—School—

Walking outside Y/N made her way over to the bleachers where she usually met Jungkook in the mornings.
I'm nervous. What will people say if they know we are dating ?

She tried to ignore her thoughts when she spotted him from a far , his smile bright as he waved at her.
If he's confident. Then I should be too.

She made her way over , carefully stepping over the stands before sitting next to him.
"Hey" she spoke.

"Hey"

Why is this suddenly awkward ?

"Did you sleep well ?" He asked.

"Yeah. Did you ?"

He nodded with a smile. His facial expression changed. "Oo I have something for you"

"For me ?"

"Uh Huh. I made it last night"

"You made me something ?"

He laughed slightly before taking out the card from his bag, passing it to her. "Open it"

She opened the envelope and pulled out the card , her eyes landing on the pikachu drawing on the front. He was holding a baby blue love heart , a speech bubble from his mouth saying "I love you"

Y/N's silence made Jungkooks smile drop slightly.
Crap is it too cheesy ?..
"Its pikachu" he pointed , trying to get a reply from her. "I told you I would give you a pikachu if you agreed to go on a date with me aha ..remember?"

She ignored him and put the card back into the envelope before putting it into her bag. Jungkook feared the world when she looked at him , his mind buzzing with questions.
"I won't make you one again if you didn't like- yah ..are you crying ?" He asked before leaning down to look at the girl. She sniffled with her head hung low.

"I love it" she spoke.

"What ? I-I can't hear you"

She looked up , her lip pointed out. "I love it"

He stuttered out with pouted lip. "Then w-why are you crying you scared me Y/N"

"I'm crying because no one has ever done something like that for me before"

"So ..its happy tears ?"

She nodded , and finally Jungkook smiled at her, shaking his head before pulling her to his side. "Park Y/N you're too emotional"

She hit his stomach with whatever strength she had. He laughed again until he saw a few guys staring at the two from a far , their mouths whispering to one another and laughing.

Luckily Y/N didn't notice. Otherwise she would have gone all embarrassed and shy.

—Lunch—

Jungkook waited outside Y/N's classroom for her , his hand in his pocket as he rested again the wall.
I'll buy her lunch today :)

After every student leaving , Y/N was finally the last one out. She noticed Jungkook which made her smile to her self.

"Oh Good you're out" he spoke before standing up straight.

"Sorry I had to put some books away for Miss Crowler"

He nodded and held out his hand to her. She hesitated which frustrated him. "Yah Y/N you need to stop worrying about what others will think. It's none of their business what we do"

He was right. Y/N was so in her head that she let others ruin her life , having their opinions decide what she can and can't do and it was frustrating.

She paused for a moment, about to take her chances when Jungkook walked on in a huff.
Great now I've offended him ..nice one Y/N

The two entered the canteen , Y/N following behind the boy guiltily.
Just take hold of his hand next time. This is Jungkook for crying out loud he's not a stranger !!

"What do you want ?" He suddenly asked before taking out his wallet.

"Hm ?"

"For lunch. I'll buy you something"

"No it's fine you don't have to"

"I want to"

"It's fine"

"Are you having anything then sweetie?" The lunch lady asked. Jungkook looked at Y/N and waited impatiently for her to order something .. but she stayed quiet.

He sighed and shook his head before putting his wallet back into his pocket. "Thankyou Anyway" he spoke to the lunch lady before moving along.

"Jungkook" Y/N called. "Don't be angry with me"

"I'm not"

"You are I can tell. You're sulking and walking away from me"

He turned around and looked at her. "Y/N I'm not angry ...ok ?"

She pressed her lips shut.
He's defo angry with me

—End of the day—

Leaving her English classroom Y/N took out her phone , checking to see if she had had any messages from anyone.

Any from Jungkook, seeing as he hadn't spoken to her since lunch.

She left the school building and made her way to the gates , her body stopping when she saw Jungkook waiting for her. She smiled to her self , happy he was still going to walk home with her.

She had some apologising to do to him.

"...hey" she spoke which brought the boys focus away from his phone.

He lightly smiled at her. She could tell he was still upset about today , and that made her feel awful.

The two began walking down the street together , none of them speaking a word to one another. Jungkook had his earphones in and his hands in his pockets , his gaze focused on everywhere but Y/N.

She decided enough was enough. She stopped in front of him and pulled out his earphones. "I'm sorry I've upset you today , I didn't mean to but I'm just a pathetic coward whose too scared to let people know we are dating and I hate my self for it. You're amazing and you care for me and I shouldn't be afraid but this is my first proper relationship where my boyfriend loves me , and I'm just not used to it"

Jungkook looked at her with a sigh, about to speak when Y/N cut him off again.

"And I know I'm being stupid but I can't help it. I've gone my whole life having people judge me that I'm petrified to just be my self anymore. I fear others opinions on me and it affects how I act. I'm gonna try and be better with you and be more confident , because I wanna make you happy and I wanna be a good girlfriend. Can you just give me a little time ?" She asked.

"Y/N-."

"I'll let you buy me lunch from now on. Yeah ?"

Jungkook paused before lightly smiling , a cute little nod at the end. She smiled in relief before looking down , holding out her hand. Without hesitation he latched onto hers , this action making Y/N's tummy fill with butterflies.

—7:34pm—

Me: Hey

There was no reply , which didn't alarm the girl because she knew Jungkook was probably doing some work for class or having tea with his parents.

"Mochiiiiiii" the girl whined before rolling onto her stomach on the bed.

"What now ?" Jimin sighed before removing his gamer headphones. Both siblings usually hung out in Jimins room , seeing as he had the coolest stuff. A play station , a mini fridge , even massage chair.

- Ok so quick catch up. Y/N and Jimin live in a legit mansion thanks to their parents wealthy jobs , but they are hardly around due to meeting scheduled abroad

Ok so now you're caught up :) -

"I'm bored" the girl whined.

"Go to your room then"

"But then I'll be bored and alone"

"Yes but then I'll finally be able to game so get out"

"Mochiiiii"

"Ugh can't you text Jungkook or something ??"

"I did but he hasn't respon-."

*PING*

Her head shot up at her phone , seeing a message from the boy on her mind.

Jk🦹🏻‍♂️⚡️: Sorry. Was helping my Dad with some thing in the loft

Jk🦹🏻‍♂️⚡️: What's up ?

Me: Can I come over ?

Jk🦹🏻‍♂️⚡️: Sure 💓 I'll walk round and pick you up if you like ??

She smiled before typing back a yes , her body hurrying off the bed and moving towards the door when Jimin let out a-

"Errrrmmm. Where do you think you're going ?"

She turned around to see his eyes were still focused on his screen. "To Jungkooks"

"When will you be back ?"

"I don't know" she shrugged. "Late"

"I want you back no later then 10:00pm"

"That only gives me 1hr and a half with him"

"Actually you get over 2 hours"

"...whatever you know I'm bad at maths. What if I stay at his then ?"

Jimin turned around on his spiny chair with his finger on his chin , a thinking face on show. "Hmmm"

She rolled her eyes and tapped her foot impatiently.

"Fine"

"Yes!"

"But ! I don't want you coming back pregnant"

"Yah Jimin Why does sex always come to mind with you !?"

"I'm serious. If you come back pregnant I'm taking away your anime posters"

"I'm going to pack" she spoke before leaving her brothers room.

"I MEAN IT Y/N"

———

Leaving her house Y/N carried her school bag that contained her night things and clean clothes for tomorrow.

She made it to the end of her drive.
I would have thought Jungkook would have been here by n-

"BOO!" The boy yelled as he jumped out from behind a bush and scared the shit out of Y/N , her hands landing over her eyes as she hurriedly stepped away from him.

She removed her hands quick and shot him a death glare. "YAH JUNGKOOK!"

He started laughing hysterically until he tripped over a stone , his body falling back into the bush behind him.  Now Y/N was the one laughing.
"Yeah that's what you get coconut head"

"Yah help me up" he held a hand out.

"No I'm good. I think I'll just set off walking to yours" she spoke before walking away , a smile on her face until she heard heavy footsteps running behind her. She squealed and went to run away before a pair of hands pulled her back , her spine hitting Jungkooks chest.

————

Y/N was just on Jungkook's bed waiting for him to finish in the bathroom. She was thankful he let her stay over , seeing as it wasn't long ago when she last spent the night.

He was actually really happy when she asked this time, seeing as last time he kind of forced it upon her. Plus he was hoping that after her confession earlier on that she would be more comfortable around him , and maybe cuddle him this time.

He came back into the bedroom holding a bowl of popcorn and a fizzy drink bottle. "Wanna watch a film ?" He asked. Y/N nodded before grabbing the laptop and going straight onto Netflix. "I saw a film trailer the other day for something called The Holiday"

"What's it about ?"

"Two women switch homes for a while , and get to stay in the others house for a holiday vacation. It's more of a romance film"

"So the two women are lesbians ?"

"No pabo" she laughed. "There are men involved"

He mouthed an "Ah" sound before sitting down on the bed.

Over half an hour had passed and the film got up to a pretty sexual part where the man and woman were roughly kissing , the woman's hands gripping all over the mans body.

Surprisingly Y/N wasn't fussed and didn't feel awkward. A film was a film at the end of the day.

Jungkook on the other hand was feeling the heat. His sweaty palms rubbing against his thighs as he constantly moved in his position , finding nothing comfortable.

"Yah Kooks stop moving" Y/N moaned before lightly tapping his arm , her eyes remaining on the laptop screen.

The boy gulped. He wasn't embarrassed or in disgust of the scene , but desperately fighting the boner that was forming in his sweat pants.
He didn't want to make Y/N uncomfortable.
"I'll be right back" he spoke before hurrying out the room and towards his bathroom , locking the door behind him before he pulled down his sweat pants and attended his friend :'

——11:37——

Y/N had fallen asleep first , again her body facing away from Jungkook which saddened him. But having her with him was satisfaction enough.

*PING*

Jimin : Jungkook

Jimin: My little sister better be in bed !!

Me: Little sister ? You guys are twins

Jimin: answer my question

Me: Yeh yeh she asleep , she nodded off over an hour ago

Jomon: Good

Jimin: Anyway you coming to Isaacs parts tomorrow ??

Me: Isaac ? As in footballer Issac

Jimin: Yeah from my team

Me: I'm not sure. I'll get back to you on that

———School———

"Isaac ?" Y/N questioned. Her and Jungkook were on their way to school. "Isn't he the boy who threw that ball at me on the bleachers ?"

"Yeah that's why I told Jimin I would get back to him. We don't have to go don't worry"

"Do you wanna go ?"

"Yeah. But I'd want you there with me"

"Party's aren't really my thing" she spoke. "You know me. All I need is my laptop , quilt and a bowl of Doritos"

"You're a loser Y/N" he sighed before taking hold of her hand , a smile on his face. "But you're my loser"

She smiled before heading into the school building with him , her eyes focused on the view ahead as she avoided any possible eye contact with anyone.
I'm gonna do this. I'm gonna hold his hand in front of people

"Y/N"

"Hm ?"

"You're hurting my hand"

She looked down , her mouth dripping open when she saw how tightly she was squeezing him. "Oh god sorry" she let go quickly.

"Everything ok ?" He asked before stopping by his locker. Y/N let her back rest agains the wall as she fanned her face , feeling a breakdown on the way.

"No. It's isn't. All I wanna do is get through just one day without feeling hot and awkward around others, and I can't even hold your and properly I'm that much of a mess"

"Your thinking to hard that's why"

"I can't help it. I've over thought things all my life"

"Well just try and relax. You're 17 and it's normal to have a boyfriend who you hold hands with , why would anyone judge you for that"

"Because I'm Pig face and your-." She stopped her self , realizing what she was about to say.

Jungkook smiled. "And I'm freak boy right ?"

She pressed her lips shut.

"Y/N you need to try and not be so ashamed of me. . . Look I'm gonna head to my first class. I'll see you in art" he spoke before walking away.

Y/N's breath hitched as she tried to speak , her foot making a hesitated step forward when she stopped her self.
Crap I've done it again. I've hurt his feelings.

I'm not letting him feel down again because of me. He means too much

She ran forward until she was right behind him , her arms wrapping around his waste from behind as she back hugged him. This stopping him in his tracks.
"I'm not ashamed of you" she spoke , her cheek pressed against his back. "I'll never be ashamed of you, only me. I'm the problem not you and I'm sorry. I wanna be good at this but I'm just not ..please don't stop liking me"
Wow ..way to sound desperate

But she couldn't help it. Everyday her feelings were growing stronger for Jungkook and she became so attached to him , so hurting him was the same as hurting her self.

The boy grabbed hold of her hands before turning to face her , yanking her close to his chest. "Yah Park Y/N" he spoke. She looked up at him with worried eyes , her lip pouted out as she felt teary. "I can't stop liking you if I'm in love with you. So what sort of plead was that ?"

"..I don't know"

"Listen to me" he shook her hands slightly. "I wanna be with you. The girl I met when I was 15. She's the girl I love and I know she's still there ..you just need to stop hiding her from me"

What does he mean ?

"Stop hiding the real Y/N from me and just be you. That's who I love .."