Ya'll might hate me. Oh and I think I'm gonna have this be a double POV with James' first and then Lily's. Oh and uh caution swearing

James' POV

"Lily I can't"

As soon as I said those words, lily looks at me with a look that was Sad? Confused? Both? Not sure.

"What do you mean I can't"

"I can't be laying down with you, I can't have you messing with my head."

"Messing with your head? I'm not messing with your head!"

"Yes, yes you are. You can't just make me think you like me, when I sure as hell know you don't!"

"What are you talking about! First off, I'm not making you think anything, second of all what makes you say I don't like you?"

"I heard you and Remus talking."

She gives me a confused look. "What?"

"New Years, in you room at my house. I know you like that muggle friend of yours Dylan?"

"You were ease dropping on my conversation! And no I don't like Danny. He isn't the one who I like. And in all honesty Potter you're a complete idiot to not actually know who I like."

"You know what, I don't care. I. Don't. Care! I use to do all I could to get your attention, yeah I know, I was a jackass, but all I wanted was one date. You wouldn't give me the time of day, yeah I was terrible to Snape, but you know why? Because I was jealous of that ass. I was jealous of him being able to hang around with you, all the damn time. All I wanted was one god damn date. And all you ever did was ignore me and hate me. And I'm done. I'm not bothering with you anymore, I could care less about who you date or hang around with anymore. I could care less about you." I finish my rant, eyes blazing, I glare at her and turn on my heels. I stalk up the stairs, adrenaline pumping in my veins. I know what I said was harsh and cruel. But I also know that at the moment I just didn't are. I didn't care about anything besides leaving her behind.

Lily's POV

I stare wide eyed at the boys staircase. How could he say that? I know that he didn't deserve any of the things I put him through, but how could he just assume I still don't like him. I literally wanted him to lay down with me. How much stronger could I have come on to him at that moment?

I want to tell him that it isn't some muggle I like. It's him. But I know he won't listen, and to be quite honest I'm mad at him. No, I'm furious. He had no right to say that, I don't care how mad he is. No one should- I've said those things to him. Well not those exact things, but I've been cruel at hurtful and a jackass to him. I've hurt him way worse then he has hurt me.

I run up the girls stairs and I groan as I fall into my bed. A couple minuets later Marlene Alice and Dorcas walk in laughing. They suddenly stop when they see me laying face down on my bed sobbing.

"Woah, what the hell happens to you." Dorcas says suddenly

"Me, myself, and I. Oh and a bit of Mr. James Potter."

"What did he do?" Marlene growls.

I sigh, sitting up wiping my tears. I start to explain everything that happened tonight and when I'm done I realize I've started to sob again.

"Oh lily!" Alice jumps onto my bed and squeezes me tightly.

"But, why should I be mad?" I say suddenly after a couple silent moments. "I mean, I put this one on myself. I was an ass to him, and sure he was a jerk to Snape, but in the end he deserved it."

"Lily don't say that, James was just acting jealous."

"He said he didn't care about me! Of course he easy acting jealous!"

"He just said that. He was just angry he doesn't mean it!"

"Of course he meant it. And he was right, he shouldn't care about me."

"Lily-"

"No Alice, it fine. I'm fine."

"No lily your not." Marlene chimes in.

"I said I'm fine!" I growl.

I watch as they back away. "Okay, fine." Dorcas mumbles.

I sigh. "I'm sorry, I'm just upset."

"We know, we'll leave you to think okay?" Dorcas says smiling.

I smile say at them. "Thanks guys."

Alice nods. "Any time Lils."

They all head back to their beds and start to get dressed in their pj's. I do the same and pretty soon I'm curled up in my bed silently crying. I know I shouldn't be crying this much, but I can't help it. Merlin, why do I have to like him so much.

There you are! Hope you liked it. You probably all hate me right now. Don't worry James will only be mad a few chapters. 😋