2 days people

2 days left!!!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I'm honestly more excited about my nameday than my birthday.My birthday are always crap because my friends aren't here and my entire family forgets it.

But when it is my nameday everyone knows!My friends are here!My family calls to wish me well!!!

It's better than my birthday,that's a fact :-)

Now let me just make a side note before moving on to Writing Crisis,to ask if the Writers' Project is going well.

I already know that some people have done their reviews-including myself-but how is everyone else doing?

Back to my Writing Crisis

I'm stuck.

I'm really stuck.

I know exactly where I want to go with I Never Meant For You To Fix Yourself but I kinda don't.

And then I asked myself why do I even write?

I need a solid reason to write something not because I liked the idea...2 out of 3 times this didn't work.

(Example;

Love is a Weakness

And

OTP Academy

With the exception being The Numbers)

So I began analysing...interesting info for the future,I tend to overanalyse everything.

Starting with*drumrolls*

RIP SERIES;

•My way of dealing with dead characters
•I wanted to write a better future for my faves
•Racism and self-loving

Everyone:Wait,come again?

You did see that coming,right?

Starting with me wanting to explore the nature of Dark Angels and how they aren't really bad.In reality every secret agent has sinned(killed)so they can't be Guardian Angels.

However,if they were sinners,they would be either boiling in Hell or become demons.

Grant is a Dark Angel for a specific reason in contrast to first thoughts.

As for the racism part,it is again pretty obvious.We have Guardian Angels,who are the upper class,respected,loved and literal angels.They are the good guys and saints.

The Dark Angels aren't-like forementioned-bad.However, according to the Guardians who spread rumors they are similar and worse than demons.Things are so bad that even the Dark Angels,themselves, doubt whether they are truly different from the Demons the others describe them to be.

Finally,the Fallen Angels who are both and neither of these categories.They are the minority who doesn't belong.Disliked by the Dark Angels for no apparent reason and hated by the Guardians because they,too,are considered to be demons and outcasts.

So yes,this little fic you were reading just because you ship Newtmas,Faberry or Skyeward or just because you wanted to see your faves alive is in reality a big metaphor.

You're welcome :-)

Okay this is fun to write so I'm going to continue with

My Dearly Beloved;

Nevermind,I really don't know why I began this.It sort of happened :-)

Writers of Sins|Music Industry au;

•Again,my favourite problematic trio
•Empire influence
•Wanted an excuse to put more Panic! songs
•London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines

I adore this song because of its meaning.Yes,every song Ryan wrote has a deep meaning,but this is actually mind blowing.

Among all the other things I wanted to explore the music industry.I wanted to write fluff and all but with a hint of reality.

I wanted to write about three damn people who were saved by the music and who eventually found each other.I wanted to write about three people who decide to start a band and try to make it big.I wanted to make everyone think of how unlikely is to be discovered by two people working in one of the biggest music company of America.But I also wanted to tear that belief and actually show that even after you're discovered things can go wrong.

I wanted to write about three people who would have to choose between fame and music.About three people choosing between fame and friendship.

So I did.

And it's gonna be big!

Crybaby Does Not Panic;

I wanted to write something creepy and messed up.After the big hit that was The Numbers,I decided to explore Thrillers a bit more.Only the villains I dealt with in this book weren't that way because of luck.

These are just plain psychopaths.

Tumblr Otp Prompts;

Honestly,I write what I feel.This was a way of having my writing ranging.Sometimes I'm mad and I want to write angst,others I listen to a sweet song and want to write fluff.

It's like an anti-stress ball,really.

Trade Mistakes;

This is my attemp to make everyone cry(probably won't work).

I actually did this with no reason,I just sat there and had this idea which I thought would be fun.

The Rising;

Don't get me starting.

You already know the story of how I decided to write my first fanfic and how awful things were when I was younger(including my attemps of vomitting,marks on my hands and the stop-eating incident)

What not many people know though is that for someone who was and is a Disney fan...I never liked the princesses.

I loved the sidekicks,and even the protagonists if they were the guy(like Alladin)but the princesses I just didn't like.

After some time I realised why...

They were perfect!

Like awfully perfect.Always caring about their family and putting everyone else before them,never tempted by the dark,brave and with perfect hair.

Even if somehow they went dark,something would happen to sent them straight.

It's not that I'm not a fan of redemtion.

(Bitch please,I'm a Ward Warrior)

I just didn't like it that way.

I wanted a princess who didn't want-who didn't need-redemption.

A princess who is strong and indepented but not like Mulan who was 100% fearless.

A princess who would break down and think that it's over.

A princess who sometimes would hate and doubt herself.

A princess who could stick for herself.

A princess who chose the dark because she doesn't want to live up to the perfect expectations people expected her.

A princess who makes mistakes.

A fucking princess who cares more about those she loves and herself than the greater good.

A realistic princess.

Let's face it people,you all might admire the other kind of princesses,or girls like Hermione Granger and Katniss Everdeen and think that you can be like them but in reality...

You're probably Bella Swan :-/

I mean that's not bad but don't tell me you could actually survive the Hunger Games or fight Death Eaters.

So yes I always wanted a princess with who I can actually relate to than the perfect role model the world built.

As a result,once the Rising had turned into more than just a Jelsa fanfic and I  needed a main character I put my thoughts into practise.

I told myself that people weren't going to read my story.

(Most people avoid stories with many original characters-expect if it's because of a pair with an actual fictional character)

But you'll continue writing it.

You'll continue in order to write the character you always wanted.

You'll write a girl who breaks down.

A girl who takes over the world.

A girl who doesn't want to be the hero so she becomes the villain.

A girl who sometimes rathers giving up than fighting.

A girl who does not believe in 'there's good in everyone' and if you hurt her she will hurt you back

A girl who is imperfect but doesn't care

Wow...this is already 100 words...

Anywho,finally moving on to the Tag.I was Tagged in Tumblr but honestly I rather do it here :-)

This Tag is kinda big so Imma split it to 4 parts XD

Fandom Questions

1)What was the first fandom you got involved in?

Frozen

2)What is your latest fandom?

The Phandom

3)What is the best fandom you've ever been involved in?

Obviously the TMR fandom.It's this magical place full of talented people with no drama.

4)Do you regret getting involved in any fandoms?

Honestly?I regret ever getting involved with *most* Aos fans.Most of them happen to be Anti-Ward stans and I feel as if my braincells die in every conversation I have with them.Plus the writers and most actors are awful human beings.

5)Which fandoms have you written fanfiction for?

Um,Glee(obviously),The Maze Runner,Marvel,Frozen,Harry Potter,ROTG,HIMYM,Criminal Minds.

6)List your OTP from each fandom you've been involved in

Yeah this will take forever so I'll just name the top 10

Glee:Faberry

TMR:Newtmas

HP:Dramione

Aos:Skyeward

Phandom:Phan

HIMYM:Swarkles

Criminal Minds:Jeid

Frozen/ROTG:Jelsa

Marvel(in general):Clintasha

The Vampire Diaries:Bamon

7)List your NOTPs from each fandom you've ever been involved in

(Same)

Glee:Finchel

TMR:Trenda

HP:Romione

Aos:Staticquake

DC(because why not?):Harley x Ivy

HIMYM:Ted x Robin

Criminal Minds:Emily x Spencer

Frozen:Helsa

Marvel(in general):Brutasha

The Vampire Diaries:Dullen--I mean Delena

8)How did you get involved in your latest fandom?

"Everybody is watching Dan and Phil,maybe I should check it out*scrolls through the videos*Phil is not on fire?Sounds good"

9)What are the best things about your current phandom?

Everyone are either talented af or kinky af

10)Is there a fandom from which you read fics but don't write?

The phandom XD

See you next time guys :-)

(I'll tag later)