quickly pressed the button to his floor... she leaned on the adjacent wall keeping her eyes shut feeling dishearten, "please Kamya... meri dosti ko aur sharminda mat karna... meri zindagi mein bohot kam rishtey hai aur mein kabhi nahin chahungi ki mujhe kabhi bhi un mein se kisi ek ko chunana pade... jo kal hua usmein jitni tu galat thi utani mein bhi... kehte hai galat karne se jyaada galat ka saath dene wala hota hai... mein bhool gayi thi ki ek dost ke saath saath mein ek patni bhi hoon... aur inn sab mein sabse jyaada dukh aur takleef maine Sameerji ko di hai, jo mein kabhi nahin karna chahti thi... unhone hamesha mera saath diya, mujhe sambhala hai... sahi galat samjhaane ki koshish ki hai aur kal raat unka gussa galat nahin tha aur ab meri baari hai sab theek karne ki... aaj pehli baar apne liye kisi ki aankhon mein aansu dekhe the... par wada hai inn aansuon ki jagah jaldi hi muskaan hogi..." she smiled wiping a lone tear rolled on her cheek with a confident look on her face...

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Will update next part soon... enjoy, love you all...