Clary

I woke up because I felt a soft kiss on my forehead, but there was no one there. Did I imagine it? It felt like real, familiar lips. It's just is part of whatever happened to me last night. "How did this get here?" I looked at the bag that was sitting on the foot of my bed. There was a large some of the money sitting on top of my bag. There were also clothes in my size, which makes me think that it belongs to me. I guess I might as well get dressed and go to school and take care of some things like arranging for a dorm room. I need to get my mind off the fact that I do not remember these past two years. I went and took a shower and got dress so that I can go get some coffee before going to school and getting registered for the new semester and getting a dorm assignment.  Today feels like the first day of my life.

Jace

The sun came shining in through my window and was starting to hit my eyes. I reached out to Clary and remembered that she is not here. I got up and jumped in the shower and got dressed and went to the kitchen to get something to eat. I found Izzy, Simon, and Alec eating breakfast. As I walked in they all looked up at me with a sad look. I grabbed some coffee and sat down next to Alex.

"What time did you get in? Izzy was watching to see my body language.

"Actually I got in this morning. I found Clary at the loft as I thought. She was asleep, so I watched her sleep and left before she woke up. I left the bag and money at the foot of the bed where she can see. it. I am planning of going to check up on her and see how she is doing. If I am right, she will be at the Art Academy registering for school and a dorm."

"Jace, listen to me. This is not good for you. You cannot do this to yourself. You need to stay away from Clary until the angels decide to end the punishment."

"How dare you tell me to stay away from Clary. You have Magnus and Izzy and Simon have each other. I am going to see Clary as much as I want to and protect her as long as she is vulnerable. You sound like you are going to give up on her, but I am not."

I saw how Alec reacted to my words. How could they all act as if nothing happened? My Clary is not with me, in my arms, in my bed! I cannot let her go. To hell with the angels because they will never keep me away from her. I walked out of the kitchen and headed out the doors to go to check up on Clary. This went on for several months, my watching her from afar. I would sit in her room and watch her sleep and leave just before she was ready to wake up. One morning, all of a sudden,  Clary ran into the bathroom and started vomiting. What is wrong with her? Did she wake up sick? I wish I could draw the healing iratze to make her feel better. For the next few weeks, this kept happening and I was standing around helpless, just wishing I can do something to help her. Clary was so pale when she came out of the bathroom and she made an appointment to see the doctor today. I am going with her to see what is wrong with her. She arrives at the doctor's office and after filling out paperwork, she waits to be called. I looked around and saw a few pregnant women sitting around the waiting room. I cannot wait to see my Clary with her baby bump. These women looked beautiful and their faces were glowing. She went into the examining room and got into the gown they gave her. I looked away while the doctor examined her and then he asked her to get dress and meet him at his office. She walked into the doctor's office and took a seat. I walked in and stood behind Clary wishing she knew that I was here with her.

"Clary, you do not have the flu. The reason for your symptoms is that you are six weeks pregnant. The morning sickness will go away on its own but I will still prescribe some medicine in case it gets bad. I will also give you some vitamins to take and I will see you in two months for your sonogram. She walked out of the office and as soon as she was outside, she started to cry.  My Clary is pregnant with my baby! This cannot be happening to us. I want to let her know that I am here at her side and would never leave her alone in this. I am going to be a father with the most beautiful girl as the mother! I want to take her in my arms and kiss her for giving me this most beautiful gift. She walked to her loft and sat on the couch, still crying. I sat next to her and softly put my hand on her shoulder. I saw her shudder and looked around as if she can feel me.

Oh my God, I am pregnant! I do not remember sleeping with anyone. This can not be happening to me! What am I going to do having a baby by myself and not knowing who the father is? Maybe I should get an abortion. Look at me standing here talking to myself. No, I can not get an abortion even if I do not know who the father is. This baby is not at fault for whatever happened to me. 

No Clary! You can not kill my child! I am the father, the man you have loved for the past two years! You will not do this. I will not let you! I will move heaven and earth to be with you and raise our child, together. I stood with Clary until she went to bed and fell asleep. I have to make a decision about what I am going to do. I walked back into the institute and went straight into my room. Clary is having my baby and I will not leave her alone in this. Damn you to hell, Raziel! I decided what I am going to do. All of a sudden, I was standing in a long, bright hallway that had floors of glass and pillars made of gold. I did not know how I got there, so I took out my seraph blade as I started to walk down the hallway. A bright light appeared in front of me and there stood an angel. He looked familiar to me, but it was not Ithuriel. 

Raziel

"No! This cannot be! Jace and Clary are having a child. This cannot be. I did not think about this being possible. Jace And Clary creating and bringing to life an abomination. I need to give Jace a warning, better yet an ultimatum. Clary cannot remember Jace or their love and I will kill her and the child if she does. Raziel brought Jace to one of the halls to speak with him.

"Who are you and why did you bring me here?"

"I am Raziel and I brought you here because I need to speak with you. You are interfering with the punishment I placed on Clarissa and it cannot happen. You are to stay away from her until I choose to end her punishment."

"Punishment for saving the world? Clary went through the pain of killing her brother to save the world from his wrath? Clary did not deserve your punishment. I am protecting her because you left her vulnerable and demons can attack her. Now, she is pregnant with my child and I will not leave her alone with this. It is my duty to protect her and my child. So to hell with what you think and have to say."

"Jace, I am warning you. Do not interfere with the punishment I have set. This will be my last warning."

Jace

I was back in my room sitting on my bed. Raziel gave me a warning not to interfere. I will not let him stop me from protecting my Clary and our unborn child. I went to look for the others and text them to meet me at the library. I paced back and forth until everyone arrived. They looked at me and were all quiet.

"There has been a new and unexpected situation with Clary that you need to know. Please, wait until I am finished. For a couple of weeks, Clary was sick. So she went to see a doctor thinking she might have the flu. I went with her of course without her knowledge, because I wanted to know what was wrong with her. Clary is not sick with the flu, she is six weeks pregnant with my child."

"By the angel, Jace, I do not understand while Raziel chose this time to punish her. What the hell is going on? Maryse stood up pacing back and forth. "She cannot go through this on her own."

"She is not and I got a plan, but I am afraid none of you are going to like it."

Izzy looked at me with widened eyes. "Jace, you want to be de-runed, don't you?

"No, you can not do that! That means you will not be my parabatai! Alex screamed at me."

"Wait, please! This has nothing to do with any of you! I love you, but Clary and our baby are my life! I cannot abandon her and let her go through this alone. When she found out she was pregnant, she was not happy. All she kept doing was talking to herself, saying she did not know who the father is. Worst of all, she was thinking of getting an abortion. I do not want her to kill my baby because she finds herself alone without knowing who the father is. Here I am remembering when it was the day that I got her pregnant and she does not even remember me and how special our love is."

"This is terrible! I grew up all my life going to the temple. To find out that angels are cruel has made me want to stop caring about them. My best friend is hurting and I can not do a damn thing about it."

"None of us can, Simon. Don't you think that we would if we would know how?"

"I did not want to get you upset, Izzy, but you know how close I am to Clary."

"That is why I have decided that I am going to ask the Clave to de-rune me. I will rather be mundane, and be with Clary than live as a Shadowhunter and be at the mercy of the angels. I love each and every one of you, but Clary and my baby are my life and my future. I am not sure if I too would lose the memory of you, but rest assure that I will never regret my decision. Please understand that I love Clary too much and I cannot live without her."

"I know that I have been quiet all this time listening to everything. I love my biscuit and if your sacrifice is going to protect her and make her happy, then you have my support, Jace. You have been a good brother and a better friend, and Clary and your baby are so lucky to have you. You are going to be a great dad and I am so proud of you."

At this, Magnus walked up to me and hugged me. After a minute, everyone came up to me and hugged me. When I looked up, Luke was standing at the door watching all of us. He came up to me and gave me a hug.

"How long have you been standing there?"

"I have heard everything you said, Jace, and I am so glad that Clary and my grandchild have you!"

"Luke, I need to apologize to you. I was irresponsible getting Clary pregnant before we even got married."

"I understand. You love each other and things sometimes happen whether you planned it or not."

At this, I pulled the ring that I have been carrying in my pocket for months. I opened the box and showed it to him.

"I was trying to propose to her on the day of Alec's wedding, but she interrupted me. It was because she knew what I was going to say and knowing she was losing her memory, stopped it. I always planned on marrying her."

"I believe you, son. I know it is going to be hard on you since you have always been a soldier. It might be hard to get used to being mundane."

"Luke, I will go to hell and back for that woman. Clary is  worth all the hardships I endure."

At this, I walked out of the room and left to check up on Clary. Now that I know that she is pregnant, I will be keeping a closer watch on her until I get de-runed.