The cold wind blows
I take your hand, I feel your breath
I close my eyes
We are together
- Stay, BTS

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“N-Never…l-let...g-go...N-Never…l-let...g-go…”

There was a she lying on that wooden plank, frozen to almost death but she kept murmuring the last words the boys said.

“Never let go Y/N!”

Her body was so numb that she couldn't feel any of her limbs, she just felt like she's going to die any moment now.

“I-I…l-love...y-you…” Y/N managed to let out those words, a smile forming on her lips the memories of all the time she spent with the boys flashed into her mind.

The first time she saw them when they appeared out of nowhere and stopped her from jumping off the ship as if they were angels sent on the earth to protect her.

When Jimin kissed her hand and sent sparks through her body like no one else has ever made her feel. When she poked Namjoon's dimple getting courage out of nowhere.

How the boys' motivating words had a huge impact on her and that was the day a spark of living lightened in her. How they danced with her that day just to lift up her mood and it really did. She felt happy for the first time after her father's death.

That day when she asked Jungkook to draw her naked but then she got insecure about her imperfections. How they encouraged her and Jungkook drew her with those scars. She was beautiful in their eyes in every way.

Her every kiss with them, the way all of them gave her the same feeling of love and safety that she got addicted to their presence, she got addicted to them.

That night when they asked for the promise "Never let go", it felt like they were scared of something but so did she. She was scared, scared to lose them, scared to never feel their warmth again, scared if she'll not see them again.

And it happened…

She did lose them, she broke her promise, she did let go. She had to...

Because if she didn't then it would've put all of them in danger, they all would be dying along with her and she would never want to be the reason for the death of those who gave her a reason to live.

She wanted to live for them, even it was for a short while, she was happy that she got to spend some time of her life being genuinely happy with the ones she loved and adored.

They saved her in every way a person can be saved...

Even if they were for a short while, it was the best time of her life she ever had after her father's death. She smiled to herself finally closing her eyes and letting the arms of death embrace her.

But then she heard something…

“Y/N!!!”

“Y/N WE'RE HERE! COME BACK!”

“THERE'S A BOAT! IS ANYONE ALIVE?”

She was about to sleep a long sleep but her eyes flutter open as soon as she heard the voice of the boys yelling her name.

Still, her body wasn't in a condition to move, she was ice-cold, numb, too numb, and even if she tried to scream for help her voice won't come out loud. Tears started forming in her eyes in disappointment, she couldn't keep her promise she did to them, she broke it.

But then her eyes fell on the one of the crew man's dead frozen body floating on the water and his whistle.

Her eyes saw a ray of hope, a ray of light...

“N-Never…l-get...g-go...” Y/N mumbled to herself last time before mustering up courage and dragging her body off the wooden plank and jumping into the cold water.

The pain doubled and it felt like someone pierced thousands of needles into her body but she swam, she threw her legs and hands in the water trying to reach the whistle.

Once she did she quickly took out the whistle from the man's mouth with her shivering hands and blew it.

She blew it with all the power left in her body...

She saw the boat coming towards her...

Finally…

She did it, she kept her promise…

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The sound of the whistle caught their attention as all the boys stood up wishing and praying for it to be Y/N. The crewmen started rowing the boat towards the source of the voice.

“FASTER!!” Jimin shouted as the man flinched and rowed the boat faster.

And there she was...

The girl they longed to see back alive…

They didn't waste time as Taehyung and Jungkook quickly jumped into the ice-cold water. They felt several shivers going down their spines like current but they couldn't care less at that moment.

They swam towards her and held her frozen figure in their arms, crying like babies. Y/N smiled feeling their warmth once again.

“I-I'll…never…l-let go...” And with that she passed out in their arms, eyes engulfing the darkness.

“You didn't let go...” Jungkook cried hugging her body.

“You kept your promise…” Taehyung hugged her along with Jungkook.

The boat came towards them as they supported her unconscious figure to transfer her into the boat. Yoongi, Jimin, and Hoseok helped them, and she finally on the boat while Namjoon and Jin helped Taehyung and Jungkook to get back.

Her body was week while she rested in their arms, squeezed between all of them while their hot tears were dropping down on her dampened skin.

She was covered in a blanket but the warmth they gave her at that moment was more overwhelming than anything.

You know what...

"Love hurts" is the biggest lie out there. Love heals, love makes people whole again and love fills them with the goodness they need to be as kind and loving as their creator intended.

What hurts is betrayal, thoughtlessness, uncaring attitudes, and careless gossip.

What hurts is people being unfriendly, not welcoming a new person to the neighborhood, or making "exclusive" cliques that are defined by who is "not welcome."

What hurts is bullying, harassment, selfishness, and greed.

Love on the other hand is the greatest gift mankind ever received, a gift that lives on within us all. Love is a gift that needs nurturing, it is the truth within us that knows life cannot be given a price tag.

Love knows to be kind and never to hurt or kill. Love knows to treat your neighbor as yourself. Love is what we crave from birth, a craving that must be met by our new and loving earth-bound family.

Love knows that a life is worth more than a pair of new shoes or designer makeup. Love is what can save us, make us fully human again and raise us up in the eyes of the Lord.

You know life has a funny way of teaching us, it'll create deep sadness so we know how to truly understand Happiness.

It'll create chaos in our lives so that we may appreciate the peaceful times. And even if it's a rude way, don't you think that's the most working one too?

I got no ending for it, she was alive, the boys were alive, it's on them and on life what the future will be!

Just one thing I'm sure of…

No matter what happens, you need to accept. Your heart will break but you need to trust this as well you'll survive!

No matter how long winter stays, it can never stop spring to come.

And in my opinion…

No matter what, whoever makes you feel light inside, the darkest part of your soul is the one you should Never Let Go!

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January 29, 2020
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Coco closed the diary reading the last words as she was the one who read the last half of the story. Tears brimmed in her eyes and she looked at me who was mirroring her as well.

"You noticed one thing?" She asked with a smile on her face.

My eyes were still brimmed with tears but there was a relaxation in my expressions, "Yes I did! That's our feelings, We, ARMY's feelings…"

"Life is indeed a player, it keeps playing until you'll break in pieces. But life is indeed a caretaker too, when we were so down, it rewarded us with Bangtan." I said smiling through my tears.

"Right. Many ARMY say they found Bangtan very late. No! You found them at the right time when you needed them." Coco replied, holding the diary tightly in her hands as if it was some treasure.

"Exactly, People do say life is unfair, but how's it unfair when it is the reason why every good thing happens." I said.

"Yes! If we had our hard times, that was a test. You're never rewarded if you're not worth it…" Coco agreed with my statement.

"In short this teacher wants us to know No matter what. Even if it's burning, it's snowing or it's a storm, you want to get rewarded? Then get up and fight back!" I said again and she intertwined her hands with mine.

"Indeed. Don't give up! And moreover that…" Coco paused waiting for me to join her as we said the next words together

"Never let go!"

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✧The End✧
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Anyone want tissues? ಥ_ಥ