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Deku's Point of View

The ride back to my apartment was long and awkward. Kacchan insisted on coming with me in case there was villains there. After all, I used to be the Symbol of this Peace.

"So, about what happened earlier. I'm sorry." Kacchan apologized as he avoided eye contact.

"It's alright. I just need to find another job." I nodded at him and talked in a calm manner. Thinking about what happened only moments ago.

"Why can't we be friends?" Kacchan asked now looking at me with an unreadable face.

"I don't think so." Checking dryly, I met his gaze.

"Why's that?" Kacchan pressed with a puzzled face.

"I learned, if you can be friends with your ex, it either means you still love them, or you never did." Taking a deep breath I spoke unable to look his way.

"I see." Kacchan nodded to show he understood.

"And, well I can't admit to myself you never loved me," I spoke with a bit of regret as soon as it was out.

"What did you just say?" Kacchan asked with a hint of anger in his voice.

"You heard me," I growled this giving him a glare.

"How could you think that, Deku? After everything we've been through?" Kacchan asked as he got up and sat next to me.

"Well after everything we have been through, how could I not?" I asked while getting up. I was at my stop.

I got off and started the walk to my apartment. I couldn't tell if Kacchan followed me. Since I didn't see him so I just continued the walk without worry. Then when I got to my place and unlocked the door, I felt myself being pushed inside. Great.

"Just so you know, I loved you the whole time we were together! Start to finish, understand!" Kacchan yelled at me as he pushed me onto my couch.

"Then why did you leave?" My voice raised as I got up, and pushed a finger to his chest.

"I left because I made you cry! Damn it! You deserved better Deku! Is that what you wanted to fucking hear?" Kacchan yelled as he pushed my hand away.

"Look, I'm different now. All I know is I need a therapist, so can you please come work for me?" Kacchan pleaded once he was calm.

"Okay. But one condition." If I'm working for him I need to make one thing clear. Of course, as I gave into him, something that once was a habit.

"Name it." Kacchan sounded hopeful once he heard me agree.

"If you ever hit me with a book again, I will use my quirk on you." My voice deepened and my eyes turned dark as I sat on my lounge chair, opposite of Kacchan.

"Deal." He nodded before he got up get up and grab his coat and leave.

"Bye nerd," Kacchan called to me as he slowly walked out.

"Bye Kacchan." I waved as I locked the door behind him.

Later in the night, it was all over the news that Jumbazile was now ineffective. Every villain was considered dangerous. Quirk use was still banned until further notice. Heroes would not be supported by the government. All cases of using your quirk to be a hero was considered a federal crime now.

I turned off the tv because it was making me upset. So I hopped in the shower to loosen up. Two years ago, Kacchan and I decided to eat out at a cafe we used to go to when we were kids four anniversary. We had a great time and decided to watch a movie back at our apartment. I fell asleep, but Kacchan told me it was a great movie, with a happy ending. We watched Titanic. I never watched it again, but I assume to this day it had a great ending.

If I'm being honest, I miss the days I would fall asleep with someone to hold. Someone to come back home to. Hell, I even miss our fights, because we would always make up afterward and forget about it. Kacchan was my first everything. My first kiss, my first boyfriend, my first you know what, my first serious relationship, and my first love. Never have I fallen in love with someone else, but even if I did, no one was like Kacchan.

So the days that were important to "us" were the hardest days to not think about him. I remember like it was yesterday when we had that stupid fight. The fight that tore us apart.

The "Kacchan, I'm home!" I called as I kicked off my shoes and brought in the groceries.

"Hey nerd, what did you buy?" The handsome blonde asked once he got off the couch and walked into the kitchen.

"I got the chicken for tonight's soup, some snacks for us, the honey you wanted, and a case of deodorant." Listing off what I bought as I started unpacking the groceries.

"Great! About that, there's going to be another four people joining us tonight." Kacchan told me as he grabbed an apple from the fruit bowl.

"W-What did you just say?" I turned away from the counter towards Kacchan's direction with wide eyes.

"Yeah, Jeremy thinks this could get me a promotion if I invite the boss," Kacchan spoke calmly, not turning away his attention from the television.

"And who will make these extra four servings?" My voice stern as I stepped into the living room.

"Well, you? You're making dinner aren't you?" Kacchan asked once he finished the last of his apple.

"Kacchan, that will be tough to somehow make enough soup for eight people! But to seat us all in our tiny dining room?" I argued arms crossed as I stepped in front of the tv with a red angry face.

"Look, Deku. If this works out, I might be able to get us somewhere bigger, nicer, and less cramped." Kacchan urged, stepping around me to throw away his apple.

"Okay, I'll find a way to make it work." Sighing bitterly, I stepped back into the kitchen and grabbed a large pot.

"Thanks, nerd." Kacchan smiled as he came over to me and kissed my cheek.

A few hours later dinner was set, our guests arrived, and Kacchan seemed to get along with his boss. Dinner went well and I hoped Kacchan would get that promotion. He'd been working so hard and I think he deserves a break. After cleaning up and once I assumed all our guests left, I decided to get some fresh air on the balcony. When I slid the door open and stepped outside I saw Jeremy kissing Kacchan, his hands holding his face with a grip so right it left marks on Kacchan's face.

The scene shattered my heart and I felt hot tears stream down my face. I couldn't tell if the kiss was consensual by how much Kacchan squirmed but it hurt my heart so much to watch.

"WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?" I screeched as loud as I could.

"Deku, it's not what it looks like!" Kacchan gasped once he pushed Jeremy away.

"I better get going." Jeremy awkwardly spoke, stepping around me hastily to get out of the apartment.

"I think that'd be best." I spat as I gave both of them an ice-cold glare.

Once Jeremy left was when the screaming started.

"Jeremy was nothing to worry about! huh?" I pushed Kacchan back and headed inside to cry.

"Deku, let's talk about this," Kacchan begged, walked inside, catching up to me.

"There's nothing to talk about Kacchan." Picking up my pace, I locked myself in the bathroom.

"Deku he kissed me! I tried to push him away!" Kacchan pleaded his innocence as he knocked quietly on the door.

"Kacchan, I need a minute," I spoke through heavy sobs as more tears rolled down my cheeks. Actually, I knew he was telling the truth, just seeing that broke my heart.

"Deku, I could never." Kacchan sounded so quiet and desperate as he slid down the opposite side of the door.

"I know. It just hurts so much." Taking in heavy breaths in an attempt to stop crying.

The damage had been done. Kacchan tried to fix it with me but I didn't trust him anymore. That same night Kacchan said he wanted to give me some space and to call when we were good. I never called. That was the end of an era.

I was so depressed the first night without Kacchan. Hell, I quit my office job after two weeks. It had gotten so bad I planned to kill myself. My life was nothing without Kacchan. But I was told to see a therapist before I quit my job, so I did. The therapist understood me and listened to me. They helped me understand I was worth something, and I could get out of that dark depression.

So from that day, I made it my goal to first, be the best therapist out there, and two make Kacchan see I didn't need him in my life.

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