Happy Navaratri to all my friends 

Here's the next long awaited update for all my lovely readers...😊

Thanks for keeping so much patience and waited for me...🙏

Sameer came back in his cabin leaving her alone in lounge to take proper rest... he covered all the blinds down to make it dark leaving only a side lamp open for her... he doesn't want to leave her alone in this state but didn't get courage to stay back around, disturbing her any more... he starts completing all his pending work quickly ensuring no commotion from his side... soon finishing his work seeing time to go back home, he went towards lounge room to check on her but she was still in deep sleep... the room has turned slightly dark now but the faint light from lamp casted an orange glow on her face... he slowly came close to her couch and watched her... her raven hair was splayed across the cushion in a messy fashion and her one hand was resting under her cheek... she had a peaceful expression on her face, her plump lips slightly parted... looking absolute adorable...

Hain Khamosh Lab Mere, Kuchh Kehne Ko Aaya Hoon,

In Dhalati Huyi Shaamon Mein, Rehne Ko Aaya Hoon,

Badi Chuppi Si Thehari Thi, Unki Un Saanson Mein,

Unki Un Aankhon Se, Mein Rab Ko Maangane Aaya Hoon...

He tenderly brushed his fingers over her face, tracing the outlines and couldn't help but let a small smile spread on his lips... so innocent and beautiful she is... his fingers trailing up and down softly on her cheeks...

He recalled how he insulted her, humiliate her with no reason... now that thought itself disgusted him... he makes sure come what come may he will get her forgiveness... she sure was a stream of sunshine in his dark and lonely life... she had become his warmth and joy... everything she did, deliberately or unknowingly, made him feel something...

Sameer jolted out of his thoughts seeing her getting awaked... she was also shocked looking at his face which was so close to hers... her feelings were already in a mess, but her heart became softer under his gaze... she was uncomfortable earlier but now she felt even more confused and helpless... his changing attitude towards her became very different...

Sameer quickly moved away whereas Naina turned her face to other side getting a strange feeling with their close proximity... neither would he look at her nor would she meet his eyes...

Making a move first, he went outside asking her to come fast... Naina stood and getting freshen up, came out seeing him sitting with Pandit discussing something... he lifts his eyes to see her coming towards them... a smile was made its way onto his lips which immediately fell seeing her face which turned pale, her gloomy eyes without any hint of smile... he mentally reprimands himself for her condition...

Pandit seeing her coming towards them smiled widely, expecting things might have placed back in their life... but to his disappointment, Naina turned and left out from cabin without even giving them a glance...

Pandit looking at Sameer's gloomy face asked, "kuchh baat huyi... kuchh kaha usane... kal bhi saath thi na raat bhar tere..."

Sameer's face fell down denying, "nahin... aur sach kahun toh meri himmat hi nahin huyi usase kuchh kehne ki... saari raat bina bole, kuchh kahe usake saath toh tha par usaki khamoshi ne mujhe usake najdeek bhi nahin jaane diya... kuchh samajh nahin aaya ki usake man mein kya chal raha tha... bilkul chup thi jaise saara dard apne dil mein chhupa liya hai usane... aaj bhi saamne thi par nahin baat kar paaya... pehle hi itani chup rehti thi aur ab toh..." he stopped in between feeling more guilty...

Pandit keeping his hand on her shoulder said, "par baat toh karni padegi na... aur sach kahun, mujhe pata hai tu hi hai jo isey sambhal sakta hai... vaapas pehle jaisa kar sakta hai... kehte hai na jo dil ke sabse kareeb hote hai unhi ki baatein dil mein sabse jyaada chubhati bhi hai aur dard bhi jyaada deti hai... aur marham bhi vahi laga sakta hai..."

Sameer said with a faint smile, "abhi tak toh sirf dard diya hai... aur voh bhi gehra, jo ghaav chhod jaayega... pata nahin marham laga bhi paaunga kabhi ki nahin..."

Pandit patted his shoulder with an encouraging smile, "Maheshwari group of Companies ka CEO, kisi assignment mein fail nahin ho sakta... I am sure about it..."

Sameer replied looking down, "par pati toh fail ho gaya na... kaash jis pyaar ka dam bharta hoon usey poori shiddat se nibha pata toh aaj uski muskaan usake chehre se gaayab na huyi hoti..." soon they all left office back to home... there was a complete silence in the car...

Naina lost in her all-confused emotions... she wants to believe on him, forgive him but whatever has happened was not easy to forget for her... his care, concern for her seems like a magnetic pull... the more she wants to go away from him the more she is falling in love with him... but she knew it's not meant for her... sooner or later she has to go away from him, from his life...

Sameer was more thinking on the way to apologize and get her back to normal... his guilt is killing him inside and felt ashamed even to face her... since last few days, they were in talking terms, though not much but now this silence is killing him... missing her cute smile, her shiny eyes... no he must find some way out... soon... very soon...

Reaching home, getting down from car they went inside when Kamya approached them with a wide smile on her face... they were more surprised to see her at home so early, seems like she was waiting for them only...

Kamya asked rolling her eyes in a complaining tone with a wicked smile on her face, "Naina mein kal se tujhe dhundh rahi thi... kahaan thi... ek hi ghar mein rah kar bhi tujhe dhundhna mushkil ho jaata hai... subah bhi tu breakfast par nahin mili... aisi bhi kahaan busy thi tu..."

Since Naina was not in her room whole night, she understood her concern... she smiled hiding her pain, "nothing like this... tu bata kuchh kaam tha kya mujhse..."

Kamya seeing chance to spend time with Sameer, hold Naina's hand tightly saying, "bas aaj sab ek saath time spend karenge... koi kahin nahin jayega... lets plan something..."

Naina flinch in pain trying to get rid of her hold, "ahhh... Kamya please haath chhod..."

Kamya laughed holding it more tightly, "jee nahin... bilkul bhi nahin, varna tu phir se bhaag jaayegi... aaj shaam ke liye maine..." before she completes feels a hard jerk on her hand...

Sameer pushed her hand hard making her grip lose on Naina's hand, "voh kah rahi hai na uska haath chhodo... tumhein dikhta nahin..." he shouted throwing deadly glares on her...

Kamya stunned seeing him shouting on her in front of all.... they looked at her hand which turned redder and the pain which got reduced shoots back...

Kamya composing herself said instantly, "sorry Naina... maine dekha nahin... par tera haath itna jal kaise gaya... tu theek toh hai na..." she said as a matter of fact she was not aware of it...

Naina smiled weakly hiding her pain, "it's okay... tujhe nahin pata tha... but it's better now..." then only Sameer's phone rings and he left to attend an important business call in his study with Pandit... he doesn't want Naina to be alone with Kamya but don't want to force her either... not at this time when he himself is in so much of guilt to hurt her... what right he has to claim he is protecting her when he was the one who hurt her more...

Naina's face turned gloomy suddenly seeing Sameer going away from her... in usual he never allowed her to stay back with Kamya and always opposed, reacting weirdly, but today he left her alone... reluctantly she sits back with Kamya saying, "tu tension mat le... I am fine... chal thodi der yahin baithate hai..."

Kamya sits with her asking, "Naina, tu theek hai na.. I mean tujhe dekh kar lag raha hai ki tu pareshaan hai... matlab... teri aur Sameer ki koi ladaai huyi hai kya... usane kuchh kaha tujhse, kuchh kiya... aur yeh sab..." she asked pointing towards her hand...

Naina sensed it bit strange and laughed slowly, "aur tujhe aisa kyun lagta hai ki hamari ladaai huyi ho... I mean aisa kuchh nahin hai... bas meri tabiyat kuchh theek nahin thi aur phir office mein garam paani se haath jal gaya toh..."

Kamya asked adamantly, "tu jhuth mat bol... mujhe pata hai kuchh baat hai... par aaj kal tu mujhse kuchh bhi share nahin karti... mein ab teri dost nahin hun na isiliye... pehle tu har baat sirf mujhe batati thi toh ab kya ho gaya..."

Naina though still consider her as her friend but didn't feel like to share her problems anymore... seeing her changed behavior now days hurting her more...

Kamya changed the topic seeing her reluctancy to share anything, "okay fine, theek hai nahin batana toh mat bata.... chal aaj milkar sabke liye dinner banate hai... phir man kare toh bata dena ki kis baat par ladaai huyi hai... mujhe pata hai tu mujhse kuchh chhupa nahin paayegi jyaada der tak..." she was eager to know what all happen between Sameer and Naina and how their relation is going on with each other... seeing Sameer leaving Naina alone with her makes her suspicious firm...

Before Naina replied to her Pandit came, "Naina, Sameer is waiting for you in study... I think he has some urgent work... can you go please..."

A soft smile instantly crept on her face knowing Sameer is looking for her... Naina left immediately leaving Kamya alone, ignoring how much she was calling her from back... if earlier she was feeling sad and missing his presence around, knowing he was calling her she was now more eager to see him...

Pandit came to Kamya, "sorry Ms Parekh, husband se jyaada important ek ladki ke liye aur koi nahin hota... par yeh baat aap nahin samjhengi... hope you don't mind leaving the couple alone..." he left with an evil smirk on his face... though Sameer in his own guilt didn't stop Naina to stay back with Kamya but how could Pandit allowed it...

Naina entered in study seeing him busy in call... she stood there waiting for him to finish when Sameer gestured her to sit... in few minutes, he finished the call when she asked, "Pandit said you have some work with me..." Sameer appraised on Pandit's attempts trying to make things easier between them...

Sameer replied slowly looking down, "sorry voh aise hi bula liya... I mean agar tum busy ho toh its okay... I am sorry..." Naina looked at him amazingly on his reaction...

Sameer came to her side and stretched his hand to hold her hand, but he retrieves his hand which was hovering in the air... knowing she is still not convinced he said, "voh... you are not well so I feel like you should rest in your room... I asked servants to send your dinner in room only... please take care of yourself... kuchh chahiye ho toh bata dena... aur haan please apni medicine lena mat bhoolna..."

Naina asked suddenly, "aur aap... I mean aap dinner nahin karenge..." she knew he might again skip his dinner in his guilt...

Sameer looked straight into her eyes asking, "you still care for me... please don't do this, I don't deserve"

Sameer said softly lowering his eyes, "sorry... but I don't want to force you for anything... I know I was wrong so it's perfectly fine... maine jo bhi office mein kaha mein apne aap ko justify nahin kar raha, so don't take on your heart... you can take your time but believe me it was all unintentional... I just lose my control and hurt you... I know no words can justify my act, but I promise, I will never repeat it... and yes, I can wait till eternity to get your forgiveness... so don't force yourself for anything and take proper rest..." he said genuinely as doesn't want to make her disturb any more knowing her medical condition...

Suddenly he folds his hand in front of her lowering his eyes in a requesting tone, "mein nahin jaanta kya karun, kaise kahun kyunki tumse kuchh bhi kehne ka haq kho chuka hoon... lekin phir bhi ek request hai tumse... tumhein mujhse nafarat karni hai, mujhse gussa rehna hai, jo karna hai karo par meri wajah se apne aap ko koi takleef mat dena... mein apne kiye par sharminda hoon par ab inn baaton ke koi mayane nahin lekin agar tumhein aur takleef huyi meri wajah se toh sach maano mein jeete jee mar jaaunga... iss dard ka bojh nahin utha sakunga mein..." without saying anything more, he turned and moved back to his desk...

Naina remain seated in shock as was not expecting him to go to this extent to apologize for his mistake... coming back in her senses she was about to say something when a sudden business call interrupts their moment...

Sameer looking at her, said before taking the call, "sorry but I have to take this call... you can go and rest in room... promise I will not disturb you anymore..." he turned his gaze on screen and starts discussing business matter...

Naina stood in daze and turned to go out from room slowly expecting him to stop her but it didn't happen... she loved him truly and had seen his guilt in his eyes... she doesn't want to punish him either... at least after hearing from Doctor about his concern towards her and baby's safety.... she wants to be with him but their proximity pulling her closer to him... and the feeling of to be together killing her from inside when she knew that they are destined to separate...

A deep sigh escaped from him seeing her going away, but he can't stop her even... he himself create this rift between them with his most stupid act... he realized he must give her some time... though he wants to stop her but at this time he should let her go... but he promised himself that soon he will convince her and never let her go far away from him... he didn't go back to room giving her some space and time to think alone...

Dil Mein Bhara Dard Ab Kisko Dikhaye,

Narajagi Ko Unki Ab Kaise Mitaayen,

Dil Mein Mohabbat Phir Kaise Jagaye,

Kuchh Toh Kaho Phir Unhein Kaise Manaye...

Coming back to room, Naina went to freshen up and changed into her comfort clothes... she went outside in balcony staying alone for some time... there was no moonlight tonight, but the weather was hot and flustering... she sat on the swing and gazed at the grey sky feeling depressed...

Naina POV

Maine kabhi nahin socha tha ki meri maafi unke liye itane maayne rakhti hai jiske kiye unhone mere aage haath bhi jod diye... unhone sirf gusse mein ek baat kahi aur uske liye voh itne sharminda bhi hai... par jis Sharad ne mujhe characterless saabit kiya tha aur jis tarah mere apne pariwaar ne mujhe force kiya sab accept karne ke liye un logon ne kabhi mujhse maafi maangana toh dur kabhi mere dard tak ko mehsoos nahin kiya...

Sameerji inn sab logon se kitne alag hai... aaj sahi maayne mein apne pyaar par garv hai mujhe ki maine zindagi mein koi galat faisla nahin liya... mera dil pehle baar jiske ehsaas se dhadka voh insaan galat nahin hai, bhale hi shayad hamare haalat kaise bhi ho... itni chinta toh kabhi maine khud bhi apni aur baby ki nahin ki shayad... kabhi kabhi mein khud bhool jaati hun ki mein pregnant hun par Sameerji ko hamesha yaad rehta hai... meri dawai, mera khaana, aadhi raat mein meri bhukh, sab kuchh... maine nahin khaaya toh khudne bhi nahin khaaya... ab in sab baaton ka kya matlab... hamesha suna hai ki yeh sab toh sirf sachcha pyaar karne wale hi karte hai ek dusre ke liye... jaise mein unse karti hun toh kya voh bhi mujhse... par agar aisa hai toh kyun itna rudely baat ki mujhse...

Kal ke baad socha tha zindagi bhar inse baat bhi nahin karungi par ek din bhi naraaz nahin rah paayi... subah se kitni koshish kar rahe hai manane ki, par samajh nahin aata ki kaise sab bhool jaaun... narazagi toh kab ki khatam ho gayi par dil mein chhupe pyaar ko kaise sabse chhupaaun... kahin galti se bhi yeh baat meri jubaan par na aa jaaye... par agar Sameerji kisi aur se pyaar karte hai toh mere se itna lagaav, mere liye yeh concern kyun hai itna...

Log sach hi kehte hai ki pyaar se jyaada complicated feeling aur koi ho hi nahin sakti... ek pal mein itani nafarat, dusre pal mein pyaar... ek pal mein rulaana toh dusre pal mein kuchh aisa karna ki chah kar bhi naraaz nahin rah sako... dur bhi nahin rah sakte aur paas jaane se dil ghabrata hai... par itna pata hai ki ek number ke Mr Jealous Maheshwari hai... kisi ke saath bhi mujhe bardasht nahin kar paate... par itani insecurity kyun hai mujhe lekar... aur kuchh puchho toh maun vrat rakh lete hai... kaash koi mere inn sab sawalon ka jawaab de paata...

Agar Maafi Maangane Se Koi Rishta Bach Sakta Hai,

Toh Maaf Kar Dene Se Voh Rishta Aur Majboot Ho Sakta Hai...

Her trance broke hearing knock on door... she saw servants getting her food and placed the dishes on table...

Though she wants to be alone, away from him but his nonappearance killing her more... she stood to go to study to call him for dinner but stopped seeing Chinni entering in room saying, "bhabhi, voh chhote Kunwar ne kaha hai ki unki meeting hai toh aap kha lijiye... voh shayad Pandit bhaiya ke saath hi khayenge... mujhe bola hai ki aapka achchhe se khayal rakhun aur aapko bore na hone doon..." she said with a wide grin on her face...

Naina smiled caressing her head, "par hum unka wait kar lete hai na... jab meeting khatam hogi tab saath mein hi kha lenge..."

Chinni smiled taking her hand make her sit on chair, "jee nahin... mujhe bohot bhukh lagi hai... please aak khaaiye na mere saath... au aapne kitne dinon se na meri padaai ke baare mein puchha aur na hi mujhse gappe maari... aaj hum khoob saari baatein karenge..." Naina reluctantly sit with her and they finished food chatting randomly keeping the atmosphere light around her...

After dinner, Chinni insists her to take her medicine and left assuring she is on bed and sleeping peacefully... Naina closed her eyes with a soft smile on her face touched with his gesture... she knew he is respecting her feelings and giving her time, to repent on his mistake...

Kuchh Toh Socha Hoga Qudarat Ne Tere Mere Baare Mein,

Varna Itani Badi Duniya Mein Tumse Hi Mohabbat Kyun Huyi...

Chinni coming out from their room, headed towards study and inform to Sameer, "voh Bhabhi ne achchhe se khaana khaa liya aur unko medicine bhi de di... ab voh so rahi hai..."

Sameer smiled thanking her, "thanks Chinni for your help..."

Chinni smiled cutely asking, "aap donon ki ladaayi huyi hai kya... aap gussa ho Bhabhi se..."

Sameer surprisingly looked at her, how this little girl figures out tension between them... he replied giving a soft smile, "tumhari bhabhi se mein kabhi naraaz ho hi nahin sakta... tumhein samajha nahin sakta but thanks once again for your help... aur haan tumhari Naina Bhabhi bohot achchhi hai, jaise voh tumse pyaar karti hai tum bhi hamesha unka dhyaan rakhna... okay..."

Chinni nodded her head and left out in confusion... Pandit too left after some more time spend with Sameer in alone... waiting for few more hours passed, he went back to his room seeing her sleeping soundly on her bed...

Sameer keep staring her sleeping calmly keeping her back towards him, giving a slight strange to him... he realized that since yesterday she was heart-broken but didn't utter a word, nor even tried to explain herself anymore... though he never liked to see her in tears but except in pain, she didn't cry once... seems like she has kept all pain restored in her heart... she was rather much quiet than her usual one...

Kehte hai lafjon se ya aansuon se dil ka dard kam ho jaata hai... dard ko jitna dil mein rakhenge voh naasoor ban jayega... ya yun kahe ki dard itna badh gaya hai ki har hadd paar kar chuka hai... aur koi aisa nahin jo samjhe... 

Next update by tomorrow...