So Deathly-Doritos messaged me about some lgbtqai+ (idk all the letters, too many to keep track of lol) but it was about art and I can't do art but there was a 30 day challenge
But also I don't understand sexuality and so I explained how I think it's kinda dumb that gender and all actually matter- not that people are dumb- simply I don't understand it.
In saying I don't understand it isn't why I think it's dumb it's the fact that what I do understand is that gender rlly matters and I don't understand why so to me it's kinda dumb, no offense and people aren't dumb for it mattering to them, lol, idc.

But like I'm bored so I'll do this challenge thingy.

But yeah ig you could say I'm pansexual but at the same time I think it's all just dumb, unless someone wants to explain it to me lol, but like idc about sexuality and stuff but google litterally has nothing for having no sexuality.

So idk. Idc.
Megan don't tell kc if you're reading this. Lol

Lol ok wait so last year there was this gay boy in band before a game or something and I had to go to the uniform room to get something for my sister and like they have a room and guard has a closet. So I didn't know where I'lls going so I asked this gay boy if that was the uniform room and he was like "oh, honey, the guard closets over there"
(Sorry but I find it halarious that peopel say things like honeya nd sweetheart, like no offense but like to me it's funny)
So yeah lol
And btw me saying gay boy I don't mean anything like offensive by that like he is gay and he makes it very very very very very obvious. I would add more veries but I got bored of saying very. (Would plural of very be veries? Lol)

Anyways yeah. So idk.

I almost forgot I did this chapter for this challenge

Lol
Like I used to say I'lls straight but that was like 1.5 years ago when I was still homophobic but I ain't anymore and I know I was wrong so yeah
And then I said I was aromantic bc I've never liked anyone. But now I have a boyfriend so idk anymore bc I don't care about gender or anything, but at the same time he's my boyfriend so maybe I'm straight but Idc and idk. Sexuality is stupid and confusing and dumb. Ignore me I'm ranting.

Ok so to the challeneg

Ok so all the pics got deleted off this somehow (6/16/18) so ughhh I have to go back and redo all the pics...

Should I update this as igo?

Ok I'll do to 8 today bc I think it's all month bc it's pride month but idk.

Lol

Day 1 Madison, idk IDC maybe pan but nothing, girl

Day 2 taken! I gotta boyfriend

Day 3 blue

Day 4 wow ok there's a list of them... Uhmm. "everyone has a reason for doing something and that's good enough for them so it should be good enough for you" something like that, not exact quote, but I've used that alot in school essays and when people do something stupid and stuff , which is alot, lol, I leaened it from LucielTheCupcake

Day 5 I just found out today I was even part of this lol and so I haven't. I might ask about why sexuality matters in guard next week though but my family will never know I'm not straight if I ain't; I could get kicked outta my house.

Day 6 Grammer. Especially you're and your. Idk.

Day 7 sugar. That's a good right?

Day 8 idk.

Day 9 well it's almost 1am lol and I am annoyed with my homework that I ain't doing rn and idk ??? I'm bored.

Day 10 // should I post a selfie tomorrow?? Lol\\

Ok so I don't care, uhm, if y'all think this is stupid and dangerous then comment and I'll take it off asap, but day 10 is to post an old selfie and a new selfie, so yeah!

Omg so many pictures togo through for the old...

Before: (2016)

AAlunimn foil hat for when the aliens come
https://youtu.be/urglg3WimHA

6/20 : omg that smile though, this is why I don't smile in many pictures anymore

Me and a friend that now goes to another school

Me at a pi competition

Me at Krystal's lol

Now (2018) from this week too:

Me on a lighthouse

Me at hot topic

And me getting ready for self defense class but I straightened my hair and wanted a pic before I messed it up...

Update (6/16/18)

Me today after I wanted layers in my hair but they had to cut my hair more to do it with my cousin in the background photbombing me.

Me again today...

Ok everytime I cut my hair it gets darker...

6/20: it looks worse now after a few days of getting it done.

Bored and mad at hair and tired from camp

On the counter for ammussment

Yes I'm standing on the counter, I was bored, this is normal, it makes me brush my teeth for more than 5 seconds bc brushing teeth is soooo borrinngggg

Idek I just found this

Me with my hair in that thingy bc it makes it look better bc it looks horrible

Day 11:... I don't like reading....
I haven't read many books...
Uhmmm...
Harry Potter
(I think that's all I've actually read

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Romeo and Juliet was okay
How to kill a mockingbird was okay not very good though
Y'all's mythical books ig lol
I don't read, this is like the hardest question here

Day 12: dream job.... I've always wanted to be a lawyer (arguing and stuff sounds fun) or a financial advisor (I love math and I tell people what to do!) But ofc instead I'm fighting in the storm and so yeah idk what I'll do after that... I might go to college or something...

Day 13: movie genre... Idk... I like anything ig.  I don't like old western movies or nonfiction movies or movies like that ip man or whatever he's called , idk, like some famous fighter and my dad keeps rewatching the movies and they're rlly boring, and like it's like a biography of people or something and it's boring.... So yeah idk. Tv is boring, but I watch it bc I have nothing else to do and I can't rlly get out of it so.... Yeah

Day 14: I don't rlly know any celbebrities... Emma Watson, Hermione. Sara Lance, idk her actor lol (from DC legends of tomorrow, she's like an assassin and everything and it's amazing, and I wanna be her lol, that'd be amazing to be an assassin trained by ra Sha gu or whoever, plus she died and cane back to life). These are more of my fav characters but still.... Thea(?) from the arrow (aka speedy). That girl on gothom who I believe is cat woman but like she was friends with young Batman I think, idk. Idk who else... So yeah. I don't know actors bu5 the characters are awesome lol

Day 15: uuhhhhhh yeah I ain't telling y'all my worse habit lol, some of y'all already know it lol....

My second worse is procrastinating.

My third worse is being mean.

Day 16: people that mean alot to me:
-My boyfriend TheGayNephalem
-Family that I ain't gonna tag obviously
-Friends like MoriDoll
Bianca_is_a_lycan
1MysteriousShadow1
LucielTheCupcake
Castiel-Oliver
Idk everyone's user if I talk to them on other platforms mainly lol sry  but I do have more friends lol or I can't think of everyone lol

Day 17: things that cross my mind alot-
•shoes porportions (don't ask, its an inside joke between me myself and I)
•Evan
•Food
•wow lol idk, like, after I think of something I litterally forget what I was just thinking about seconds later so honestly idk what I think about.....
•homework
•omg I realized where the music is coming from- a friend's house who's brother has parties on the weekends! Sry that just crossed my mind
• Pumpkin and Squid
• magic, mythicals, hunters, etc
•colorguard
•idk what else lol

Day 18: short term goal: finish all my homework before school starts (summer homework)

Day 19: stupid
Annoying
Clingy
Estudious
Lazy
Bored
Etc

Day20: uhmmmm..... Weird fact.... Ok... Idk... When I am behind people and walking the same speed as them I feel like I'm stalking them..... I just got distracted by holding the space bar on my keyboard- it litterally does nothing but lights up for a second and then nothing happens.... I like driving fast around corners, it's fun.... When I look into the mirror I keep eye contact, don't ask why, idk why, but I'm scared to look into mirrors...   I'm scared to admit what I'm scared of bc that recognizes that I know it's there, shhhh....   I hate messes but I hate cleaning. That basically explains my entire life. I hate it but I hate fixing it.....when I brush my teeth (or sometimes I'm just bored and for some reason in the bathroom-) I climb on the counter and on the bathtub side and like it's like a playground, like I do backbends onto the wall from the counter and stuff, it makes brushing teeth alot more fun.... Everyone keeps saying they like my hair and I'm like the only one who seems to hate it lol (and my mom lol).... Honestly idk half the things I've said in this chapter and I don't expect anyone to read all this, comment if you read all this bc ik I wouldn't lol.... Oh God I just realized I didn't roll my flag that's bothersome, but I'm too lazy to fix it, hopefully pumpkin don't tear it up or anything, it's so messy looking. I should've rolled it.... I'm the teachers pet... I still get tucked in at night by my mommy.... I still call my parents mommy and daddy unless I'm talking bad about them.... I'm rlly stupid sometimes but other times I'm rlly smart. Idk what neon colors are or what narcoguo (idk what it's called but it kinda sounds like Narnia so it sounds fake but apparently it's a real country) is, but I can do math or figure out riddles and stuff or ratios or conspriicy theories (like finding the logic on living on a potato chip-) etc. I'm the important things... Uhm.... Idk what else to say.... I'm bored.... Wow this got very long.... I forgot my Fitbit after my shower....

Day 21: (I'm sure doing this one an hour and a half ain't too early lol I'm bored)
Ways to win my heart:
-Be Evan.
-And be yourself.
-ig you could also kill me and disect me and steal my heart but in that case then I'll die so like did you rlly win there?
-buy me heart stickers and ig I'll give you one lol, does that count? Ofc it won't mean anything but you'll win a heart from me!
-idk lol, impossible if you're not Evan ig from what ik lol

{How thin are the words on the screen? Like your phone is probably less than a centimeter thick yes? About that? So then how thick is each word you type? Does it have thickness or is it as thin as paper?}

Notice the and not or
Lol yes the system is rigged and has favorites like my middle school band class-
I've been waiting 21 days to say this lol
Oh shoot this wants 5 ways, I only put 2, I gotta add to that list lol

6/24/18 I completely forgot about this

Day 22: a regret... Procrastinating.

Day 23: long term goals: uhmm... Becoming a vampire and helping with the storm etc etc

Day 24: fav drawing or painting.... I don't rlly pay attention to art... I used to draw somewhat when I was like rlly young and I sucked at it but there's one drawing of an owl flying past the moon and that's the best drawing I've ever done. I was rlly young and didn't know what color to draw the moon so it's 2 different colors-
I'm gonna go take a pic. Thank you tag thingy for making me get up outta bed bc I gtg to work. (my mom owns the bussiness, I don't needa get up at any specific time before egetting fired but like I might get in trouble.

I'm nearing the 20 image mark..

Ik I suck at coloring/
drawing

Say 25: travel destinations.
Idk.

Day 26: -i may have to make a new chapter for this question since the limit of pictures is coming up. Or I could just link the pictures.... Making a new chapter is easier lol

Idk

I'm not gonna republish this Everytime I update anymore, lol, idk.. 2222 words at idk.... Lol

I'll update this daily ig. I'm bored. And that probably won't change... I wanna go outside.

(6/14/18):
Ok so I honestly didn't even think about people "accepting" me or whatever with anything. Honestly I don't see why that's a big deal, like, that's like saying someone wouldn't "accept" me bc I'm straight, same thing, it's all just sexuality, it honestly doesn't matter that much. That being said if any of y'all don't like me bc idk my sexuality or anything or if you may decide you don't like me with what I might figure out my sexuality is, than just tell me. If you're scared that I'm gonna like be upset about it, then don't be bc idc, and I might be able to help or give you a contact who might be able to help, so yeah. Idk, but like by help I mean understand bc I used to be homophobic and so I might be able to try to help you not be too!
Lol
But like with that being said, I'm obviously not anymore and there's a number of reasons I was but I'm not gonna list em bc I am lazy. But if you want me to explain myself than I can but the point is that I was and now I'm not and so yeah...
My parents are homophobic, I have to hear how horrible gay people and trans people are constantely. My dad saying "I'm so glad our kids aren't gay. Could you imagine..." Blah blah blah. Or "could you imagine our kids coming home one day and deciding they wanna be a boy today? Ofc you can drop kids off at the fire station no questions asked!"...
Yeah I'm not gay and I'm not trans but that was still halarious to me now bc, like, I'm sorry if that's not funny or whatever but like half the people I talk to aren't cis or straight anymore... So.... Lol it was funny to me and idk what my mom was thinking bc I laughed about it and had to rlly quickly find a meme so I can have an escuse to laugh lol... But yeah....
Idk
Uhm but yeah and like I didn't think of anyone not accepting me other than my parents. Honestly I don't think anyone will be mad at me? If so than either talk to me or fuck you. Bc it's stupid... Honestly. I used to be homophobic, it's stupid. There's no good reason for it. All the "good" enough reasons are wrong. So just clear stuff up and no one should be mad at you and if they are (like the people I tried asking 1.5 years ago,) fuck them.

So like just yeah. Just don't be mad at me. I'm not worried about it and ik the poeple who matter to me will not care.
Honestly, no one should assume anyone is straight. I used to say I was straight bc I thought that was the "defualt" if you didnt choose to be something else...
I was wrong , and ik that now lol
But like yeah... My mom asked me "how do you know?" And I'll just like "I don't like girls that way" when honestly I didn't like anyone that way bc everyone ik irl sucks and that was before I talked to people online and then I started talking to people online and made good friends online and thought I was aromantic/asexual and now I have a boyfriend and am questioning everything and probably have said this a million times but I'm bored so yeahh...

I legit just asked my cat "are you okay with me not being straight"
And I couldn't tell if she shook her head yes or no , she seemed kinda confused.... Lol, I almost said it too loud though and my parents are in the room so that would not have been good, as I've said before, they'd drop me off at a fire station lol..........

Least my dad will, my mom's said before that she'd be okay with it if I weren't straight.... She was asking bc of how I used to be sexist and thought all boys sucked and still all boys irl do suck-

Yeah so anyways so yeah

Uhmm so yeah.

My sister would probably make fun of me and all and she probably won't be happy bout it if she finds out so Meaghan don't you dare tell her if you're reading this. I take burrito and sandwich, everyone else reading this is probably confused lol whatever...

Uhmmmm so yeah idk...

My point is, idc if people accept me or not bc sexuality to me honestly doesn't matter so yeah lol..
Idk lol...

6/16/18
Btw, me saying I think I'm pan or whatever, I say that bc logic . I don't understand why gender would matter. I don't think sexuality is a choice, so I could be wrong about it. I haven't liked anyone but my boyfriend. So I could be straight. Idk. Idc. Idc about sexuality but since the dorito person messaged me about it I was thinking about it and tbh idk.

But it is fun to think of ways to come out to parents which I'll never do-
Ok my dad litterally said he'd drop me off at a fire station if I'm not straight so-
Lol
My mom said she wouldn't care but still-
Lol
But anyways yeah-

Lol I'm bored

-sorry if I had said anything that offended anyone, tbh idk what I've said and I dun wanna go back and read it so just know I don't mean to be offensive or anything lol-

Final update 6/25/18 and I'll do another chapter for questions 26-