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Deku's Point of View

By the end of the night, Kirishima and Kaminari were wasted. Big surprise. Kacchan arranged a cab for them and Sero went home with them. Kacchan and I stayed a bit longer but we eventually took the metro home.

He insisted on going the whole way with me. I missed being able to hug and snuggle against his warm body. It was freezing, but I pretended it didn't bother me. After all, I was trying to get over him. He looked really upset with Kiyomi when I told him he groped my butt. It meant a lot to me that he still cared about me, but I wondered if it was because Kiyomi had spoiled the mood of the night.

"Hey, are you okay?" Kacchan asked as he looked at me with an unreadable face.

"Huh, oh yeah." I spoke a bit flustered with his heavy gaze on me.

"You don't look okay. Is it because of that prick?" Kacchan asked as he moved to the side a bit, motioning for me to sit next to him.

"I mean he was nice. It's just, the way how he treated me. Like I was easy for him to have." I said with anger growing in me. Izuku Midoriyia is not easy! And he will not be involuntarily groped!

"Yeah, I can understand that. Sorry I wasn't there sooner." Kacchan apoligized looking forward as I sat next to him.

"It's okay Kacchan. You're not my boyfriend anymore, it wasn't your fault." I reassured him as I put a hand on his knee, out of habit, when we dated this was a comfort to him. But that last part stung a bit when K said it. We're not together anymore and it hurts.

"OTOH! sorry Kacchan!" Blushing madly, I waved my arms around as soon as I realized what I had done.

"It's alright, Deku." Kacchan brushed it off as he seemed unfazed by all this.

"Hey, this is my stop. I'll see you on Monday."  Quickly getting up, I waved goodbye to Kacchan.

"Bye, Deku." Kacchan spoke before the doors closed in front of my face.

On my walk back home I realized I had once again relapsed. My body could feel it happening too. I had to run the way home before the memories poured in.

As soon as I was inside my apartment and I locked the door, I ran into my bedroom lied down on my bed. There was nothing I could do to stop it. I had learned that the hard way.

Memories of Kacchan and I were flooding my mind. The times we would play fight, when we went out on dates. Then I felt my heart ache. The pain started out small, but it became stronger and stronger the more I thought of Kacchan.

Some people couldn't understand why I liked Kacchan, but they didn't know my Kacchan. The Kacchan that I was vulnerable with, sweet with, the one who listened to me, and understood me.

Then the last of only the beginning started. I felt myself calling out Kacchan's name quitely. I felt myself beginning to cry. And an hour later I was full on sobbing and having a hard time breathing.

I eventually stopped crying but the damage was done. I was completely and totally, and madly in love with Katsuki Bakugou. Kacchan was it for me. It's official, I will never love anyone except for Kacchan. Even if he chooses to never love me back. I will have to move on eventually. But for now I could be a mess, and fall asleep with Kacchan on my mind.

The weekend was hell. Since I relapsed with my feelings for Kacchan I locked myself inside crying, and when I wasn't, I went to the gym to sweat it out. I worked even harder than before. I thought my last relapse was bad, now that I see Kacchan constantly, it's like a stab to the heart.

But I must work through these feelings. I have to move on. This relapse might be the end of me. But I'll just get back up. I can't lose myself in this weirdness. And yet, when all of this is happening, Kacchan's at his place, moved on, and with a whole new life. A life without me.

Today is Monday though. And I have to hide these feelings, it's best for the both of us. I decide on a black tank top, dark black jeans, my glasses, and a dark blue zip up hoodie.

Today I need to be comfortable or I might die. I can't handle resisting Kacchan. It breaks my heart, but if I don't I might scare him off.

As soon as I arrive at the building I see a few reporters waiting for someone. I decide to go towards the back but it was too late.

"There he is, the Symbol of Peace!" I hear a reporter shriek as the crowd begins to chase after me.

I begin to run towards security in a panic. Today I really didn't want to deal with the press right now. Once being the symbol of peace was not all sunshine. And I wasn't in the right mindset to talk to anyone. But as soon as security can see my face, they get the memo and assist me inside without paparazzi.

Now breathless, exhausted, and confused, I was headed up for the 49th floor. Maybe it was a mistake coming to work today. But if I turn back now, the press might follow me home.

I didn't have much more time to think, because the next thing I knew I was greeted by Beth.

"Good morning Dr. Midoriyia!" Beth said as she cheerfully shook my hand.

"Oh, good morning Beth!" I said trying to sound as cheerful as always.

"You know that file I gave you the day of the attack?" Beth said looking to see if anyone was around even though it was only us on this floor.

"Yes, I have it on me." I said a bit curious since I had not opened it.

"Well, it says something very important, but do not open it until next week." Beth said in a hushed tone.

"Okay, well I better get going." I said a bit flustered and anxious from earlier.

Today was going to be rough. And then when I turned back around. The love of my life was in the doorway. He said something but I just told him to sit down. As I grabbed a notepad, and we began our session.

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Thank you so much for reading! Next chapter will be in Kacchan's point of view. Leave comments if you want to see something special. There is something building up if you haven't noticed, so see what happens in the next chapter! Have a great day, and if you don't think anyone loves you, I do, love you and bye!