I found these entries in her journal in the middle of the journal.. she had multiple made.. this one is for Shadow_Ice_King ..

Dear Big Brother..
I love you. You are the best! You are like the best big brother that I've always wanted. You were always there for me. Through my nightmares.. hard times I've had these past months I've known you.. you were always there for me. That's what I wish I had.. a big brother like you.. one that is caring and kind like you.. some people might not think you are but you have a soft spot like everyone. Actually you have more then one but most people can't see it.. I wish I could open everyone's eyes for you that shows you are extremely caring.. I always wanted an older brother.. you filled that role..
Love, Natalie

P.S.. I'm sorry.. I'm sorry for doing some unforgivable things.. I betrayed your trust by doing things to hurt people and make them suffer.. like.. I almost killed a girl! What kind of person does that.. I hope you'll forgive me.. I love you big brother..