Two years earlier...

I stand by my locker of Blossom Bud High, surfing through my social media. And let me tell you, High School life sucks. Well, there's nothing for me to elaborate more about cause you all know it.

Suddenly Haley, one of my slags, comes to me having a look which as far as I know means she has some information about somebody.

"What you've got to know today?" I ask her.

"It's about you," she replies cheerfully.

"Well, then tell me."

"Do you see that nerdy, specy, and a total jute rag over there?" She points towards a boy in a full sleeves plain blue t-shirt and black jeans doing something in his locker on the other side.

"Uh-yeah. What about him?"

"What about him?" She exclaimes in a surprising tone," When I say, I got to know something about you and point towards a guy then you have to simply know that the particular guy is interested in you or is crazy about you."

"Is that so?"

"Yeah."

"God, what is happening to the world. People like him are interested in me?" I say, emphasizing the word 'him' in disgust.

"Hey, in fact you should be proud of yourselves that you are so popular. Every guy wants to be with you."

"Okay then, let's see what this 'nerdy, specy and a total jut rag' of yours has got in him."

I march towards that boy and tap on his shoulder. He turns around in response, " What the fu-," he stops in middle, his eyes widening.

"Ooh, the boy swears," I say trying to sound interested, which I really am not. "Let me see what else can you do."

I smash my lips on his and kiss him with no passion but enough force and dominance. He stands still, shocked and eyes widening even more to this action of mine.

I had one hand on his neck and another on his shoulder. After a while I feel his one hand on the back my head and one cupping my face. He started responding to my kiss, at which I pulled away wanting for him to starve.

Slowing my mouth reaches his ears and whisper, " I'll date you," then move away from his face just to see a shock registered on it.

"Wh-what?" He stutters while asking.

"You heard me right, I'll date you."

"Go, celebrate lucky boy," Haley says beside me while I stand with my hands in hips and smirk on my face.

Then I turn around to leave the place without bothering to give a second glance to that nerdy boy.

"So now I have to dump Xavier." I announce to her.

"Quite right. But why would you date that nerd and leave Xavier. After all, you yourself said that you don't want such boys to drool over you?"

"That's why I'm doing this."

"I'm sorry but, um-care to elaborate?"

"Yes, I do," my smirk widening ," I wanna teach him a lesson for having a liking for a girl like me who is practically out of his league. For daring to do this. It would be a learning for him, as well as for people like him who expect much more than they can actually get."

"Oh, I see. You pretty devil."

"You see, it would be more of a nightmare for him than a dream come true."

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Present...

It has now been one month since I joined here. And strangely, I haved passed the two tests, that had been held, with good grades. I would get calls from my parents.

Also, from the day, when I told both of them about my past, it had become a routine of mine to read a letter each day chronically and foolish smile at it.

But something was bothering me. Every time, this whole month, whenever my I eyes caught Mr.'crazy-go' Hot's eyes, he had that intimidating look . Did he had the same look for others also? Not like I care but, after such a rough past (according to my thinking), I don't want anyone to hold grudges against me. I want to be a goody two-shoes nerd girl who is invisible, stays in the background without bothering anybody.

And gues what, it's been one month and I still don't know the real name of Mr.'crazy-go' Hot. As if I have any problem in calling him that but somehow if I slip his nickname out of my mouth then it could be trouble. So I have to know his original name.

Mr.'crazy-go' Hot. Urrgghhh...It sounds weird now. Whatever.

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Today I had a class at 1:30 p.m which lasted till 2:20 p.m. Although I was not feeling quite right but still I had to attend classes to have a good college credit at the end of the semester. And now, I'm free. No classes for the rest of the day.

"Hey, Alex. I don't know why Mr.'cra-," I stop immediately on realizing what I was going to say, "I mean, you remember that guy about whom Jenny was freaking out earlier?"

"There are many guys Jenny speaks of. It's her daily chores. And about that freaking part, you can make a tall guy with dark hair, tan skin, deep eyes stand in front him and she'll think if him as a Greek God," Alexis nonchalantly states while walking and looking straight.

Well, she was right in this. That's how Jenny is. Then she continues, "So, it would be kind of you to tell me about that particular guy in detail for me to remember."

"The guy who I was supposed to kiss that night at the party in the game of truth or dare," I looked at her expecting for her to remember something.

"Oh, that cutie! Why, you interested in him?" She says, finally looking at me with a smirk, but that was soon replaced by a a questioning eyebrow, " Wait, 'supposed to kiss' means? You kissed h--I mean he kissed you, right?"

I shake my head and lower it to see the ground in embarrass-ment, "No, he didn't. Instead he said that I looked even more tempting in this look," I then look up at her again. "Also, for last one month I had noticed that intriguing look in his eyes whenever mine meet his."

"You're just being delusional, you know."

"Or maybe he knows something about me and I want to know it."

"Whatever. I ship you both."

I blush as she says that, ''Shut up, you." Then I think of something," Well, I remember someone named Jayden. Hey, that's the same guy whi had invited us to that party, right?" I say pretending to think hard about it.

"Now YOU shut up."

I walk forward, not looking in front but looking at her with my back towards front, teasing her by Jayden's name. She scowls and tries to stop me, "Ja--Ouhh," then suddenly my back and head bumps into the wall and I groan.

Seriously, do these things have to happen with me only? First, I bumped into a piller in the middle of hallway a month ago and now the wall. Although, earlier it wasn't really the piller but Mr.'crazy-go' Hot. And now? I mean, when did the distance from my class to the end of the corridor became so small? But then again, generally the walls don't feel like this.

I rub my head and look at Alexis who is trying to hold her laugh and looking between me and the wall above me. Oh my! She has some real mental issues.

I turn around to see a white coloured wall with ' Blink... If you want me' written on it.

Why would someone want a wall?

"Do you like to run into me, Honeybuns?" Oh God, this voice is of--is of , I gulp, Mr.'crazy-go' Hot. I look up and my eyes meet those pair of magnificent brown eyes.

"I-uh-I thought y-you were w-wall," I stutter nervousely and then look down.

Then, God knows from where someone shook me by my right arm and forced me to face them, well, her, "Stay away from my boyfriend, bitch."

Me? Bitch? Huh, look at yourself, you piece of shit. I think and smile mentally. I could have said that that aloud, but no, I remember being a nerd now. So, I try to swallow the anger in me.

"Hey, calm down, Kelsa," Mr.'crazy-go' Hot tries to quiet that bitch.

"As you say, Nathaniel," Kelsa says changing her expression immediately and admiring his face.

"I-I'm s-sorry," and then walked away from there with Alexis.

We reach our dorm room and we sit on Alexis' bed and I feel a pinch of dissapointment after the incident today.

"She is such a bitch, you know," Alexis says through gritted teeth.

"Yah, I got to know that before you,"

"Except the fact that you ran into him rather than a wall," she laughs.

"Ha-Ha, very funny. I became so nervous at that moment, you have no idea about it,"

"Aww...You nervous? You must really like him then."

"No, I don't. And leave this idea of shipping anyways. He has a bitchy, overprotective girlfriend who wouldn't like your thoughts."

"Who's gonna tell her about our idea of shipping you both. And thanks to his so called 'girlfriend' who was so nice to speak his name."

"Name? When did this happen and what's his name."

"Maybe when you were busy gawking him, and look somebody's being desperate here over a certain guy's name."

"Stop it and tell me his name."

"Okay, so his name is--"

"Is?"

"--is, Nathaniel."

"Nathaniel," I reapeted looking nowhere in particular and feeling his name. Well, feeling his name? I'm so dramatic.

"You know what, I still ship both of you."

That thought of her made butterflies erupt in my stomach. But then I realize something. I walk hurriedly towards my closet, take out the box of letters and read one of the letters.    

                           ***

Hey Honeybuns,

Your smile is my sunshine and your eyes are my sky. I know it's so cheezy but that's how it really is.

                                           ~N

                           ***

I look at the name which he used to call me by--'Honeybuns' and the initials of the name of the boy who wrote those letters to me--'~N '.

Can it be possible? Can it be possible tha-that Mr.'crazy-go' Hot is the writer of these letters.

Or maybe it's a coincidence. But all the things he said? I need to tell Alexis.

"What's the matter, Bernice?" She asks worriedly, "Why did you suddenly get up and looking through these letters. Missing your lover boy? Jealous of Kelsa?" She giggles.

"No. Maybe Nathaniel is the writer of these letters," I blurt. She stops giggling and looks at me with eyes wide open.

"What? That can't be possible," she says, not taking what I said seriously.

"See here, the nickname written at top--' Honeybuns'. That's what Nathaniel calls me and the initials of the name--'~N '."

"Okaayy, but that can be a coincidence, right?"

"I thought of that. But then, at the party he told me that I looked even more tempting. It means he already knew and how can it be if we have met in the college only."

Alexis doesn't speak anything, trying to get the information into her mind.

"And when I first saw him, I thought I had seen him somewhere before. Maybe he used to study in the same school as me and I didn't notice him much but would have seen him a few times."

"Hmm..,"she nods," makes sense. So, what now?"

"Firstly, I think, I should confirm if he really is the writer of these letters or not."

"What? After giving me these many reasons of him being the writer, you still want to confirm? Are you crazy? Or insane? Or-or whatever," she says annoyingly.

"Um yes, maybe? I mean what's the harm in confirming," I say sheepishly.

"Your life. Whatever you wanna do."

With this our conversation ended. I really wish that Mr.'crazt-go' Hot and the 'lover boy', as Alexis and Jenny denotes him, are the same. I have that strong feeling. Again over-dramatic.

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I heave a sigh. Today I'll ask him about the letters. So, here begins my day.

We all are sitting in cafeteria, everybody eating there breakfast while my eyes are pinned in the door, waiting for him to come.

I'm feeling both impatient and nervous. What if he isn't the writer of thise letters. No, no, don't think negative. If he is the 'lover boy', then I can't be any luckier. I mean, look at that face, body and and politness.

Or what if he had lost interest in me long time ago that's why he stipped writing letters. Again, Bernice. Stop thinking negative.

"You haven't even touched your breakfast. What happened?" asks Jenny.

Oh shit. I was so engrossed in my own thoughts that I forgot I was waiting for him.

I look around wildely and found him, sitting at one of the tables and now ready to get out of here. Butterflies started to fill my stomach again.

I jerk up from seat and head towards him.

"Hey, where're you going?" Jenny shouts from behind. I don't reply.

"Bernice, wher--"

All the voices from my table fade away as I reach there.

He is walking out while talking with his friends. I tap at his shoulder, he turns around,"What the fu--," he stops in middle, his eyes widening.

Why do I have the feeling of déjà vu?

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A/N :- Hey guy, what do you think about this chapter? And guess what, maybe the next chapter can be from Mr.'crazy-go' Hot's POV. Who knows, anything can happen. And refer my story to all your other friends..

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