Everything in life has always seemed easy...

Simple concepts like 1+1=2

It's all just so simple...

And everything is a concept and it's simple...

It's all comprehendible...

Color guard it's just a concept too .. "just release it higher and you'll have it"... After a few tries and after being told exactly what to do, it's easy!

Everything in life has been easy

Literally the hardest thing is deadlines. Getting everything done in time. Being able to turn things in on time. That's always been like my only problem

Everything else I understood.

And it all just came quick. It was all simple easy quick to learn.

And then I came here.

At first I thought it was gonna be easy.

I did some vampire spell and then found this community and was like "hey I'm a vampire!"...

Yeah that spell probably didn't work lol... I believed it for about a week... And then slowly lost faith in it... Within a few months I knew it didn't actually work and if it did, well, I'm pretty sure I ain't a vampire...

Then I learned about subliminal and all that...

Then I learned that it actually takes TIME...

TIME sucks. It takes so long and I'm not consistent. everything has always been quick for me and now this is gonna take a long time... And it's not gonna be easy....

And then to add onto that... Mindscape and Spirit guides...

That's not quick and easy...

Ive tried to find my Mindscape every night ... After awhile.. I kinda gave up on it for awhile...

And now I still don't try as often as I used to... At this point I'm too distracted and focused on homework due soon and everything... I

And those are just escuses...

Things aren't easy and quick anymore...

Now things here take time...

Take dedication...

Take patience...

I wanna find my Mindscape but take harder than what I'm used to... And I have to figure out how to go about it ig lol...

And as for becoming a mythical. Idek what I wanna be RN.

I'm gonna start listening to subliminals and I'm gonna figure out what for later.

I'm probably gonna do one for being phychic, being able to fight, talking to animals, maybe one for being intelligent... And later I'll add one for becoming a mythical... IDK lol
Probably.more IDK lol I'll post my playlist when I'm.done lol

But my.new phone came with new headphones, not to mention I also like just got new headphones (IDK where I just remember having new ones)

I used to think I was mentally stronger bc I got As and all. But now I guess I'm physically stronger than mentally bc I can do more in guard and sports and all than meditating and actual mental stuff lol
. Grades prove nothing. And yet they're the biggest thing in life lol..

IDK... I just, I needa get on top of things and I haven't been able to lol... I have so much homework idk how I'm gonna a get it all done... FML.

Yeah I probably didn't say half the things I wanted to say here but whatever I forgot lol