First oneshot is hereee. It is very, very long, but hopefully you'll like it :)
Enjoy reading <3

"Chenle stop. I mean it. Seriously stop. You are so damn clingy all the time, calling me cute names, calling me YOUR SON and I am so sick of it. Enough is enough. I am your hyung for fucks sake. Can you at least once show some respect towards me and behave like a normal adult, not like a small kid who is seeking attention 24/7?"

Those words hit different. Chenle did not expect it. He knew. He knew how annoying he could be, especially to Mark, but he didn't know that the members saw him this way. He already had a fight with Jisung and Jeno earlier, because the only thing he wanted and mainly needed was someone's hold but unfortunately his two best friends were sick of it too and shouted at him. Even though it hurt him so much, he did not show it. He thought that they were maybe tired because of all the schedules and that he only added oil into the fire, so he did not pay attention to it.

However a few days later Mark had this hurtful monolog towards him when Chenle just wanted to hug him.

This time he didn't let it be. His thoughts started to work two hundred percently and he started to ask himself if he was really that annoying and not worthy of skinship, which was something he literally needed for a normal function. He began to doubt himself, he started to think that if he would cut off all the skinship initiation, the members would like him more. And because he was an overthinker and also an anxious type of a person, cutting off the skinship was exactly the one thing he did.

He began immediately the next morning after Mark's hurting speech. When he woke up, he came into the kitchen where all the dreamies except Jisung were already sitting and instead of his usual heartwarming greeting when he would hug each member and call them some cute nickname, he just mumbled quiet "Good morning, hyungs'' and bowed to them. All of them looked at him with a clear confusion in their faces and being too confused with what just happened, they didn't greet him back. That just added more salt into the wound. Chenle quickly hid his disappointed face into the fridge and grabbed some yogurt for breakfast. Quietly finishing it sitting at the corner of a table he stood up ready to leave to his bedroom and mentaly prepare for a whole day when he would have to survive without any skinship. However Mark stopped him.

"Chenle, do you have a minute?"

"Of course I do, hyung. What is going on?"

"Just wanted to remind you that we are leaving in 30 minutes. Go wake up Jisung and then get ready. Don't be late." And with that he left.

Chenle did exactly what Mark told him to do. He woke Jisung up, who was mad at him for it and after listening to the words "Next time send some other hyung, I don't want to be awakened by you," he left to wait in the hall. He tried to ignore his hurting heart but he couldn't stop his brain from thinking about what he did wrong. Was his tendention to hold on to the members really that awful that even Jisung used some not really nice words against him?

Practise was bad, so so bad that day. But only for Chenle. He was upset, tired and the fact that the members weren't wondering at all about his sudden change of behaviour didn't help either.

"Chenle-ya, what is going on with you? You are out of our world today, aren't you? Are you okay?" Did he expect his dance coach to ask him this question? No, not at all. But hey! At least someone noticed.

"Yes, hyung, don't worry. I just had a few nightmares the previous night and cannot really stop thinking about it. Plus I'm also tired, so my concentration level isn't at my highest. I am very sorry, I promise I will be better next time."

"Okay, if that is what you say. So see you next time. And don't worry about the nightmares. They are just dreams after all. Not real at all. Take care, Chenle."

"Thank you very much, hyung, you too."

After that he ran to the car where almost every member looked pissed.

"What took you so long? Busy with clinging to a coach?" Jeno's voice was sharp as a knife and Chenle didn't even try to defend himself.

"I am sorry, hyung, I didn't mean to stay longer."

"Whatever, just get in, so we can finally head to dorms."

Chenle quickly jumped in and sat himself next to almost sleeping Renjun. He was lucky for this place. Sleeping Renjun meant no hurtful comments, so he allowed himself to relax a bit.

He did it. He successfully survived the first day without any attention seeking. Even though he was breaking from the inside, he hoped his beloved members felt good about it.

And this was how Chenle's life looked like for a few weeks. No bothering his members, no initiating skinship, faking his smiles, laughs and jokes at the shows, but stopping immediately when the cameras stopped rolling. No one seemed to notice. Mark being happy that his little speech finally made Chenle more obedient, Jisung and Jeno happy they could make plans only on their own without Chenle joining them, Renjun happy that he can sleep on his own in the bed (because Chenle loved to snuggle next to him at the nights when ugly nightmares would meet him) and Jaemin happy that there was no other person, who would beat him in seeking attention (he didn't mind Hyuck, because he would always win over him). If they saw his dark circles under his eyes, which also didn't shine the way they used to, they didn't say anything.

The only one who noticed was Donghyuck. From the first day he knew something was wrong. How could he not know, when a ball full of positive energy and smiles and soft gestures suddenly stopped to shine and started to work on something we might call autopilot.

So when Chenle decided to leave the dorm for a while with the words "I miss my Daegallie so much, I am gonna head back to my house for a few days," Hyuck decided to step in and went to Chenle's house. The whole Dream team knew Daegal was back in China with Chenle's parents who brought her there because Chenle and them didn't want to stress Daegal with Chenle's busy schedules. Hyuck was becoming furious about the dreamies because they simply ignored the poor boy who was obviously struggling with something.

When Hyuck reached the door of Chenle's house, he just entered the number pin and stepped into the house on his own. It was very quiet there. The maids who were supposed to stay in the house were probably already sleeping and Chenle could be hiding anywhere. But because he was at home he didn't have a reason to hide, that's why Hyuck decided to go to the boy's room. He quietly opened the door and his heart clenched. Chenle was curled into a ball, crying and hugging a lion plush which he got from Mark for his last birthday. Mark said to him that the plush is his twin who is gonna be there for Chenle when Mark won't be available. What an irony.

"Chenle-ya? It is me, Hyuck. Can I come closer?"

Chenle froze. Hyuck could spot his discomfort but he decided to come closer, even though the younger wasn't saying anything.

"Hun, come here. Screw that plush and seek some comfort from me, hm?"

Chenle was surprised. He couldn't believe what was happening. Did someone finally recognize that he was not okay? Did he really get an offer for cuddles? He was ready to jump into Hyuck's arms but before he did it, he stopped himself.

The members hated it. They didn't like him for being clingy, they were sick of his way of showing affection. So he was not going to do that. He curled even more and squished the plush tighter. Hyuck sighed and decided to spoon the boy and wait until he would open up to him. After a while Chenle finally relaxed in the olders hold and a new wave of tears started to take over its shift.

"Cry, baby, let it out. All of it. Scream, kick, slap me, if you want. I deserve it for not coming earlier to you. Just do not hide it anymore. You're hurting yourself."

So Chenle did. He cried, cried and cried, until no more tears were coming out of his eyes.

After a few minutes of calming silence, when Chenle was just enjoying the feeling of being hugged after such a long time, he realized that he was actually HUGGED. He started to stand up.

"Hyuckie, hyung. Thank you so much for holding me. You can let me now. I know, it is making you uncomfortable, do not push yourself."

"No, Chenle, listen to me. I am not gonna let you. I know you are hurting and I will not leave you alone until we solve this. You suddenly started to call us hyung, even though you know, you don't have to, you stopped giving us random hugs, random kisses, you even stopped to fangirl over Mark. What was the last time you called him your son or cute? What was the last time you two went to play basketball? Or you and Jisung. You two are best friends. Why don't you spend any free time with each other? Did you two fight? And what about Jeno? No more sleep stealing when you two played video games till the morning? And what about me? Why don't you hug me anymore? Don't come to me when you miss your parents or Daegal? Did we do something wrong?"

Chenle didn't know what to say. He wanted to cry again. But Hyuck was accusing himself, which was the last thing Chenle wanted, so he held the tears back.

"No, hyungie, you did absolutely nothing wrong. Everything is completely fine. I just realized that I am too clingy sometimes and cringe with all the nicknames and kisses, so I thought, it would be better to stop, because I don't want you to be mad at me and don't want to make you uncomfortable. And it seems like it worked. The boys are happy and that's what I wanted."

Chenle showed Hyuck a broken smile and was hoping that would be the end of the conversation. But of course it wasn't.

"Bullshit. Who told you something like that? This is not from your head."

"No one, hyung, I swear, it was me, who told it."

"I don't believe you. All the things you stopped doing is your natural behaviour. It is your way of showing your love to us. Your way of communicating with us. So don't lie to me and tell me who told you those shits?"

Chenle was afraid. Hyuck looked very angry and Chenle didn't want to tell him anything. But it hurt. It hurt him so much that he did say it.

"It was Markie hyung, Jeno hyung and Jisungie. But it is not their fault. They just helped me to realize how annoying I actually am and how people can get tired of it."

Hyuck was broken. He couldn't believe that his own band mates and someone he considered as his best friends did hurt their second youngest baby this much. And he was also broken, because Chenle still thought it was his fault.

"Lovely, listen to me. Listen carefully and do not disturb my speech. I don't know what exactly they said to you, but it had to be something really ugly, when it broke you like that. But you need to believe me when I say that you're not annoying. You're not too clingy, you're not making anyone uncomfortable. Yes, we all know, that the Dream members aren't the biggest fans of a skinship and that it could be too much for them. But we always know their boundaries. Always. We never did anything wrong. When we sensed they were uncomfortable, we stopped immediately. Especially you, Chenle. Everytime they shrugged you off or told you to stop, you did it. You apologized and gave them their space. You never did anything wrong. You always take care of them and even now, when they are obviously hurting you, you still do. Your small gestures, when you bring water to Mark, when you notice, his bottle is empty, when you tell Jaemin to go to Jisung, because he felt and his leg might hurt, so he might need to hold on someone or when you leave the living room for Jeno and Renjun, so they can watch their favourite movie. Your heart is so full of love towards us and you only think about us, not yourself. You hurt yourself so much. And I'm seriously so sad about it and mad at myself that I didn't come to you sooner. Please, darling, believe me. You. Are. Not. A. Burden. At. All."

Chenle wasn't able to speak. He was so shocked by Hyuck's speech. He was hurting and the fact that his lovely hyung just told him that he isn't the problem made him want to scream, because he still thought the exact opposite. But he decided to say nothing and just allowed himself to bury himself even deeper into Hyuck's hold.

"Thank you so much, hyungie. You're the best."

Hyuck just smiled and let the poor boy sleep.

The second day both of them came back to the dorms and Chenle was so freaking nervous. He hoped Hyuck won't mention anything, so he was trying his best to look as happy as possible. Even though Hyuck wasn't eating anything from this play, he stayed calm and didn't say anything. He held Chenle's hand and simply joined the Dreamies for breakfast.

"Lele, you want some toasts? Or cereal with milk?" Hyuck asked him and ignored the stares from the others.

"It's okay, hyung, I will prepare the food on my own, don't bother yourself."

"I'll take that as a toast, I've been craving them for a while now." And with that he left to the kitchen. Chenle desperately wanted to follow him but when he stood up, Renjun talked.

"What happened? Did you throw something into his drink that he is suddenly being all friendly with you?"

Chenle wanted to answer but before him another person started to talk. Now it was Jeno's turn.

"I don't really get what you are trying to play here. I thought you finally realized that your annoyance is too much but now you are playing Hyuck. Very clever move. Who are you gonna bother next time? Poor Kun hyung? Or Jaehyun hyung?"

And here it went again. His heart was beating fast and clenching at the same time. He felt his cheeks burning red and the tears were starting to find their way. But he couldn't allow to show this weak side of him. So he tried to not cry and say something but his body betrayed him. Instead of words only broken sob left his mouth and before he knew it, the tears started to roll down his face. He tried to cover his face but it was too late and the members saw it. And surprisingly no one said anything. Chenle expected at least one of them to attack him but they stayed quiet and just watched him. After a few seconds of watching the suffering boy, someone finally woke up from the trans. And it was Jisung.

"Hey, Chenle-ya, why are you crying? What happened? Talk to me, I am your best friend, you know, you can tell me everything."

And Chenle? He couldn't take it anymore, so he started.

"R-really? A-a-am I really y-your best friend? Are you sure about it? D-do you think that friendships work the way our friendship works the last few weeks?"

"What do you mean, Chenle? Stop blaming Jisung here. If you weren't just a clingy brat, who always has to bother someone, maybe Jisung would pay more attention to you." Of course that Jeno had to defend Jisung, because why not? Why not hurt poor Chenle even more.

"Really Chenle, what is your problem? We didn't do anything to you, so stop crying here like a baby when we did nothing to you." Now it was Mark's turn to add another salt into the wound. Renjun and Jaemin were just nodding at the words from the others. Chenle just continued to cry because he wasn't able to say anything. Before anyone could say something more, angrily looking Donghyuck ran into the dining room.

"Enough, you insensitive bitches. What the hell do you think you are doing? This poor baby here is literally broken right in front of you. Something is obviously happening to him and all you have are some insults? Didn't you recognize how his behaviour suddenly changed? How he isn't sleeping properly? How he rather doesn't eat than sit at the one table with us? You really think this is normal? He even made an excuse to leave to his house to visit Daegal, about whom we all know that she is in China. He always stays at the practices longer so he doesn't have to be with us, because he is afraid that someone will start to insult him and talk shits to him again. Your fucking words broke him so much. Is it really that hard to accept someone's affection, when that one obviously needs it? Do you realize that even happy balls who Chenle used to be can have problems and need someone to lean on? Everything isn't just about you. And poor Chenle thinks the exact opposite. He does everything to make you happy and satisfied. He is the most pure human being among us and you did what? Ruined him. And I am so sick of it. I hoped he would come to me and tell me what was wrong but I had to find out on my own, which shows even more how broken he actually is. Him and I are gonna take a few days off until you douchebags realize what you did to him. And you better come with a good excuse for the manager why we aren't gonna be present or else I'm gonna stab each of you."

Hyuck picked the poor boy from the floor and brought him to his room to pick his favourite things before leaving to the 127 dorm where Chenle would get all the missing affection which he needed the most right now. When they reached the dorm, they fell into bed immediately and Hyuck just hugged the boy and let him sleep. After a few minutes a soft knock could be heard and then a worryingly looking Taeyong came in.

"Hyuckie, hi, you didn't even greet us. How are you? And what happened that you are here and even with Chenle? Why does he look like he just cried?"

"Hello, hyung, I am sorry for not coming to you first but he just needed to sleep, so I didn't want to lose any minute. We had a small fight with the dreamies and Chenle needs to rest from them for a while. So that's why we are here and why he looks like he just cried."

"You won't tell me what the fight was about, will you?"

"I think this is up to this sweetie to tell you the whole thing. Now just let him sleep."

"As you say, Hyuckie, I'm gonna trust you. Is there anything I could do for you?"

And Hyuck knew exactly what Taeyong could do. "Please, just come here to the bed and spoon him from the other side. He is gonna be so happy when he wakes up." Such an invitation didn't need any decision making, so Taeyong just hopped in and with a soft kiss on Chenle's forehead he let the calm atmosphere wrapped him in.

When Chenle started to wake up, he was feeling warm. So warm. He almost forgot how amazing this feeling could be. And when he opened his eyes and saw not just Hyuck but also Taeyong, tears of happiness appeared in his eyes.

"Good morning, baby. How did you sleep?"

"Very well, Taeyong, hyung. You and Hyuckie hyung are so warm. I feel so comfortable."

Taeyong just chuckled and decided to snuggle even closer to the boy. That caused Chenle to laugh because it tickled him a bit. His laugh woke Hyuck up and Hyuck was beyond happy because Chenle's laugh was something he missed so much.

After a few days when Chenle was getting much better, because of his beloved 127 hyungs, a sudden ring resonated through the dorm. Chenle was all alone, because Hyuck went to the store along with Taeyong and Johnny and Doyoung left to the other floor to visit Jungwoo, so he went to open the door. He thought that maybe the boys came back from the store and just forgot the keys, so he didn't even check and opened the door with a wide smile.

"Hello, hyungs. Did you get me the kimchi ram-" He stopped, when he realized that Hyuck, Tae and Johnny were not the ones who ringed. It was Dreamies.

His smile dropped and he automatically looked into the floor.

"Good afternoon, Jisung and hyungs." Chenle bowed and waited for some answer. But nothing came, just silence.

"Uhm, hyungs aren't at the dorm right now. But if you need Doyoungie hyung, he is on the 10th floor." Chenle decided to speak when the silence started to take too long.

After another few seconds of stillness someone finally spoke. And it was Mark.

"We don't need any of the hyungs here. We wanted to speak to you." Chenle was very surprised. How is he gonna survive a conversation with them without Hyuck being beside him? He will probably break down again and it would-

"If it is okay with you, of course. We would understand if you wouldn't want to." His anxious thoughts were interrupted by Renjun who at least a bit calmed Chenle down, because he didn't sound offensive. So he let them in.

After they all sat down, another wave of silence came. Chenle couldn't stand it, so he started to speak again.

"How are you doing, guys? Are you all healthy and do you eat properly? Do you get enough sleep?" He knew that they were probably gonna shout at him for his blabbing, but he was very nervous and couldn't help himself.

"We are fine and yes, we do, thanks for caring. But we came here for a different reason. We realized that we maybe fucked up, so we wanted to apologize."

Chenle wasn't even surprised when his heart dropped again. He hoped, when he saw them at the door, that they were going to apologize or something and that everything could go normal, but after hearing this sentence which was supposed to be the apology, he lost all his hopes.

"Well, thank you for apologizing." He expected them to say something more, but they just sat and didn't do anything.

"Is this all you can say to us? Don't you think, you could maybe forgive us? We just apologized." Chenle wanted to laugh. He couldn't believe that they really thought that simple 'we maybe fucked up, so we came to apologize' is enough to solve the whole situation. He finally realized thanks to the 127 team, that he wasn't wrong at all. That Dreamies were the ones. So he found a strength in him and he finally stood up for himself.

"You know what? No, I don't have anything else to say to you. If you really think that apologies work this way, then I have to tell you, they don't. The whole time I thought, I did something wrong. That I deserved your cold shoulders towards me, your not very nice words, I thought that my way of showing my love to you is wrong. Because you literally yelled at me because of that. But then I see Jaemin clinging to all of you the same way I used to do that, the same goes with Hyuckie hyung. Or even Jeno clinging to Mark or Renjun to Jisung. And I see what? I see you all are completely fine with that but hah! Chenle, don't you dare to do that or else we are gonna treat you like a shit. You absolutely ignored how I changed. How I did worse at the practices, how I didn't sleep properly, how I tried to avoid you as much as possible. I thought we were like a family. If we had a problem we'd just talk about it and everything would be fine. But no, instead of that you behaved like I didn't exist and absolutely broke me. I really can't imagine how I would be right now, if Hyuck didn't notice, because I wouldn't be able to find the courage to tell anyone anything. Because the whole time I thought I was the problem. But not now, not anymore. You are the problem. For some reason you decided to be this harsh to me and I have no idea why. I did nothing wrong. And I have enough of your behaviour towards me. So if you really hate me that much, I am ready to leave the Dream team. Even though I love this job and I love all of you even after all of this, I think my mental health and well being is more important, because I am not able to dissemble anymore. So yeah. This is it. This is all I have to say to you. Not a forgiveness, just a confession. Now I think it is time for you to leave." 

He didn't realize he started to cry, but he didn't care anymore. He was still looking into the floor and after hearing nothing more than just silence, he finally looked up, thinking the members left. But he was met with another picture. The Dream members were all sitting with tears in their eyes and he saw Hyuck, Tae and Johnny standing at the door of the room with the tears in their eyes as well.

Before he knew it, Jisung ran to him and squeezed him as much as possible and started to cry even more.

"Hyung, you don't mean it. You can't leave us. We don't hate you. I swear, we are just stupid. I am so so so sorry for treating you like a shit. I will never forgive myself for letting this go so far. I am the worst friend ever and I don't deserve your love at all. I was just stressed and tired all the time and your bright aura always irritated me, cause I thought you didn't feel all the exhaustion I did and I was so jealous, so I thought being harsh to you would make me feel better, but it did the exact opposite and I hurted you this much. Please, Chenle, I love you so much, don't leave us. I will do anything to make you stay. Just please, don't ever say something like that again. Take as much time as you need, but please, don't leave us."

Chenle felt overwhelmed and after hearing this speech, he hugged Jisung back. After a few seconds he felt more arms hugging him.

"Jisungie is right. We are so incredibly sorry, baby. We were so selfish. I don't even realize why I was like that towards you. Nothing racional comes to my mind, I am just a stupid douchebag as Hyuck called us. We don't hate you. Not at all. We all love you unconditionally but for some reason it was easier to behave like this to you than being nice. We all let our stress at you and we didn't want to realize until you finally said what you felt. Hyuckie was right, you are so loving towards us, the most pure human being, taking care of us even though we were hurting you, doing everything to make us happy and we don't deserve you at all. Please, could you forgive us? Take your time but please, don't leave us. It would damage us. Just the thought of it breaks my heart because I cannot imagine losing my favourite dongsaeng."

Mark's words made Chenle warm from the inside but he wasn't able to say anything. He just cried even more and that made the boys hugging him even tighter. All of them were whispering their apologies to him and all of their clothes were soaking wet from their tears.

After a few minutes of this Taeyong decided to step in.

"Okay, guys, I think it's enough. We should stop crying now. What about we order some food and desserts? And watch some comedy? If we continue to cry, the room will become a lake." That made the boys giggle a bit and they all agreed.

After they decided what to order, they all squeezed themselves on the couch, with Chenle in the middle. Mark sat him onto his lap and Jeno and Jisung snuggled to him from the sides.

While watching the movie, Jeno whispered into Chenle's ear.

"Hun, I am so sorry again. We really love you so much and I am really thankful that you made us realize the mistake. You are literally one of the best people on the planet and you have no idea how lucky I am to have you in my life. I promise you that we will never ever treat you like this again. I know you probably won't believe me but I will try my best to make you trust me again."

Chenle only smiled at Jeno and gave him a cheek kiss which made Jeno extremely happy and he giggled. All of the boys looked at them with a questioning look and Jeno happily announced to them that he got a kiss from Lele. That made Chenle shy but after hearing them being jealous of Jeno, he threw away his shyness and gave each a kiss on their cheeks. The whole room was filled with a happy and loving aura and Chenle finally didn't feel his heart hurting. Instead he felt it full of love and he was beyond happy that everything is fine again.

Maybe there are gonna be some awkward moments between them until everything will come back to normal but Chenle was convinced it'll disappear soon. In the end he loved his members unconditionally and after today he believed his members did love him too.