Clary

I started to dream again, but this time it is clear. The man of my dreams is tall and gorgeous with strong muscles. He has golden hair and skin and he has blue eyes but one is brown with blue surrounding it. He has tattoos all over his body. He is holding me in his arms as his tattoos light up in golden lights. There is another scene and he is holding me in his arms telling me he loves me, but all of a sudden, something pulls me away from him and my vision gets blurry. Everything around us starts to disappear and then, he starts to disappear. "Jace!",  I wake up screaming his name. I sat up in bed panting and my heart started to pound so hard in my chest. I could not catch my breath. A hand was placed on my shoulder. It felt strong and made me feel safe, but there is nobody there. "What does it mean? Is Jace my baby's father? Is he the man of my dreams, the one I am supposed to love?" I am so confused. The hand that I felt on my shoulder felt real or am I imagining it?" "I need to find him!", I say aloud.  I want Jace, but I do not know why. This feeling that we belong together feels strong and genuine. Will I be able to find him if I search? "Jace, if you are the one that I belong to, I will find you."

Jace

Clary called out my name! She was dreaming of me. I could not help but place my hand on her shoulder, but I think she felt it. "Could she be remembering? Is it possible that she will get her memories back?" At this point, it is impossible to guess. I just stood there and watched her as she got out of the bed and started talking to herself about me. She remembers the day she used her tracking rune to use our angelic bonds to track Jonathan. That is the only time that all my runes lit up in a golden light. Clary is asking if I am the one that belongs at her side. She feels like she needs to search for me. That she needs to find me. No matter, because I cannot take my chances that she will not regain her memories again. I watched her fall asleep again and at first light, I headed over to the Institute and the portal to my future. I stood in front of Imogen as she looked at me and took me all in. She took a deep breath and started the long-awaited speech.

"My dear boy, I am surprised at the decision you have made. Volunteering to be de-runed for a girl, is not what I expect from a Herondale."

"Grandmother, she is not just a girl. This is Clary we are talking about and the girl that I love."

"This is the first time that you have called me grandmother, Jace. It tells me that you want my approval in your decision."

"Yes, I do, but if you do not give it to me, I am still going through with my decision. I want to be with Clary."

"Does this mean that I cannot talk to you out of it then? You are giving up being a Shadowhunter for her?"

"I am sorry, but yes. She means everything to me."

"Well then, Jace, you have my blessing. What kind of a grandmother would I be if I do not put my grandson's happiness first. After all, I hear rumors that I am going to be a great-grandmother!"

"Thank you, grandmother. It is not a rumor. Clary is six weeks pregnant and this is the reason I made this decision because I have to think like a father now, not like a Shadowhunter."

"Jace, I am so proud of the man that you have become. The de-runing can be done this afternoon. I will not make you wait any longer. Clary is so lucky to have you and I know that you will be very happy. It is true, that when a Nephilim finds the one, that he will love fiercely. You, my boy, are the living proof that the saying is so true."

"Thank you, grandmother. I will see you this afternoon. By the way, I love you grandmother." 

"Jace, one more thing before you go. I am going to set everything up so that you can get your parent's inheritance and this is going to include Herondale manor. I think that now that you are going to have a family, you should have the money to take care of them. The manor has been too big for me and all I do is have a team that goes and cleans it and maintains the ground for me. It is yours. This box belongs to you. There is a letter there that your father had left for you in case anything happened to them. I forgot that I had it up until I found out that you were my grandson."

"Thanks again, grandmother. I will read the letter later. I am not sure if I will ever come back to live in Idris, but it is nice to know that the Manor is there if I decide that I do."

I went home to Lightwood Manor where to my surprise, my immediate family was there. After a round of hugs, I stood there looking at them.

"What are you doing here?"

"Jace, you are our brother. Do you think we would not be here for you?" Izzy gave me a quick hug.

"I am losing my parabatai, so the least I can do is be here for my brother."

Izzy and Alec left me speechless. I cannot believe that they would torture themselves being here by my side.

"Magnus and Simon are keeping their eyes on Clary so that we can stand by you," Alec said with a sad tone in his voice.

We spent the day talking about our past hunts and experiences. After looking at everything from a different point of view, I realized that I will miss being a Shadowhunter. I have been one since I was eight years old and killed my first demon. Then I thought of Clary, of how she fits perfectly in my arms, how it feels to touch her soft skin, her taste when I kiss her, and how she loves me unconditionally. I would miss her more than my Shadowhunter days. Then the thought of my unborn child, thinking about who he would look like. Would he or she have my eyes or Clary's? My personality or hers? All I know is that I plan to be the kind of father I wished I had. Robert was a great dad, but he was always busy with Clave work which kept him away from us. Now is getting late and all I keep thinking is that I miss Clary. This has been the longest I have been away from her, but soon that will change. I will be living as mundane and wonder if it will be hard adjusting to that kind of life, but then being with Clary will make anything and everything easy for me. That afternoon, I walked into the infirmary where they were waiting for me to begin my de-runing. My mom, my sister, and my brother, and parabatai were there at my side. I was surprised to see Imogen stroll in and stand next to my siblings.

The de-runing was painful, but not more painful than the feeling of losing Clary forever and that made me tolerate it. My mom held my hand and my grandmother gave me encouraging words. I never knew pain until they started on the last rune, my Parabati rune. It was even more painful to see Alec, falling on his knees screaming as if they were pulling his heart out. I was also screaming, that is how I know what was happening to Alec. When it was finally finished, I was sitting on the chair drenched in sweat and out of breath. Maryse hugged me tight and told me that it was over. I could not believe that the woman who has been my mom all these years, went through this alone. I put my shirt on, and after saying goodbye to my grandmother, I went back to the manor. Once in my room, I took my shirt off and looked in the mirror. It was so strange seeing my body completely free of runes. It is going to be hard to get used to, but for Clary and our baby, it is worth it. If asked if I would do it again, the answer would be yes, all for Clary. I laid in bed and drifted off to sleep thinking that tomorrow, will be the first day of my new life.

I arrived back at the institute to pack my bags. I needed to go and find a place to live even though Magnus and Alec had offered me their guest room. This offer I had to decline because I want to live close to Clary and have a place where I can bring Clary to when we start dating. Yes, dating her because I am not going to waste any time showing up in her life. Sime met me outside of the Institute and went with me to help find a place to live and a job. I have money and Imogen made sure that she gave me a portion of my inheritance, I need to look like a regular guy in Clary's eyes. After I found an apartment, I walked to the coffee shop that Clary normally stops to get her coffee on her way home from school. This is where I am going to make my first contact with her.

Izzy

" I do not know about you, Alec, but I am worried about Jace. He is mundane now and could be in danger. There are a lot of demons out there ready to attack and kill him out of revenge for all the demons he has killed."

"He will be fine, Izzy. Just because he was de-runed does not mean he does not know how to fight. Knowing Jace, he will find a way to get around that. Do not worry about our brother because he will be just fine."

"It is hard not to worry about him. He is still my brother and I love him."

"I know you do because I love him too."

Alec put his arms around me in a tight hug. He is right. Jace has always been the best fighter and our strongest warrior. He will find a way to fight demons without his runes.

"Alec, do you think Jace will be able to make Clary fall in love with him again?"

"Jace will do anything and accomplish anything he wants. If he wants Clary, he will get Clary no matter what hoops he has to jump through. Jace just had himself de-runed, what makes you think he will not get Clary back?"

"You are right. There is nothing Jace cannot do and most of all for Clary. I wish that Simon and I could get to love each other just like Jace and Clary love each other."

"I am sure that Simon really loves you, Izzy. After all, he did go to Edom to look for  you when you went there to save Magnus."

"You are right. Simon does love me and not all couples love the same way."

"We just need to wish the best for Jace and Clary. That is all we could do."

"Jace deserves to be with Clary after all they have been through. He is going to be a dad and this is why he needs to do everything in his power to get Clary back."

"Let us wait and see what happens."