The day before Yukino and I leave, Levy throws us a goodbye party. It takes place in our apartment and over fifty people decide to come. I'm not a huge party person as many of my friends know, but because it's a goodbye party, I decide to accept the idea.

Besides, Yukino really wanted one and I didn't want to ruin her last by saying no. So I smiled and said yes when Levy asked us.

The apartment is full of music and dancing. Levy even set up a karaoke stand, and mostly everyone chips in and sings. I was really surprised and excited when Erza and Mira show up. It turns out they decided to come on a road trip all the way from Crocus just to surprise Yuki and I.

"You guys came!" I squeal and give them a huge hug.

"We didn't want you to leave without saying goodbye." They both smile and hug me back.

"I'm glad you guys came." I laugh happily, sincere in my voice. "I'm glad I get to see you two before I leave." We continue to talk a little and they tell me all about their experience in Crocus university.

"Lucy!" I feel Cana's arm around my shoulder. "I want you to sing karaoke!" She's swaying a little, a bottle of beer in her hand. "Come on! Everyone wants you too!" She motions around her, but everyone seems busy talking and such. It's just her drunkenness, making her see and hear things.

"Uh...maybe later, Cana." I hold her arm and help her sit on the couch. "I think you need to rest a little." I try to hold my laugh, but she looks so silly being drunk and all.

"Please!" She begs while pouting. "I want you to sing. I promise I won't make you sing anything else."

"I guess I don't have a choice..." I sigh, while rubbing my forehead. It's not that I don't like to sing, it's just that Cana always begs me to.

"Come on, Lu-chan." Levy pushes me foreword. "It's your last night here. Live a little, have fun!" She gives me a sly smile and smirks. "We promise not to make fun of your singing." Everyone just laughs and I give her a glare.

"What are you talking about? Lucy has a beautiful voice!" Cana slurs, slumping against me. "Don't you?" She giggles and pokes my face.

"I'm just teasing." Levy winks.

"Oh..." Cana nods, finally understanding.

After a few minutes of my friends constant bugging, I give in and walk to the middle of the living room. Mira starts the music while smiling and I take a deep breath before singing. I close my eyes and imagine as if I'm singing to him before I begin...

Song: ❤️ Wish You Were Here ❤️

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I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, it's not like that at all

There's a girl
That gives a shit
Behind this wall
You've just walked through it

And I remember, all those crazy things you said

Memories from that summer long ago went through my mind. I remember when we first met, when I bumped into him on the way to the bathroom. And his intimidating smile that always made my heart melt.

Our first kiss and the way he held me. The moments we shared...the night when I gave myself to him and how he whispered he loved me.

But it really was a lie, wasn't it?

But the truth is...I miss him...so damn much and it hurts...more than anyone can know...

Damn, damn, damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here

I couldn't stop the tears as I sang when all those memories flooded into my head. But I held myself and channeled all my emotions into the song.

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say it like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, oh, oh
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you to know
That I never wanna let go
(let go let go let go let go let go let go let go)

Damn, damn, damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here (i wish you were)
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here

Everyone claps when I finish, but I barely smile. I can still feel the tears on my face and try to wipe them fast with my sleeve. I don't want them to worry about me right now. I won't ruin this special night for Yuki.

Soon enough, my mind thinks back to the time I came home and suffered for a whole year with my heartbreak...

~Flashback~

I don't remember much from the drive but I do remember my parents coming to pick us up from the bus station. My mom looked at me with worry, while my dad took me in his arms and gently placed me in the car.

I could hear my parents speaking in the front, sounding worried because of my sudden return. But my mind was barely conscious. All I remember is them talking quietly and Levy comforting me in the back.

When we arrived back home, I was still in a haze. My parents didn't ask about my abrupt return or why I didn't tell them the reason. Instead, they took my depressed mood as a sign of homesickness.

It took me months to come back to myself. Levy came to visit me mostly every day during the rest of the summer. But although I had my family and best friend by my side, nothing could help the pain I held.

Soon enough summer ended and the new school year started. The whole year went like a haze, I barely talked, my grades went down. My parents became overly concerned when I hit horrible depression. Nothing could bring me out from my sorrowful mind.

So as a result, they decided to enroll me in therapy. At first it didn't help at all. All I wanted was to be left alone and hide from the world. But my parents persisted it would help me. So I had no choice but to comply to they're request.

Slowly I moved out of my depression. By the time spring came around and summer was coming, I was myself once again. But I stayed away from boys and promised myself I would never fall in love ever again.

That summer that seemed so long ago was tucked away—deep in my heart. The memories I held with him were fading slowly away and I forced myself to keep it that way.

The harsh words he said to me the night I left, lingered in my mind. But I kept myself busy, trying to move on the best I can. I even quit the soccer team, knowing it would remind me of him.

One year later, I was my old self again. I improved my grades, went out with my friends and started smiling once again.

High school went by fast and soon enough I was a student at Clover University of Arts. I studied Journalism and Creative Writing, while minoring in Art. Levy went to Magnolia University where she studied English and Creative Writing. She lives with her boyfriend, Gajeel and we visit each other from time to time.

When I saw him on tv that day at work, it brought back painful memories and now I'm unable to get him out of my mind...

~Flashback ends~

-♾-

The next morning after cleaning the house from the night before, mom comes over to take us to the airport. The drive almost takes two hours and I can tell Yukino can't hold her excitement.

We finally arrive and after placing our suitcases in the check in, we walk to security.

"Remember to call once you arrive." Mom tells me while we wait in line. Levy and Yukino are chatting a little distance away, giving us a little space. "And tell me when you find a place and are settled in."

"Don't worry, mom. I will." I promise her, giving her a long hug, while patting her back. I brace myself knowing what's going to happen any second now. Sure enough, mom bursts into tears a second later.

"My baby girl is all grown up." She sobs. "I'm going to miss you so much." She doesn't let me go and holds me tightly. Damn, she's much more emotional than I am and I'm the one that's traveling to a different country.

"I'll try to call you every day, ok?" I promise.

"You better!" She smiles and finally lets me go. "Dad and I want to know every juicy detail." She gives me a wink. "Mostly about boys."

I roll my eyes. "You know that's not happening."

Mom sighs. "Sweetheart, you can't hide away from men your whole life. Someday you will meet someone and settle down." She gives me a reassuring smile. "And don't even think of arguing." She chastises me. "Five years from now, I expect grand babies."

"Like that'll happen." I grimace at the thought. As I promised myself before, I will not fall in love ever again. Nope, nope, nope.

"We'll see about that." Mom pats my shoulder.

After saying goodbye to Levy and giving mom one last hug, Yukino and I go to the security. I take a deep breath once we reach our gate and sit down in the waiting area. It's going to be a long flight and long year.

"Ladies and gentlemen, Flight to Paris will be boarding soon." The voice through the speaker says, waking me up from my nice long nap. I sit up groggily and look at Yukino beside me.

"Ready?" She asks.

"Ready as I'll ever be." I give her a smile and stand up from my seat, picking both my bags up.

Well this is it.

You can do this Lucy.

We both board the plane and thinking that I will leave everything behind, mostly him, I give a content sigh. It's going to be a new year, with new people, except Yuki of course, and a new place.

I'm finally starting over again and nothing can change that.

Little did I know...

Someone from my past will creep back into my life. Changing my life...

Forever...

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Bye for now, my Angels!

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Word count: 1916
Date Published: December 21, 2019