Clary

"Hello, I am Clary Fray. I have been accepted here as a student.  I was unable to attend because of personal business, but I am registering for this coming semester. I also will need a dorm assignment since I no longer live with my parents."

"Yes, miss Fray, we have been expecting you. Someone requested your dorm and you are already registered for your classes. Here is a copy of your schedule and you are in Pleasant Hall, room 25. Here is the key to the room and your mailbox. The bookstore has a voucher for you that covers your books for the semester and any school supplies you may need. Welcome to the Brooklyn Academy of Fine Arts."

"Who did this for me? Do you know?"

"Apparently you have an anonymous sponsor. You are a lucky young lady."

"Yes, I guess I am."

I went to the dorm to take a look at the room. As I was walking lost in thought, I bumped into someone. When I looked up, I realized that it was Holly from high school. I have not seen her in two years.

"Clary, is it really you? I have not seen you, in what, almost two years?"

"Yes, that sounds about right? Are you attending here too? I just registered for classes and was going to take a look at my room."

"What room are you in? I am in room twenty."

" I am in room twenty-five so we are close to each other. Do you have a roommate, because I do not?"

"Yes, I do. In a matter of fact, it is Shirley from our English class."

"Wow, I did not know that she was into art, but then again that is the only class we were in together. Listen, I really have to go. There is some packing I have to do so that I can move in. Can we finish this conversation tomorrow? I promise that I will see you."

"Of course. You go do what you need to do and I will see you tomorrow. I will help you unpack if you can use my help."

"That will be great. I will see you then."

I got my assigned dorm room and schedule but I do not know who arranged everything for me. When I went to see my room, I ran into Holly. It was nice seeing her again after so long. She told me that Shirley from our English class is also here. It is nice having some friends here. I feel so alone but maybe now I will have some friends.  Now, I am packing my things for my move. Food did not look appetizing right now with this morning sickness that sometimes runs during dinner time. I was exhausted from packing so a shower was in order and then bedtime. I sat on the bed and started to think of what I was going to do about my situation. Raising a baby at a young age was hard and it hurts not knowing the father just makes it harder. I laid down in bed and drifted off to sleep to start dreaming about a man that I cannot make out his features. He is taller than me because while I was hugging him I only reached up to his chest, and I could see clearly his smile, like that of an angel. I moaned in my sleep when he walked away from me and I could not find him. It felt as if he was abandoning me.  I sat up quickly not sure if it was a dream or real. All of a sudden, I felt like someone ran their fingers along my jaw to my cheek. I reached up to where I felt the touch, but of course, there was nothing or anyone there. Was this my imagination or this was still part of my dream. Who is this man that I just dreamed about? Is he my child's father? Was he important to me so that is why I felt like he was abandoning me?

Jace

I spent the day watching Clary pack for her move to the dorm. She looks so sad and exhausted. She needs me so much so I need to take care of my things fast for me to be with her. She woke up from her sleep startled as if she was looking for someone. I could not help myself so I ran my fingers up her jaw towards her cheek. She reacted like she felt me doing it. Could she really feel me touching her? Does this mean she has not lost all her Shadowhunter abilities? I know it is wishful thinking but this will not be for long. The decision has been made, so I am going to go to Idris to put my request in for de-runing. I know my grandmother is not going to like it, but I am sure she will understand my position but if she does not, she is going to have to. My life as a Shadowhunter is worthless without my Clary in it. Clary will have me soon enough. I just have to figure out how to swipe her off her feet as mundane. Will she fall in love with me all over again? Will our bond go beyond her lost memories of me? Despite my plans, I know I have my work cut out for me. There will be two challenges for me, getting used to life as mundane and getting Clary to go out with me again. I went back to the Institute to talk to the others about protection rotation over Clary while I am in Idris. 

"Simon, I need you and the others to do me a big favor. I have to go to Idris to speak to Imogen about my de-runing request. I am sure that the whole thing will take a day or two, so I need you and the others to share your time protecting Clary."

"You can count on me, Jace. One thing I have not said to you is to thank you, for loving Clary the way you do. I know we did not hit it off when we met and I was scared that you were just a pretty face that would use Clary and leave her. I loved her too much to see her go through something like that. Now, here you stand, willing to give away all you love for her. You are a good man and I am so glad that Clary has you."

" I really do love her, and I do not care what I give up for her. She cannot be left alone with this pregnancy not knowing who the father is. Not having memories of me, our love, and her family. I just cannot stand by and do nothing."

"If there is anything that I can help you with, questions to answer about being mundane, do not hesitate to ask."

Maryse walked in with a sad smile on her face as she looked at me. "Simon, would you mind if I speak to my son alone?"

"Of course not. I was ready to go and find the others. Jace, we will wait at the library."

"Mom, what is it? Anything wrong?"

"No, sweetheart, I just needed to talk to you about the de-runing."

"If you are going to talk to me out of it, do not waste your time. My mind is made up."

"My sweet son, I am not going to ask you that. I just wanted to tell you that I will be there with you every step of the way. I do not want you to be alone like I was. De-runing gets to be very emotional. You are going to be without your angelic powers and will not be a Clave warrior any longer. I just want to be there for you."

"Thanks, mom, that is great. I really appreciate it, but this is something that I decided the minute I knew that Clary might never remember me as a Shadowhunter. I do not think that I will be totally powerless, after all, like you said, I have Ithuriel's gift that was not a part of the Shadowhunter's power."

"You know, none of us thought about that. It is a possibility that you will still have his gifts, after all, it is in your blood."

The others walked into the library and I was ready to say my goodbyes. Alec is the one I worry about the most since he will be losing his parabatai. This is going to be hard, saying goodbye to my family and friends, but I love Clary and cannot live without her. She is carrying my child and I cannot stay away from her. I took a deep breath and readied myself for what I have to do.

"Thanks for coming. I will be leaving for Idris tomorrow to see Imogen about my de-runing. Mom decided that she is coming with me to be my support in this. I want you to know, that no matter what happens, I love all of you. Please understand that this has been the hardest decision that I have had to make as a Shadowhunter, but I do not regret it. I love Clary and cannot live without her and now with a baby on the way, my place is with her. All I ask is that for the next day or two, you keep an eye on Clary.  You need to make sure that she is safe. Once I am de-runed, I am coming back and walk into her life as mundane, sweep her off her feet, and live my life with her and our child. Tonight is my last night as a Shadowhunter and tomorrow I will face voluntary de-runing without any regrets. Alec, I hope you understand my choice."

Alec looked at Magnus and nodded. Everyone came to hug me and I turned and left with a heavy heart that tomorrow, this world will forever be behind me. As I walked to Clary's loft, thoughts of being a Shadowhunter came to mind. The hunt, the thrill that goes through my veins every time I kill a demon. The way the weight of the Seraph blade feels natural in my hand while I am standing covered in ichor. But then, thoughts of Clary always come to my thoughts. The way she sees the good in me that no one else sees. The way she touches me, the way she fits close to my body like a puzzle piece, and the way she tastes when I kiss her. Clary's love for me is unconditionally in the way my love is for her. Clary is the one girl that all Shadowhunter men look for to love fiercely, and I found her the night I ran into her at Pandemonium. I will love her fiercely until the day I die. I have made the right decision regardless of what anyone including Raziel thinks. 

I arrived at Clary's loft and she was already in bed sleeping. I sat on the chair next to her bed and watched her sleep. She is so beautiful and I yearn for the day that I will be laying next to her and having her in my arms again. She started to stir so I know she is already having a dream. I stood there and watched her helpless, unable to be able to wake her. Her dreams are coming more frequently and sometimes I wonder if these are her memories trying to get out. Clary is moving a lot but it does not look like it is a bad one. She is even smiling like she is happy. Maybe tonight she remembers me. All I want is to hear her say that she loves me, that she wants me in her arms, and to hear her say that she loves me. That is all I want.