CHAPTER EIGHTEEN || MISTAKES

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soft smut

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After the conversation with Andrea, she tried to convince the group to head back to Woodbury and talk it out, yet everyone was adamant. if he wanted a war. a war would happen. Andrea left, Michonne and her going to talk outside. after what the governor had done. could they truly ever live in peace? 

"come on, let's get you back to your room" Glenn stated looking down at Alex, a soft smile showing up on her face, shaking her head at his kindness as he helped her up from her seated position at the table.

"I am okay Glenn I can walk on my own" His smile matched hers, his hand returning to her lower back. slowly leading her back to her cell. making sure she got there okay, he wanted to make sure she was resting, she needed to heal. 

"you were shot." Glenn's pace matched Alex's not wanting to rush her, he slowly walked beside her. his hand against her back. prepared for her to lean on him if she needed, the fear of seeing her in pain again, having her blood covering his hands again... it terrified him. but for her, she found a kind of solace when he was around, his pure kind soul made Alex forget the extent of horrors she'd experienced. She couldn't grasp his light, his kindness. It confused her.

"wasn't critical. just gonna take a minute to heal up. as long as I don't rip my stitches, stay on top of cleaning I'll be fine in less than two weeks" Alex shrugged as they got back to her cell, she knew enough about getting shot. she'd looked after El when he'd had a similar wound.  closing the makeshift door (curtain) before Glenn shook his head walking Alex over to the bed.

"you're too nice rhee" Alex smiled as they stood next to her bed, Glenn's head tilted slightly in confusion as he turned to look at her. Their eyes locking, he admired her striking blue eyes.

"you think me looking after you after you were shot is too nice?" he questioned looking down at her, his eyebrows knitted together. the way he worded it. it made Alex realise something. in her life, the only kindness she'd received was from Lori, Rick and Eli. but her real dad, the relationships she'd had... they'd caused her to believe generosity, and kindness were things she didn't deserve. so she never expected it.

but Glenn, he was a person who radiated those qualities, a person who didn't expect anything in return for his kindness. he was the type of person Alex didn't believe existed anymore. but here he was. he made the world a better place by just being alive.

"thank you." her voice was softer this time, taking back her previous statement. looking up at him, the bruises on his face had faded but they were still there,  she admired his features taking in how beautiful he really was. the small smile that tugged on his lips, his gorgeous brown eyes, the stray strands of hair falling onto his forehead.

"you don't need to thank me for anything Alex... I'm just glad you're okay" Staring up into his eyes, they were incredibly close, close enough Alex could feel the warmth radiating from his body. their eye contact was strong, subconsciously they edged closer to each other. the memory of their first kiss flickered behind Glenn's eyes, he wanted it to happen again. just as much as he wanted to keep her safe.

his pure kindness, Alex's realisation made her want him. She craved the comfort he had begun making her feel. her heart raced, she could feel his soft breath against her skin, their noses almost touching. nervousness consumed Glenn, his palms sweaty as his eyes flickered down to Alex's lips. a warmth growing in his chest as Alex's hands rested on his chest, the rough material of his shirt scratching against her soft hands. Glenn's breath got caught in his throat as he leant forward, closing the gap between them hesitantly. their noses brushed against each other as their lips finally met.

Glenn's hands gently rested on Alex's hips as he grinned into the kiss, their lips locking together softly. their hearts racing as Alex's hands travelled up Glenn's firm chest to his shoulders and neck. her fingers finding the soft strands of hair at the base of his neck, tugging softly. admiration and passion laced within the kiss making Alex go weak at the knees Glenn's hands were on her waist keeping her steady as he held her against him. 

his lungs clenched as the kiss deepened, the gentle kiss becoming one of need and want. Alex breathed him in dirt, sweat, pinewood surrounded her, consuming her senses making the need for him grow electricity ran through her veins feeling the grip he had on her hips tighten. her hands slowly ran back down his chest fiddling with the buttons of his flannel shirt.

Glenn's heart skipped a beat, the feeling of Alex's lips intoxicating, her hands roaming his chest making his breath hitch. he wanted to pull away, but he couldn't. he craved her. he wanted more. but he knew he couldn't. they couldn't do this. Glenn slowly broke the kiss, pulling his lips away from hers breathlessly. his eyes meeting Alex's the look in her eyes was different than before. their foreheads leaning against each other.

"Alex we can't. I don't want to hurt you" his voice almost shuddered, he wanted to, he wanted her. but she was hurt, and all he wanted to do was protect her. he was terrified of hurting her. blood rushed through his veins as Alex unbuttoned his shirt further his hands still on her hips as she stared up at him desperation in her eyes.

"we can, just be gentle" she whispered, her lips meeting his neck. her breath feathered down his skin sending a shiver down his spine, making the tightness in his jeans grow.

"i- I don't have a lot of experience with this kinda thing" his breathing shuddered as Alex's soft lips connected with his neck again. his growing erection forming a tent in his pants, as he tried to contain himself, it had been so long, so long since he'd taken care of himself he was afraid he'd last less than 30 seconds... if he could even make it that far.

"do you want this?" she asked pulling away from him to look into his eyes, his hooded eyes dark with desperation. the lack of human touch and affection they'd suffered in recent months sparring them on.

"yeah I do" he nodded his hands gripping her waist tightly careful not to touch her wound. a smirk showing up on Alex's face a hand running down his chest to palm him through his jeans. the feeling of his hard cock sending a flush of heat through Alex's body.

"We don't tell anyone about this" she confirmed, a small whimper leaving his lips as Her lips met his again, desperation filled his lungs as his hands gently gripped her hips. her soft lips mesmerising as she unbuttoned the rest of his flannel shirt her hands exploring his bare chest, anxiety pooling in his stomach. blood rushing to his crotch.

"Are you sure?" he questioned softly between kisses, Alex nodded craving his lips, craving him. but a nod wasn't good enough for him. Glenn broke the kiss cupping Alex's rosy cheeks, his brown eyes following her every move. he needed more than a nod.

"Are you sure?" he repeated, anxiety bubbling in his stomach watching as Alex nibbled on her bottom lip, her eyes tracing some of his exposed torso, a warmth building in the pit of her stomach as heat tugged between her legs.

"I'm sure Glenn. I want you." her words sent blood rushing to the growing bulge in his pants, his cheeks burning as their lips connected again. waves of electricity running through their bodies as Alex pushed the material of his flannel down his arms revealing his athletic build. her hands exploring his shoulders and chest. The material fell to the floor, soon followed by Alex's tank top. Glenn deepened the kiss as Alex's hands fumbled with his belt, anxiety pooling in his stomach as she unzipped his pants.

Glenn gripped her hips, pulling her closer to him. pressing a gentle kiss to her lips before gently guiding her down onto the bed, he positioned himself on top of her, holding himself up above her. noticing the smirk on the woman beneath him, his eyes darting down her body in disbelief that he had such a beautiful woman in front of him. he wanted to worship her in so many ways.

"Glenn please" she mumbled desperately against his lips, her lustful voice making the strain of his hard cock against the restricting denim of his jeans uncomfortable. his breath hitched as he leaned back fiddling with the button on her pants before pulling them from her legs and discarding them on the floor. he leant back admiring the woman before him, how gorgeous she was. Alex reached forward linking her fingers on the belt loops of his pants pulling him on top of her Glenn caught himself with a smile as he stared down into her eyes, his growing erection pressing against her thigh.

"god you're so beautiful" Butterflies fluttered deep within Alex's stomach at his words, her cheeks heating up. the wetness between her legs growing. alex reached forward her slender hand slipping down the inside of his jeans, palming him through his boxers inciting a string of whimpers to leave his lips, his eyes screwed shut as he pulled her hand away from his pulsating cock. his breath shuddered as he looked deeply into the eyes of the woman below him lust consuming the air around them. 

"I don't want to hurt you okay?.. so if we're gonna do this, just uh- let me look after you" Alex's breath hitched at his words, she nodded softly watching a small smirk tug on Glenn's lips. her stomach flipped as he gently trailed kisses down her neck.

desperately trying not to buck his hips in an attempt to get some friction. Anxiety consuming him, his lack of experience filling him with uncertainty. Alex smirked as Glenn rid himself of his jeans, before kissing his way down Alex's neck to her collarbone.

carefully he reached around Alex's back after struggling a few times he finally unclipped her bra, slowly pulling it from her body stopping in his tracks, his hooded eyes glued to her bare breasts the sight causing him to grow harder, his lips gently kissing down her chest. paying attention to her nipples, he sucked her left nipple into his mouth his tongue in-circling it as his hand teased her right breast. despite and lust clouded her mind as she tilted her head back against the pillow.

"just let me take care of my girl" he whispered. Alex closed her eyes forcing herself to relax under Glenn's direction, as she sank into the sheets concentrating on Glenn's lips, his hands. the way he was teasing her nipples, sending shock waves through her body. his mouth trailed across her breast, leaving feather-light kisses across to her other nipple, cupping her breasts he began massaging the plush flesh beneath his fingertips his thumbs lazily circled each nipple as they became harder.

"oh, Glenn" her voice was both a warning and a plea, the lack of touch, the lack of sex since the apocalypse started, left her body extremely sensitive. his touch angelic, the coil in her stomach tightening already.

a whimper leaving her lips at his gentle touches, his hand slowly trailed down to the edge of her underwear, teasing her, his finger trailed up the centre of her covered pussy. her breath hitching as his finger ran over her clit his finger carefully encircling the bundle of nerves covered by a thin layer of fabric, her hips jerked in anticipation having had enough of Glenn's teasing.

"We've got to stay quiet" Glenn warned, feeling like he was going to explode right there. the sound of Alex's breathing, her whimpers driving him crazy. hearing what he did to her. His lack of experience worried him but he'd watched porn, he knew enough, he was more focused on her than himself. he wanted her to feel good.

Alex's skin was on fire, a burning sensation deep within her core as his fingers hooked themselves around the waistband of her underwear, she lifted her hips gratefully as he pulled them down her legs. the pool of anxiety in glenn's stomach due to his lack of experience making him worry he wasn't going to be good enough.

Glenn kissed down her stomach, the bandages still covering her side reminding him of how gentle he had to be as he pushed himself lower on the bed, and arranged himself so he fit between her spread legs, before carefully lifting her thighs over his shoulders. Arousal drowned Alex's core seeing him between her legs, pressing kisses to her inner thighs.

he anxiously kissed further up her thigh, having never done this before he needed to rely on Alex's reactions and what he'd seen before. he wanted this, he craved her. her breath hitched as he met her core, dragging his tongue along her folds the sensation making Alex throw her head back into the pillow. the sensitivity of not being touched in so long making her struggle to keep it together.

Alex desperately wanted to buck her hips needing more, yet the pain from her wound wouldn't allow it. she felt his tongue slowly dip into her core her fingers immediately weaving through his hair as her eyes rolled back, her mouth falling open as his tongue trailed up her slit circling her clit.

the sensation of his tongue electrifying, her thighs threatening to close around his head, his hands hooked around her thighs, holding them open and over his shoulder. god her thighs, he wanted to feel them close around his head his fingers squeezed the flesh of her thighs as he tried to stay focused.

he noticed the way Alex's body shook whenever his tongue ran along the sensitive bundle of nerves, sucking her clit into her mouth he watched her reaction. the feeling almost sending her over the edge, her wetness surprising Glenn as he rolled his hips into the mattress trying to get some type of friction.

Alex's fingers tugged at his soft hair catching his attention, his eyes locked with hers from between her legs the eye contact sending waves of ecstasy between them both as Alex pulled him away, lifting his head from her core he adjusted himself on top of her. her wetness coating his lips as he pressed a soft kiss to her lips.

tasting herself on his lips erotic as one of her hands slipped down between their bodies, her hand made its way into his boxers wrapping around his shaft he moaned softly against Alex's lips, working him in her hand his length took her by surprise.

"wa-was that okay?" he stuttered Alex's soft hand wrapped around his dick distracting him from wondering if she had him stop because it wasn't good, his anxiety pooling in his stomach again as his hard cock throbbed in Alex's hand, she wiped the precum from his tip spreading it down his cock a whimper escaping his lips as he bit back a moan.

"yeah, I want to cum with you" her words made a quiet groan leave his lips. his cock twitching in her hand before he gently grabbed her wrist pulling her hand away from him, he wanted to at least try and last. staring into her striking blue eyes worry filling him not knowing if he'd be able to last inside her.

"don't think too much about it pretty boy, just fuck me," she whispered brushing a strand of hair off his forehead, sensing his uncertainty from above her. her words, the pet name, making his breath hitch as warmth consumed his chest.

she felt exposed underneath him, his eyes tracing her curves, admiring her body. his mouth watering at the sight of her as her hand reached to the waistband of his boxers struggling to pull them from his hips.

"hey lay back I want to take care of you" He whispered pressing a gentle kiss to her cheek before discarding his boxers and resting on top of Alex, his arm holding him up as he settled between her legs. Alex caught sight of his hard cock, his size slightly surprising her again. her hips jerked in anticipation her deep breathing feathered across his skin. She wanted to taste him.. but she couldn't not yet, she just needed him, needed to feel him inside her.

"you want this Alex?" He asked for her consent again, running his tip through her folds, using all his self-restraint not to slam into her. the burning need for him in her stomach doubling as she nodded.

"I need this" she begged, her voice making his cock throb in his hand as he lined himself up, slowly pushing himself into her, inch by inch. a soft moan leaving Alex's lips feeling him stretch her open, quivering beneath him. his jaw fell slack as he bottomed out his breath hitching, his whimpers filling Alex's ear.

"fuck" she gasped softly as her body jerked as the feeling of him consumed her. he fought the urge to buck his hips into her to give her time to adjust to his size. coiling tension ripped through Alex's body, heat spreading under her skin. the feeling of his cock buried deep within her, his entire cock filling her up, his public hair brushing against her clit.

"you feel so good baby" he hummed as she sucked him in. Glenn began moving, his thrusts painfully slow as he tried holding back his own orgasm not moving too fast scared of hurting the girl beneath him. Alex clenched tightly around him as he continued to thrust slowly inside her, his hand finding hers, their fingers intertwining. Alex squeezed his hand, biting back moans as his tip hit her sweet spot making her body jolt. taking note Glenn hit the same spot again, her hand squeezing his tightly as she moaned softly into his shoulder. Glenn groaned feeling her clench around him.

"faster" Alex murmured her eyes squeezed shut as her free hand gripped Glenn's bicep, her nails digging into his skin leaving crescent-shaped indents in his skin, his picked up the pace hitting her g-spot again, Alex's back arching into the mattress as he tried holding back his own orgasm yet the way she felt around him, so warm, so tight. was making it difficult.

"I'm not gonna last" he groaned into her ear, their hands locked together as Glenn's hips slapped against her, the coil in Alex's stomach threatening to snap as his whimpers filled her ears.

"Glenn you need to pull out" he knew, he nodded biting back his orgasm the feeling of Alex clenching around him almost sending him over the edge, as he pulled his hand away from hers it snaked down between their bodies his fingers connecting with the bundle of nerves circling it making Alex's jaw fall open gripping the sheets as he picked up the pace of his sloppy thrusts. sending Alex over the edge, fluttering around him clenching him tightly he couldn't handle it anymore. Alex moaned quietly trying to hold back a pornographic moan as she came around his thick cock.

"you're beautiful" he moaned, trying to stay quiet yet the feeling of her clenching around him became too much for him to bare, watching the way her tits bounced with each thrust, the way her face contorted. it was too much. Glenn pulled out breathing heavily as ropes of his white seed coated Alex's stomach, Glenn groaned as he came undone. collapsing next to Alex, her chest heaving as she tried to catch her breath, Glenn's heart racing as disbelief washed over him.

He caught his breath before leaning over, reaching for his shirt, he carefully Cleaned his cum from her stomach as her breathing evened out. a thin layer of sweat covering them both as Glenn reached for the sheets to cover Alex's naked body, small murmurs and whimpers leaving her lips as she came down from her orgasm.

"you okay? did I hurt you?" he questioned, as he covered her and himself, her closed eyes exhausting consuming her after not having any sexual connection in what felt like years. he pressed a kiss to her temple tucking a strand of her behind her ear as her eyes fluttered open.

"I'm okay, you didn't hurt me Glenn." relief washed over him, a smile showing up on his face all the stress he'd been feeling diminishing. Alex rolled over laying her head on Glenn's bare chest their naked bodies pressed against each other as his arm wrapped around her back as his fingertips gently tickled the soft skin of her shoulder.

The feeling of being in his arms filled Alex with a warmth she hadn't felt before, how gentle he was, was something Alex hadn't experienced before. something she hadn't realised was what she wanted.

"do you need anything? you hungry? need a drink?" he questioned his voice soft, Alex comfortably laid against him. his scent surrounding her, his warmth comforting her. sleep sneaking up on her. She just wanted to enjoy this moment before the inevitable happened and she panicked...

"Just stay with me for now" she whispered, Glenn had never seen this side of Alex, the way she clung to him, buried her head in his chest, a smile etched onto his face as he lazily held her thigh that was splayed over him. his fingertips tracing patterns over her back.

"I'm not going anywhere.." he whispered pressing a kiss to her head their bodies sticking together, thin layers of sweat covering them as Glenn smiled. silence filled the room, the scent of sex in the air as they hoped no one heard them, Exhaustion consumed Alex her body weakly laid on Glenn.

"Alex? Was that okay? I haven't really done that before" Glenn asked unsure of himself, he'd had sex, once... but it wasn't like that, he'd never gone down on a woman before, he'd never been that intimate with a woman before. Alex hummed as she shifted leaning on her elbow so she could look at him.

"done what? you were a virgin? I thought you meant you just hadn't done it a lot" she asked worried she'd just taken his virginity and let him do all the work.

"no... I mean I've had sex.. once when I left high school- but it wasn't- I've never you know gone down.. or uh- really gone that far" Alex's heart raced hearing his confession, she had a fair bit more experience than he did. Alex's eyes widened in disbelief, he was good, not the best she'd been with, yet he definitely wasn't the worst, he knew what he was doing more than a lot of men. he was scared to hurt her and she knew that.

"Jesus christ Glenn." she sighed in disbelief after letting him do all the work, guilt consumed her she could tell he was nervous but she'd put that down to her being Rick's niece and the tension that had been lingering between them.

"you were good, good with your tongue. didn't last long but don't worry pretty boy, you didn't disappoint" She shrugged her head gently returning to his chest, as she tapped his shoulder. She wasn't going to lie. A smirk grew on Glenn's face as the silence returned and Alex relished in his warmth.

His hand traced shapes on her back, the feeling of his fingers relaxing Alex further until his fingers ran along her spine. Glenn's eyebrows knitted together upon feeling a scar that followed down her spine, his fingers gently following the scar down her back. just as he was about to ask.. she cut him off before he could even speak.

"don't. not that. not now." Her chest constricted as memories filled her mind subconsciously burying her face further into Glenn's chest trying to distract from the memories.

"I'm sorry" his hand immediately moved from the scar to her hair, his fingers weaving through her hair gently massaging her scalp. silence lingered between them as Alex slowly began falling asleep in the comfort of Glenn's arms, the exhaustion getting the better of her.

"you're beautiful" he whispered again rubbing her back gently as she fell asleep a smile evident on his face.

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A/N - first time i've written smut sooo apologies if it's shite