11.11.16

Fictional character most resembling your personality (films, books, real/WP, TV, etc.)

Okay, I did this on Instagram awhile back, which made this an easy task.

Hands down and beyond a reasonable doubt, I am...

Fox Mulder from The X-files

Never has there been a more accurate representation of ME.

He's opinionated and headstrong and 100% unsure of anything - except the fact that he wants to believe in a world bigger than the one staring him in the face. He feels everything. His bouts of depression and self-doubt I can understand. I get his loyalty. Or lack thereof if someone has pushed him too far. And I relate strongly to his perseverance toward uncovering the Truth. Plus, his case reports read like a frakking novel. I wish I could speak half as poetically as Fox Mulder.

Oh, and he's usually right. About everything. (Or he thinks he is anyway.) And he can sometimes be a bulldozing-asshole once he gets his teeth into something he's convicted about. To quote Ben Wyatt, "Sometimes when we disagree you're so passionate, I feel like I'm arguing with the sun."

Double 'Oh,' we both love Elvis.

But that was just TV me. Ha. I tricked you. Film me is divided between the two characters in the Before Sunrise trilogy.

I am...

Jesse

He's creative. And riddled with residual negativity leftover from childhood and past hurts. He tries to understand human beings by seeing beauty in the differences of their daily, mundane lives. He will defend his beliefs, whatever they are, even if he's open to listening to the opinion of others. He also becomes a published author as the movies progress, which is cool.

I am not, however, as skeptical of the spiritual as he is. Although, he is searching to make sense of it all. The man is #showerthoughts incarnate.

Which leads me to my other soul-half in these movies...

Celine

Her want to be an independent, feminist woman, and yet needing constant validation, puts her at odds with her thoughts and emotions. I understand that wholeheartedly. Her pent-up frustration toward everything - especially men - and her tendency toward passive aggression, I get that too. (Once, she wrote a fictitious short story about a woman murdering her ex-boyfriend, that was so detailed, her therapist called the police. Hello! *raises hand* That would, unfortunately, happen to me.)

She's also terrified of dying. And tends to romanticize death and pain. Her strongest childhood memory is of visiting a graveyard for unknown suicide victims while on a family vacation.

I wish I had a book me. But I legit (*wink**wink* MelodyHall) can't think of a single book character I've ever related to completely. But if I had to choose one that I've read recently, it'd be...

Mary Yellan from Jamaica Inn by Daphne Du Maurier

She sees how men treat women, and the shameful way people treat each other in general, and she stands up to it. She feels obligated to speak out for those (a.k.a. her abused Aunt) who can't fight for themselves. Oh, she's scared out of her flipping mind, but she still goes forward, in spite of the fear, and does her darndest to bring peace and justice to a corner of the world that is hers. She doesn't understand the fanciful idea of love at all. It's an equal meeting of strength and passion that she's after. And she's headstrong and independent enough, that she doesn't let her feelings for a man get in the way of her number one goal: affecting change for the better.

The more I think about it, Mary Yellan isn't so much me now, as she is the me I wish I could be.

Robyn out.