I started Google+ more almost a year ago.Maybe even more-I hardly remember.It certainly was way before Wattpad.

Of course after finding Tumblr and Wattpad,I rarely used it.Probably the reason why I only have 172 followers.Right about the time I lost interest in Glee,I had taken a break from it.

Many things had happened there and it was also a reason to fight with a friend of mine.

Anyways,when I joined the Panic! At the disco fandom,I also joined a community there.It seemed like a fun thing to do.

Maybe I could meet new people.

I later joined a more extended emo-though I personally wouldn't be called an emo-community.Purely because it had special categories for bands such as P!atd,Fob,MCR,TØP and solo artists like Melanie Martinez and Halsey.

I think I liked many posts that a girl posted so she decided to follow me.I,like always,followed her back.

Remember a little earlier when I said that I wouldn't identify myself as an emo?

Well,she did.Quite a lot actually.But even though she would post 'depressing' things I still liked her posts.They were mainly band things,tumblr,zodiacs and some Reshare if.

I really liked them.

Then something happened.I think school started and I stopped logging in to Google+ except from when I would have a notification for the P!atd community.

Usually her posts were the first thing on my dash.

It was quite convenient.

I commented a lot,she would like it and comment back.Seemed like a social person-at least when it came to her followers.All of her posts were private so I suppose she only liked to talk to people like her.

I believed it would be best if I didn't mention how different I saw the world.And of course I shouldn't try the whole "Be more optimistic" thing.

(She was really against these kind of people)

I lost track of her out of the sudden.

I followed too many people and didn't really pay that much attention to actually google her name and find her posts.

I can't even remember how long that was.

I opened up the page of the community this morning.I saw a post pinned-usually these are the serious ones-which had a screenshot of a talk.

"Hey,you know that (I don't feel comfortable using her username)?"

"Yeah what about her?"the person who posted was asking.

"She killed herself"

And of course who were we to actually believe this.But there were indeed some people who had links to some previous posts of her-which she had posted during my break on the site-about self harming and how she almost did it.Some others-including myself-went to her page only to find it was deleted.

Everyone said the same-some even had screenshots of their talks and how she actually wanted to kill herself.

So...

Yeah...

That happened.

I dunno how to feel.This is just really sad,you know?We follow these people,we think we know them at least to just a certain extent and one day we realise that we know nothing.

We all lose followers everyday.

Do we ever really know what happened,though?

Did they just decided to unfollow us because they no longer liked our posts?

Or maybe it's something else.

Like when I first joined Wattpad there was this amazing person @Shuckiest_shuck who also happened to be my first Newtmas follower.She was an amazing writer that everyone adored-I had made my best comments on her fanfics-and she suddenly disappeared.

Maybe she quitted.

But what if she didn't?What if it was something else?How can we know?How much do you know your followers?

I don't want something like that to happen to me :-(

Please,if anyone is having any short of problems-I do not care how small they are-please please talk to me.

And tell your followers to do the same and talk to someone.