~ ~ Chapter Sixteen ~ ~

Standing in my kitchen of the flat I stirred lots of sugar into my tea, I needed a sugar high to get me energized, Amberly had left an hour ago since she started before me tonight and Dougy had stayed, saying he would give me a lift later.

I even rang Marty before to check I still had a job and luckily I do but that loser Baden had actually told him I quit but good thing Marty listened to me when I told him last time to not believe anything Baden says unless I personally say it to him. Let's just say Marty was relieved to know he still had me.

Though I don't know how long he will have Amberly for, Jeff seemed pretty dead set on her quitting and him paying for everything she needed or wanted. Such the perfect gentleman, I almost just threw up a little in my mouth just then but unlike me, Amberly won't be able to stand her ground for long, she will cave and give in to Jeff, while I will still be doing what I want despite what Baden wants.

"Jenny was up to something." Dougy broke me out of my thoughts.

I rolled my eyes, "Really? Does Captain Obvious want a bloody medal?"

He narrowed his eyes at me, "Oh look, Sarcastic Shithead makes an appearance."

Frowning, I shook my head, "Not even funny, knob head." I muttered.

"I'm going to suss her out tonight, after I drop you off and after I collect money.....oh and I have to go pay Tom a visit too....and-."

"Shut the hell up!" I snapped, spinning around to look at him with disgust, "I don't bloody want to know what you get up to in your freaking free time! What the hell is wrong with you?" I demanded.

Dougy shrugged as he smiled slightly over at me before taking another sip from his beer, "Just talking out loud, don't get your knickers in a knot."

"My knickers are fine thank you. It's the horrible things that come out of your mouth that aren't." I pointed at him with the metal teaspoon I had been stirring my sugar in with.

He glanced at it for a second, "Death by teaspoon, I like it." he nodded with a grin.

Groaning I rolled my eyes, then took a long sip of sickening sweet tea, I gagged, okay, maybe I had used too much sugar. Tipping it down the sink, I opened the fridge and scoured the contents for something of use, right at the back I found an energy drink and cracked it open, testing it with a small sip and finding it yum.

"So, are you over your whole hatred of Ambo now?" I asked as I slid into the seat across from him.

He shrugged, "She's okay, I guess but I don't trust her completely."

Guess it's a start.

"Well, you better stay nice to her, that girl is my adopted sister, so whether you like it or not, she is a part of this messed up sibling thing we have going on." I pointed back and forth between the two of us.

He raised an eyebrow but looked thoughtful, "She really means a lot to you, huh?" I nodded, he fell silent for a few minutes, "I guess I can give her a chance. She was there for you all this time." he added a little sourly.

I smiled softly, "Thanks Dougy, that means a lot to me and I'm sorry I ran, I just didn't know what else to do, I couldn't stay there anymore."

He nodded, "I understand that but I'm still pissed that you did it, whose to say you don't do it again?" he looked at me pointedly.

I rolled my eyes, "I promise Dougy, If I ever go to run again, I will tell you."

"You better." he grumbled.

I glanced over at the clock, "Crap, I've got to get going, come on." I jumped up and out of my seat, he grudgingly followed which surprised me, I actually thought he would try and stall for as long as possible. Guess not.

"Huh?" I shouted into my phone, covering one ear from the sound of the music pumping through the corridor, "I can't hear you! Wait a minute!" I shouted again as I ducked into the closest toilets, "Alright, now what do you want?"

"Jeff is meeting you at the club when your shifts end and following you girls home, he is staying the night-."

"What the hell for?" I demanded.

"You really need to ask?"

"Oh yeah, Caveman is protective of his woman." I laughed, my voice echoing around the empty toilets.

"Yeah, something like that but I want to know, I won't be finished until much later, so can I come round when I'm done?" he sounded hopeful.

I rolled my eyes, "Do what you want, just don't come back with blood on you or someones brains or something foul like that." I pulled a disgusted face as he laughed.

"Seriously, where do you get this stuff from Leila?" he asked, sounding amused now.

"Oh." I sighed, "Don't know, maybe my idiotic friend who is a cruel human being towards other cruel human beings?"

"Friend, huh? I'll show you how un-friend like I am when I get there later tonight." He warned playfully.

I smiled as my cheeks flushed and I found myself wanting him to show me how un-friend like he is. Oh man, I'm falling for him worse than I first thought, my body was aching to be with him by just teasing on the phone! I'm so sad!

Pretending to yawn, I nodded, "Uh-huh, sure, later boy." and I hung up quickly before I said something I would deeply regret later on.

Pressing my forehead against the cool glass belonging to the mirror I glanced over to see Donna walking in, grinning at me, "Was that your new sexy man? The dangerous one?"

I groaned loudly, "Maybe."

"Aww c'mon sweetie, everyone loves a bad boy, I bet he knows exactly what he is doing in bed too." she winked at me before walking into the cubicle and closing the door. I dashed out of there quickly.

Why is everyone making me think about sex with Baden? I'm starting to feel like a whore or something, even though I know I'm not but I don't want him to think I am. We should be doing it by now, though, shouldn't we?

I know we didn't catch up that long ago and still aren't officially anything but I feel like we don't need a label, there was nothing to label because what we had never went away, we know what we mean to each other and that's all that counts, so why haven't we done it?

I'm scared, that's why. What if he hates me in bed and leaves me for someone better? I couldn't stand that, not after I just let him back into my life and heart but he's male, he's not exactly going to hang around forever without getting none.

Maybe I'll get really drunk first, so if I'm bad, I can blame it on that.......man, what am I saying? I smacked myself in the head and winced, "Oww." what is wrong with me?

"Good one."

I looked up to see Amberly smiling at me like I had just lost my mind, "What's going on hun?"

I shook my head, "I've got to get back on." and headed for the stage, "Oh and Caveman is meeting us here at finish time and following us back home." she smiled like a school girl and yes, I have now nicknamed Jeff Caveman and he hates it.

Frowning at Caveman as he walked ahead of us up the stairs to our balcony, he was like the bird of prey, looking around everywhere for a little field mouse to come running out at us. I nudged Amberly gently and nodded in his direction, she smiled and made a cute face.

Gag.

Guess I don't have her on my anti Caveman team anymore, stupid Caveman making her find him all sweet and charming, yeah right. I still vote he is a serial killer and is one day going to chop us up into little pieces and put us in the freezer or I'll wake up one morning and BAM he has stabbed me in the back or shot me. Either way, I vote my death is going to be at his hands.

"Shot gun shower!" I shouted as I walked in behind the two of them, quickly dropping my bag in the door way and slamming the door shut behind me, no way was I staying all sweaty any longer than I had to.

Amberly didn't complain as she walked into the kitchen to find something to eat, after a moment she sighed loudly, "Pizza?" she called out.

"Hells yes!" I shouted back as I ran down the short hallway and grabbed a bottle of premixed bourbon out of the fridge before running back to the shower and slamming the door shut behind me.

Cracking the bottle open I took a swig as I turned the taps on. I am going with my 'get really drunk then seduce Baden plan'.....I only hope he doesn't come back too late because I might be passed out by then.

Listen to me! I've had sex plenty of times before and never stressed out about it, what is wrong with me? Oh, that's right, this is Baden we are talking about here, the one I have been in love with since I was sixteen, the one I have never fully been able to get out of my mind. What if I screw this up?

"Stuff it." I mumbled as I downed the rest of my drink and jumped in the shower, washing the sweat off my body. Once I had finished washing my hair and everything else, I stood under the shower for a few more minutes, just letting the warm water run down my body as I closed my eyes.

Can I really do this? I know it's only sex but what if........dammit! I'm going insane! Pull yourself together girl, he's not going to leave you over crappy sex! I could always improve and besides, I've never had any complaints before....but this is Baden.

Suddenly the bathroom door opened but I didn't think anything of it, it was probably Amberly coming in to get something. The door closed again but I could feel her presence still in the small room.

"Ambo, can you get me another drink?" I called out, closing my eyes and holding my head under the water. I needed to get my head screwed on straight.

A soft chuckle could be heard and my eyes snapped open at the sound of a males tone. Quickly yanking back the shower curtain I froze for a brief moment as I took him in, "Baden! I'm naked in here!" I screamed loudly, hiding the rest of my body behind the curtain.

He smirked at me as he raised one eyebrow, "I know." then a slow and sly grin spread across his face.

I felt my cheeks burn red as he stepped closer to me, our eyes never breaking contact as he came and stood right in front of me, I blushed even more. Damn this boy. He raised his hand and gently brushed my cheek with the back of his finger, "I love it when you blush." He whispered huskily.

My skin tingled at his touch and I felt my legs turn to jelly, why is he doing this right now? I had a plan in place, he is going to ruin my plan. Slowly he pulled his hand back, still locking his gaze on mine as he reached down and pulled his t-shirt off, baring his well built torso, my eyes flickered over his body briefly, trying to ignore all the scars as I did.

After a few minutes of just laying there and catching our breaths back, he rolled to the side, hands clutched onto my waist, pulling me with him and I snuggled into his chest, closing my eyes and enjoying being in his arms, "I love you." I whispered softly.

Baden kissed the top of my forehead, then reached down and pulled a sheet up over top of us, "Love you too beautiful." I tilted my head up and we shared a gentle but love filled kiss before I rested my head back on his chest again, his arms tightened around my back like he thought I was going to run away.

Smiling contently, I have no idea what I was even worried about and fell into a deep and peaceful sleep. I loved Baden and he loved me and we just had the most mind blowing sex I have ever had in all my life and by the smile on his face, he just did too.