Jace

We ate in silence and I see that Clary was really enjoying the food. When we were done, I picked up the plates and placed them in the sink to soak. When I came back, Clary was not on the couch, so I went to see if she was in the bedroom. I found her sitting on the bed with tears in her eyes. I walked fast to her and wrapped her in my arms. 

"What is the matter? Is something wrong?"

"Jace, who is Si? I just had a flash of a guy with glasses named Si. He is someone I am supposed to remember but I can not."

"His name is Simon, Si for short. He is your best friend since you were children."

"How many people did these damn angels make me forget? You, who are my love, my best friend, who else? Damn them! I do not want to have anything to do with angels!"

She started to cry with a painful sob and all I could do was just hold her in my arms. When she finally stopped, I lifted her chin so that she could look into my eyes.

"Clary, when you get all your memories back,  we do not have to go back to being Shadowhunters. We can stay here and live as mundanes. All we have to worry about is raising our child and living our lives the way we want to live."

"Jace, is there a way I can meet our friends? I am remembering a lot so the angels cannot punish them because they are not interfering with my punishment."

"I can arrange it for tomorrow if you like. I will text everyone and see who can make it here."

"That is great! Just tell them to let me remember who is who and if I cannot remember, then they can tell me their name."

"That is a deal."

I started texting everyone at Clary's request. After a few seconds, my phone was bombarded with messages. Everyone wanted to come. I let them know her conditions and everyone agreed.

"Everything is set for tomorrow morning. Everyone will be here at ten and they agreed to your condition."

"I cannot wait. This is going to put my memories to the test."

"I think it will. Now, I am going to take a shower and we need to get some sleep."

Jace went to take a shower and I just sat on the bed thinking about what my life was in the past. I know that Jace was a big part of it, but there were other friends and family members that I must have cared about too. I tried to concentrate on Simon's features to see if any memories would come through. I just remembered one, he seeing Jace touching my face when we had taken Luke to Magnus' apartment when he was wounded by a pack leader wolf. That was a clear memory. Jace walked out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist and drops of water dripping down his chest from his wet hair. He looked at me and knew that something was wrong with me. He knows me so well sometimes.

"Babe, what is wrong? Are you okay?"

"I just had a flash of memory about Simon. We were at Magnus' apartment with Luke. You had your hand over my cheek and Simon walked in on us. He had a hurt look over his face."

"Well, Simon was in love with you for a while and when we met, I was his competition where he actually hated me. That was not one of his best nights." 

"He will be happy to know that I am starting to remember him. Did I date him? I remember waking up in his bed under the sheets in my underwear. It is confusing because I thought I have always been in love with you."

" For a month or two, you and I thought we were brother and sister. Valentine told us that he was our father. Simon took advantage and revealed his feelings to you and the two of you started dating. Then the night we captured Valentine, he confessed to me that he lied. He was holding the soul sword at the time so it was the truth."

"So, if I was with Simon, how did I end up back with you?"

"We owe that to the Seelie Queen. Alec sent us on a diplomatic mission to find out if Kailie committed the murder of Shadowhunters on her own or if she was ordered to do it. Simon decided to tag along even though he was not invited by the Seelie Queen. She took an interest in Simon, so she thought she would set the three of us up."

"What do you mean to set us up?"

"She trapped Simon and mean in her deadly vines and told you, that the kiss that you most desired, would set us free. You went and kissed Simon but the vines did not lose but got tighter around our necks instead. The queen told you that you were not fooling the vines but yourself. When you kissed me, after telling me that the kiss meant nothing, it turns out that my kiss was the one that you desired. Simon broke up with you when you could not tell him that you truly loved him." 

"Poor Simon, I must have hurt him."

"He got over it. He is dating my sister Izzy."

I laid under the sheets and pulled Clary into my arms and kissed her. She parted her lips for me and let me taste her. I ended the kiss slowly and she laid her head on my chest. I held her close to me as we both drifted off to sleep.

Clary

After Jace got out of the shower and we fell asleep, I started dreaming again. This time I find a boy a little older than Jace sitting on the floor with his hands drenched in blood. I followed the bloody footprints that were on the floor to one of the bedrooms. There on the floor laid a woman dead with a hole on her chest, missing her heart. She had red hair just like mine. Wait, could she be my mother? In the next scene, everyone including myself was dressed in white and there were bodies covered in white silk on slabs. Jace took my hand and we walked down the aisle and stood next to the body. I placed my hand on the body, and the same woman I found dead was under the silk sheet. Oh my God, it is my mother! The boy killed my mother, ripping her heart out. I screamed mom and woke up sobbing, wet with sweat and trembling. Jace put his arms around me and held me tight in his arms.

"Jace, do you know my mother?"

"Yes, I did meet her. She did not like me."

"Is my mother dead? Killed by a boy with black hair?"

"I am so sorry, Clary. Yes, she was killed by my brother Alec, but he was possessed by a demon that was sent by your father as a distraction. He saw the video and you killed the demon yourself saving my sister Izzy in the process. You did not blame Alec and are still friends."

"Those damn angels. How could they make me forget my mother's death?"

"Do not worry, Clary. You will get your memories back. There are so many, but you will be alright because you were able to handle everything without breaking down. Remember, that I am at your side."

Jace took me into his arms, kissed me tenderly, and I fell asleep without any more dreams or memories haunting me. We woke up to the alarm and got dressed to get ready for the arrival of the others. 

Jace

I went out to get something to eat and came back quickly so that Clary can eat. When it was getting closer to ten, Clary started pacing. I really did not know how she feels about the visit. There was a knock on the door and she froze in the middle of the floor. I went to answer the door to find Alec, Izzy, Simon, and Magnus standing there. I nodded for them to come in.

"Hey, guys. Do not rush to hug her and let her do her thing. I do not want to stress her out. She has been getting bits and pieces of her memories back through dreams or flashbacks. It has been very hard on her. All this stress is not good for her or the baby."

Everyone nodded in agreement. This is one of the hardest tests for my Clary.

Clary

They all walked into the living room and had huge smiles for me. I was a bit nervous as I looked into each of their faces and closed my eyes to see if I got any memory flash, which I did. I remember a girl with long black hair, giving me a short black dress for me to wear. The tall boy with black hair walking with me to the loft with a quiver of arrows and his bow. I remembered Simon already and this is definitely Magnus with blue sparks coming out of his fingers. I opened my arms, smiling, and walked towards them. I hugged Simon as I called him by his name and he hugged me back so tight that I could not breathe. Then I hugged the girl who is my best friend and was going to be my parabatai, Izzy, Alec with his bow, and last but not least, Magnus. Everyone was so happy that I remembered them.

"We missed you so much!", Izzy said choking on her tears. "And Jace told us that you are pregnant."

"Yes, I am, but disappointed that Jace was not with me, but I did not know that he was there. I am so angry that the angels punished me for saving the world and punished all of you for loving me. That is not fair to Jace, because he gave up the most to be with me and our baby. When and if I get my memories back, I do not think I want to be a Shadowhunter and be under the angels rules. They will never take away the people I love ever again."

"How are you remembering so much, Biscuit?

"The memories have been coming in dreams. I hate to disappoint you, but most of my dreams were of Jace."

"Of course it would be Jace. He is all you ever wanted since running into him at Pandemonium. Never mind your best friend who has known you since childhood."

"Simon, I cannot believe that you are still jealous of me!" Jace said while laughing.

"Nah, I am just stating the truth. I have Isabel who I met because of you."

"Jace, what are you going to do if Clary get all her memories back, are you going to go back to be a Shadowhunter? Alex sounded so hopeful.

I looked at my brother who had a hopeful look, anxiously waiting for my answer. It was going to hurt him, but I think I have made a hard decision.

"Alex, you are my brother and were my parabatai. I could not have asked for a better partner. After thinking things through since the day I lost Clary when I decided to be de-runed, my decision was permanent. I have Clary and we are expecting our baby. Taking my chances again by going back to being a Shadowhunter, risking Clary and our child, is something that I do not want to do ever again. The angels and the Clave have always been against us. If we are going to have a normal life in the mundane world and risking their lives in the Shadow World, I want to live as mundane. I love all of you, my family, my friends, but I love Clary and the baby more."

"I understand, Jace. I just miss my parabatai. You have your own family now and you have to do what is best for them."

"Boys, I do not mean to rush this visit, but we have to get back to the Institute."