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Naina remain seated their crying miserably seeing him going out from room leaving her alone... again she didn't get chance to explain him... again she got blamed for the sin which she didn't do... suddenly her phone buzzed... she looked the name displayed on her phone – Kamya... she didn't get courage to pick up the phone and talk time being...

She was both mentally and physically exhausted from everything what all happened with her since morning... firstly her argument with Sameer, his forced kiss, medical report and now Sameer's warning... she has no one around who trust her except her friend... but his threat to get rid of this matter in one day makes her much stressed... she went out in balcony and slipped on floor sitting in a corner...

Kamya's continuous calls divert her attention... wiping her tears she picked up the call keeping herself as calm as possible...

Kamya asked worriedly, "kya hua Naina... mein kab se phone kar rahi hun... tu hai kahaan... mujhe laga teri tabiyat aur toh kharaab nahin ho gayi.. I was worried about you..."

Naina replied sounding as normal as possible, "no I am fine... voh... haan mein washroom mein thi... phone silent tha toh sunaayi nahin diya... tu bata kaisi hai... aur kab aa rahi hai vaapas..." she was desperate to talk to her as she has no one else who understood her....

Kamya chatted with her for quite some time which gives her slight peace of mind... she informed that her trip has extended for a week more as after long time she has met her relatives...

Naina hesitantly shared her about her pregnancy making her shock, "Naina tu yeh kya kah rahi hai... tu ne toh kaha tha ki Sharad has never touched you and till now you don't have any relation with your new husband also... then how can this be possible.. do you have any other affair also... any other man in your life...?"

Naina explained her everything that she herself doesn't know how it happens... she never gets into physical relation with anyone in her entire life and herself so confused...

After thinking a lot Kamya said, "Naina, I think you should abort this child... dekh mein tere bhale ke liye hi kah rahi hun... jab tujhe khud nahin pata ki yeh kiska baby hai toh tu duniya ko kya jawaab degi... aur tujhe kya padi hai kisi aur ka bachcha paalne ki... teri apni khud ki uljhane kuchh kam hai jo aur musibat leni hai tujhe..."

Naina replied her in shock, "Kamya.. yeh paap hai... galat hai... mein aisa nahin kar sakti... chaahe kuchh bhi ho par mein kisi ki bhi jaan nahin le sakti... mein jyaada nahin jaanti par yeh mere andar hai toh kahin na kahin mujhse jud toh gaya hi hai..."

Kamya insist her advising all possible difficulties she had to face if she keep this baby, "Naina, tu paagal mat ban.... itna bada decision emotional hokar nahin liya jaata... be practical aur abhi teri umra hi kya hai... dekh meri ek known Gynae Doctor hai... mein unse abhi baat karti hun... tu kal hi unse mil aur iss musibat se chhutkara paa le... tu khud itni mushkilon se apni dusri shaadi ko nibhane ki koshish kar rahi hai aise mein iss bachche ki jimmedari kaise nibhayegi... aur ab toh tere husband ne bhi mana kar diya hai tera saath dene se... agar kal tak tu ne kuchh nahin kiya toh voh tujhe ghar se nikaal dega, phir kya karegi, kahaan jayegi tu... thande dimag se soch... yeh sab bohot mushkil hai...." she advise her giving all negative facts...

Naina being always a simple, naïve girl, finally accepted her advice reluctantly... she knew she had no source and support to give birth to this child... after talking to her Naina laid down at her usual place, staring the dark black sky thinking on her life, "kya Kamya sahi kah rahi hai... Sameer ji ki najron mein yeh bachcha Sharadji ka hai aur agar kabhi yeh baat saamne aayi toh sabko sach pata chal jayega ki iss bachche se Sharad ka bhi koi vaasta nahin... mein kya jawaab dungi... kaise sabko samjhaungi... mere character par ungli uthaane ki ek aur wajah sabko mil jayegi... aur jis bachche ke pita ka naam bhi mujhe nahin pata usey duniya ke kitne taane sunane padenge... par kisi ki jaan lena, yeh bhi toh paap hai... kya mein yeh kar paaungi... bachche toh bhagwan ka aashirwaad hote hai... kitne log tadapate hai iss khushi ke liye aur mein iss khushi ko thukra rahi hun..."

Sameer after leaving her alone in room crying, came into study which is always be a peace place for him... he usually spent his lonely time in this room which is connected to two more big rooms inside... no one at home is allowed to come inside without his permission.... since the day he got married with her, he prefers to stay more in study to avoid her... a kind of secret room for him where he kept his good memories stored preciously...

Sameer lost in his thoughts, "aaj pehli baar laga tha ki kahin mein galat toh nahin... jiski aankhen itni masoom ho voh dhokha nahin de sakti... jitna usey dukh de raha hun utna dard khud ko bhi mehsoos ho raha tha... jisko bina jaane bas ek baar dekh kar itna pyaar karne laga tha usko kaise takleef mein dekh sakta tha... dil chaahata raha tha ki usey bata dun ki usase dur rehna mere liye bhi kitna mushkil ho raha hai.... par nahin mein phir se galat nikla... yeh rishtey, yeh apnapan meri kismat mein hi nahin... kabhi zindagi mein maine kisi ladki ko apne paas tak nahin aane diya, iss darr se ki kahin dhokha na mil jaaye.... par zindagi ne phir ek sabak de diya ki kisi par bharosa nahin karna chahiye...

Voh bhi matlabi aur dhokebaaz nikali.. aaj samajh aaya ki kyun voh iss shaadi ko nibhana chahti thi... apni banawati masumiyat mein mujhe fasana chahti thi... agar maine voh report nahin dekhi hoti toh shayad kabhi uska asli chehra nahin dekh paata... agar ek baar voh khud aakar mujhe sach bata deti toh shayad mein usey maaf bhi kar deta par ab bas.. aur dhokha nahin khaa sakta mein.. ab usey pataa chalega ki Sameer Maheshwari ke jazbaaton se khelne ka kya matlab hota hai... voh haal karunga ki kabhi bhool kar bhi kisi aur ko dhokha nahin de paayegi...

His heart rebuked him, "par iss tarah usey majboor karna bhi toh galat hai... kitni aasani se kah diya ki ek din mein iss sab se chhutkara le lo... kya aasaan hoga uske liye... kam se kam ek baar uski baat toh sunani chahiye thi... voh divorced hai par is mein bachche ka kya dosh... pyaar karta hai na usase toh iss naajuk waqt mein uesy akele kaise chhod sakta hai... usne kuchh bhi kiya ho par aaj usey saath aur sahare ki jaruat hai... how could you be so cruel... don't forget she is your dream girl..."

Sameer reprimand himself for being so impulsive and took harsh decision in a fit of anger... he finally decides, "shayad maine gusse aur jaldbaaji mein galat faisla le liye... mujhe uski baat sunani chahiye thi... agar kal usne khud kaha ki usey yeh bachcha chahiye toh mein usey maaf kar dunga... mein kisi masoom ki jaan nahin le sakta chaahe kuchh bhi ho... pyaar kiya hai toh iss mod par akela kaise chhod skata hoon...

Par ab dekhna hai ki voh iss bachche ke liye mujhe chhodti hai ya aisho aaraam aur paison ke liye iss bachche ko chhod degi... shayad kal uska faisla hamari aane wali zindagi ka faisla hoga... pata chal jayega ki uski najaron mein paiso ki keemat hai ya ek masoom zindagi ki... I really wish ki voh mujhe chhod kar iss bachche ko chune..."

Naina was awaked whole night thinking about her fate... after talking to Kamya she called her mother having last hope if she might support her to keep this baby... she was sure thinking, "koi samjhe na samjhe meri Mummy jaroor meri feelings ko samjhengi... aakhir voh bhi toh ek Maa hi hai.."

Beena picked up the phone after few rings and replied harshly, "kitni baar kaha hai ki raat ke waqt phone mat kiya kar... kahin iss baar bhi unhone tujhe ghar se toh nahin nikaal diya... mujhe toh bas ab ek yahi chinta lagi rehti hai teri..." she scold her annoyingly getting her call so late night...

Naina shocked listening such harsh tone, "Mummy... bas aaj aapki bohot yaad aa rahi thi isiliye phone kiya.. sorry agar aapko disturb kiya ho toh..."

Beena replied in same tone, "dekh Naina... yaad karna tak toh theek hai par kabhi galti se bhi koi aisa kaam nahin karna jiski wajah se voh log tujh par ungli uthaaye... tu samajh rahi hai na... aaj teri shaadi itne bade ghar mein hone ki wajah se hi teri behen ke liye dhang ke rishtey aane shuru huye hai... iss baar dhyaan rahe kuchh aisa na ho jiski wajah se teri behen ki zindagi bhi barbaad ho jaaye... agar aisa kuchh hua toh tu mera aur apne Papa ka mara munh dekhegi..." Naina got amazed listening her...

Naina holding her tears asked getting emotional, "Mummy... kya kabhi aapko meri yaad nahin aati... jab se shaadi huyi hai aap ek baar bhi mujhse milne nahin aaye na hi mujhe bulaya... kya mein ab aapki beti nahin rahi..."

Beena laughed on her foolishness, "tujhe itne bade ghar mein byaah kar, mein kya paagal hun jo dobara tujhe vaapas bulaungi... yeh sab emotional bakwaas baatein hai... tu toh bas vahaan achchhe se rah aur jaisa voh log kahte hai bilkul vaisa kar... khabardaar jo teri ek bhi shikayat aayi toh... samjhi na..." saying this she disconnect the call leaving her in tears...

Naina thinking in her mind, "koi nahin hai mera, jiske saamne apna dard bata sakun... jo sachche man se meri baat sune aur mujh par vishwas kare... agar yeh pregnancy ki khabar Mummy ko pata chalti toh voh kitna naraaj hoti... Sameerji ne bhi kah diya ki iss bachche se unka koi vaasta nahin... kuchh samajh nahin aa raha kya karun... ek baar phir meri wajah se kahin meri behen ki zindagi na barbaad ho jaaye... agar maine Sameerji ki baat nahin maani toh voh mere saath saath mere ghar walon ko bhi barbaad kar sakte hai...

Kamya shayad sahi hi kehti hai... aur mein toh yeh bhi nahin jaanti ki mere saath yeh ho kya raha hai... kisi ko kahun bhi toh saabit kaise karungi ki ismein meri koi galti nahin hai... aur yahaan toh vaise bhi koi mere par yakeen nahin karta... Kanhaji aap toh mera sach jaante ho... maine sapne mein bhi kisiko dhokha dene ke baare mein nahin socha... please aap hi meri madad kijiye mujhe sahi raah chunane mein... ek taraf yeh bachcha aur dusri taraf meri shaadi aur mera pariwaar... iss shaadi se kai zindagiyaan judi hai... mere apne ghar walon ne mujhe chhod diya hai toh mein iss masoom ko kya pariwaar de paaungi...

Mein jaanti hun meri zindagi mein koi khushiyaan nahin hai aur naa hi unki koi ummid, ab toh maine sapne bhi dekhne chhod diya hai... aise mein iss bachche ki zindagi bhi kahin barbaad na ho jaaye... isey iss duniya mein laana kahin meri bhool na saabit ho... kya jawaab dungi mein iss duniya ko aur iss bachche ko ki ismein kiska khoon hai... Sharad ke saath mera koi rishta nahin tha aur Sameerji mujhse nafarat karte hai... voh kabhi iss bachche ko nahin apnayenge...

Mein ek aur nanhi jaan ko aisi nafarat aur ghutan se bhari zindagi nahin de sakti... shayad yahi sabke liye theek rahega... mujhe Kamya ki baat maan leni chahiye... voh kabhi mera galat nahin sochegi... ek vahi hai jis par mein aankhen bandh karke vishwas kar sakti hun...

Her trance broke when sunrays fall on her face... Naina stood coming inside the room seeing Sameer was not in his room... seems he has not come back last night... taking a deep sigh she went to washroom and soon after getting ready went to back side of house in temple...

Sameer came back to his room from study where he spent his night all alone ... he was awaked whole night worriedly thinking about what will be her decision... though he was hurt with her betrayal but somewhere in corner of his heart he was not ready to accept that a girl like her can be so selfish and cunning... he was truly ready to give her another chance to prove herself... if she prove the child life is more important than his name and wealth, he will surely support her to keep the baby...

She cleaned the temple and lit the diya alone as it was too early for Chinni to come... her eyes get brimmed with tears recalling her decision, "kanhaji... mujhe maaf kar dijiyega... mein jaanti hum yeh paap hai par mere paas aur koi raasta nahin... mein iss masoom ko zindagi dekar usey andhero mein jeene ke liye nahin chhod sakti... aaj na chahate huye bhi mere haathon ek gunaah hone wala hai jiske liye mujhe jo bhi saja milegi mujhe manjoor hai... aapne har mod par har haalat mein mera saath diya hai toh aaj aap hi mujhe sahi raasta dikhaiye... mujhe poora vishwas hai ki aap mera saath kabhi nahin chhodoge...."

She stood to leave when the edge of her dupatta stuck with the small idol of "laddoo gopal" ... she looked back and her eyes brimmed with tears, "iska matlab... matlab..." her voice chocked and she smiled amidst tears, "mein samajh gayi aapka ishaara... ab mein vahi karungi jo sahi hai... chaahe duniya ab kuchh bhi kahe... mein iss nanhi si jaan ko duniya mein lekar jaroor aaungi... jab aap mere saath ho toh mujhe kisi se darrne ki jarurat nahin... thank you so much Kanhaji, mera saath dene ke liye aur mere haathon yeh gunaah na hone dene ke liye..." she got this as a hint of god and firmly decide to keep the baby with her always... she was ready to bear all the consequences now...

After pouring her heart out, taking firm decision she came back to her room with a contented smile on her face, with new energy... she entered seeing Sameer discussing something seriously with Pandit... seeing her standing at the door, Pandit looked at her with hatred and left from room, leaving them alone... she understood that Pandit is aware about her...

Sameer giving her a stern look asked, "so what have you decided... can I ask someone to pack your bag or you will do it by yourself..." he asked hiding his own anxiety... at some corner of his heart he still wants to believe on her...

Naina remain stood there lowering her head... she was thinking to ask for some more time but knowing his anger from the first day of their marriage she didn't get courage to request him... she thinks, "kaash aap ek baar meri baat maan kar mujhe sun lete... shayad mein samjha paati ki maine koi jhuth nahin bola par ab inn baaton ke koi maayne nahin... aaj ke baad meri wajah se aapko koi pareshaani nahin hogi... mera hona na hona aapke liye koi maayne nahin rakhta, isiliye mein iss bachche ke saath hamesha ke liye aapki zindagi se dur chali jaaungi... yahi hum donon ke liye sahi hoga...."

Seeing her standing quietly with no emotions, he tried asking again if she might had changed her mind, "I hope you must have taken your decision... right... I know you are very smart and must have thought wisely before taking any decision..." he hold his breathe expecting her to say that she wants this child and he will support her happily...

But to shatter his all expectations Naina asked slowly, "can I take a leave for today.. I might not able to come office..." her tone was clear that she was ready to get rid of child...

He frowned seeing her weird behavior... he was expecting that she might request him more to allow her to keep the baby but she replied differently... he glared her thinking, "yeh bhi auron ki tarah paiso ke pichhe ek masoom ki zindagi lene ko taiyaar ho hi gayi.... kitna galat socha tha maine iske baare mein... aaj saabit ho gaya ki isne mujhse shaadi sirf mere naam aur paison ke liye hi ki hai... ek baar bhi mujhse nahin ladi... nahin koshish ki ek baar bhi mujhe manane ki... jaise yeh bachcha iski zindagi ke liye bojh ho... ek aurat hokar kitni aasani se ek zindagi khatam karne ke liye maan gayi... sharam aati hai ki maine isase pyaar kiya tha... log sach kehte hai ki chehre se kisi ke dil ki sachchai nahin pata chalti..."

Giving her a hatred look he rolled his wheelchair out leaving her alone in room...

She keep looking him going away smiling sarcastically, "yeh hamari aakhiri mulaqat hai... I wish aaj ke baad hum kabhi ek dusre ke saamne na aaye... in kuchh dinon mein jaisa bhi raha ho par hamara ek rishta toh tha... par aaj mein hum donon ko har rishtey se azaad kar rahi hoon... ab meri wajah se aapko koi pareshaani nahin hogi, koi jhuth nahin sehna padega.... aapne hamesha mujhe galat samjha isliye ummid bhi nahin ki mere jaane ke baad mujhe yaad karenge par mera jhuth pata hone ke baad bhi aapne kisi ko kuchh nahin bataya aur na hi mujhe ghar se nikala... aapka yeh ehsaan mujh par hamesha rahega..."

Keeping her hand on her stomach she said, "mujhe ek baar phir se Doctor se baat karni padegi... mujhe sab sach pata karna hi hoga, apne liye.. aur tumhare liye bhi... ab mujhe kisi aur ki jarurat nahin... aaj hi mein tumhein lekar yahaan se bohot dur chali jaaungi jahaan koi mujhse ya tum se koi sawaal na kare... jahaan mujhe kisi ko apni sachchai na saabit karni pade... jahaan koi mujhe na jaanta ho...." fresh pool of tears rolled out on her cheeks seeing all around last time.... her trance broke with the buzzing sound of her cellphone...

With trembling hand, wiping her tears she picked up the phone.. Kamya, "Naina tu jaa rahi hai na... maine sab intzaam kar diya hai... dekh meri baat maan, mein kabhi tera bura nahin chahungi... tere aage poori zindagi padi hai... aaj tujhe jaroor dukh hoga par tu samajh yahi tere liye theek hai..."

In a confused state of mind she nodded, "Kamya mein Doctor se sirf milane jaa rahi hun ek baar phir se re-confirm karne ke liye... aage mein kya kaise karungi maine kuchh nahin socha abhi tak... jaanti hoon aaj ke baad iss ghar, iss shahar mein mere liye shayad koi jagah nahin.. mein nahin jaanti kal kya hoga par ab mera faisla nahin badlega... mein tujhe doctor se milane ke baad phone karti hun... sab bohot jyaada ulajh sa gaya hai... kaash jaane se pehle ek baar tujhse mil paati..."

Kamya again tried to convince her but Naina disconnect the call without listening further... she already decided that since Sameer is not willing to let her keep the baby, she will leave his house today itself... even though she has no other place to live, she was adamant to not to bend in front of him, no more pleading... she packed her bag and soon left to consult Doctor again to re-confirm first...

Naina reached to the clinic suggested by Kamya and met her appointed Doctor... she shown all her reports given by Doctor with whom she met yesterday for second opinion... though she had already taken the decision but tensed about thinking where will she go after leaving his house... her parents already abandoned her and Sameer has already taken his decision...

Doctor read all her reports giving a strange look, "Naina, look mujhe Kamya ne sab bataaya hai ki you don't want to keep this child... are you sure about it..."

Naina lost in her own thoughts, didn't reply her much... she keep sitting there lowering her head said, "I just want to re-confirm this pregnancy first..."

Doctor took her inside for a thorough check-up once again to re-assure...

After check-up done, Doctor advised, "look Naina, I know it's difficult... you are in a emotional state and not able to take any decision... so just wait for some time, think twice and I will come back soon... yeh faisla tumhari zindagi bhi badal sakta hai... well chances are that it can be life threatening for you... ya phir tum phir kabhi dobara Maa na ban sako..." saying this doctor left her alone to attend other patients after giving some instructions to nurse... Naina keep sitting there all lost...

Her heart and mind was in complete chaos ... she hardly paid any attention to Doctor's advice... she just heard that it might be life threatening for her, "even if I died today, no one is there to cry for me... kisi ko koi farq nahin padta... shayad toh kisi ko pata bhi nahin chalega agar mein aaj mar bhi jaaun toh..." she smiled mocking herself...

Doctor came back saying, "Kamya called me just now and permitted me for your operation... come let's go, its decided... I will do my best for you... have faith..."

Naina was all lost in her own miseries that didn't even realize what Doctor said... Nurse hold her hand and took her into operation theatre getting her changed into OT gown... subconsciously she keep following all her instructions without any reaction as she has lost all her senses to think any more... like a dead person...

Nurse made her laid down in OT to start the procedure... hearing some noises, she came back in her senses.. she roamed her eyes and realized where she is.... she sits back getting panicked, "nahin... sorry.. sorry doctor par mein yeh nahin kar sakti... mujhe jaana hai... mein kisi ki jaan nahin le sakti... please let me go... mujhe koi operation nahin karwana... yeh gunaah hai... aapko galatfahmi huyi hai... mein sirf pregnancy confirm karna chahti thi..." saying this she gets down and rushed out when Doctor asked nurse to get her back forcedly...

Two nurses hold her firmly not allowing her to go out... she keep screaming and shouting but no one listen her... she struggled hard but it was futile as she was already weak and have no strength to get freed herself from their strong grip...

Doctor hold her arm forcedly giving her injection, "Naina, don't worry... dekho iss mein ghabrane ki koi baat nahin... ek chhota sa procedure hai aur tumhein jyaada takleef nahin hogi... I will try my best for you... okay..."

After struggling a while her body become weak and she felt dizziness... she gradually enveloped by darkness and about to slipped on floor when the door of the OT room was being kicked open at very moment... someone held her tightly before she slips to the ground... 

Bye... will update soon