8:35 PM

Mom said: "Never stop questioning. It's gonna lead you to the key you need."

And it has become one of my favourite quotes since then. Cuz only by raising questions can you get to the root of the prob. And only by getting to the root of the prob can you come up with a solution.

Questions of yesterday: "What is mood? And how to deal with it?".

Firstly, what is mood?

- I don't know =)))

- In general, "mood" is a word with the same meaning with "feelings", somehow. Good feelings, good mood, bad feelings, bad mood. 

Unfortunately in here, it doesn't seem to be considered that way. "Mood" does not go with "good" or "bad". It goes with "have", or "lose". Wow you have mood, you nail the challenge. Oh no you lose mood, you sit there and wait, wait til it comes back again. And there is a fact that "good mood" is not always advantageous, and "bad mood" is not often a terrible sign. 

After more than 18 days, I finally came to a conclusion. The "right" mood is neither sorrow nor joy. It's changable... "Right" is not stably good or bad, not high or low, not happy or sad, not thrilled or bored. If I only have one word to describe, then maybe I'll use... "suitable". Make it suit, and you win. 

But "how to make?", well now it's a complicated task.

Still writing a same story. Today it's joy that brings you inspiration, but sometimes tomorrow it must be sorrow that you need. You cannot foresee it. Only after actually getting started may you figure out, that's the only way. How nice, mood huh? Like a lady =)) Unpredictable.

Secondly, then how to deal with mood?

- I don't know either =)))

- Some days I got into position, turned on the laptop, and then, just kept typing, nonstop. Some days I felt so so ready to begin, then found myself stuck in front of a blank Word page. That's why when suddenly mood comes, I even don't dare to sleep. Cuz when I wake up in the next morning, last night's inspiration usually has the tendency to disappear entirely. Like a dream, you never remember how it was. So so sad T^T

- There are 30 days to finish Nano, and I lost 7 on exams... T^T so from now til the end of the month, my daily target will not be 1667 as in the first place anymore, it's 2500. Which means, once I lose mood, I will have to pay a really high price for it. Now it becomes a real challenge.

I complaint with a friend, and got a quite nice advice. "This is a challenge, as you can see. And what would a challenge do? You know, pushing you to the edge. It's not about simply learning new things, it's not about trying whether you can write or not. A challenge, is meant to test your ability, then break your limit. And if you don't feel like you are going to explode, then you've missed all the fun." Not so consolable, but I feel crazy for those words, they are so right, and so insprired =))

And... I started to try some new methods to find mood back when it flies away so far.

For example, listening to music. Gallen's surprisingly works. And if you're reading this, just wanna say thank you very much, ChieuKhang, sincerely :33

For another example, reading. Murder on the Orient Express, in English... =))) just like another challenge =))) even crazier than Harry Potter... Not much, 1 or 2 pages, and try to come back. Why "try"? =)) Cuz this is a kinda dangerous solution. Once you're into the story, you have no way back =))) Usually I stayed with the book longer than expectation... And when I get back, that novel kept wandering in my mind, highly distracted ._. So, basically, an interesting way to entertain, but not a wise choice for searching "mood".

And... Okazaki fragments =)) Like this. Type something, anything. Get the "feeling of writing". Get used to expressing ideas, turning them into sentences. Then things will operate more smoothly.

Last but not least, try raising some questions. Sometimes, even try... acting =))) Put yourself in the case, "fall into" it, be the character, and your only job is to note down your own situation. 

Or... keep asking, how, what, when, why, who =))) answer them, and while doing so, draw out a vision. 

Only think about the script and the scenes when your plot has already been ready. Or else, you'll get lost in that maze... and failure can be foreseen... 

- After all, towards me now, "mood"... can be imagined like a train. A train of thoughts. It always runs, but you are not always in it. Your characters are there, your ideas are there, your inspiration is there. Get on it, and you complete 50% of the mission, huray =))) 

The beginning is always severe, jumping into a running train......... Such a brilliant way to die ;) But after getting through, congratzzzzz, you are half a champion now woohoo =)))

Okazaki ends.

2:30 AM

20/11/2017 =)))

Two hours late... as usual =)))

5500 typed, 4000 counted... 

1500 erased T^T ah ah such such a newbie T^T extremely unwilling... But~~ at least I'm satisfieddddd =)))

Changed the project now... No more ideas with the old one, stuck stuck stuck~~

Winter is coming~~ falling in love with the weather againnn ^.^ though it may lead to a lot of health probs =)))

And... Murder on the Orient Express is coming soon in the cinema, with Johny Depp... Johny Depp :| Johny Depp :| :| :| and I still haven't finished the book yet :| :| :| urrrghhh kill meeee OMG OMG OMG!!!

Wish I had updated the news about the actors of the movie before T^T 

"Life is a maze... and "this" is a riddle... I don't know where to go..."

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19/11 ends hereee =))