do you even love me?

PART 3 (Last Part)

  I want to stay to love you, but it hurts. I want to leave to hate you, but I can’t…

You take the medicine that your friend gives to you. Her father works pharmacy store, so you call her to ask about medicine for external wound. Then, you walk in to your apartment, putting the medicine in your pocket. When you wait for the lift, you see someone come towards you and you know this silhouette too well. You freeze for a second. You are afraid.  Again?  But as he comes closer, he smiles at you. Something you don’t see from him these weeks.

“Annyeong! Wait, the lift is opened”

Both of you take the lift and you still remain silence. You can sense awkwardness at this moment. Both of you haven’t really “talk” these weeks.

“Did Saeyoung  forget to hand you your wallet? I asked him to give it to you” you ask as soon as both of you enter your apartment.

“No, I got it. Thank you”

Then another silence. You go to the kitchen to find some drinks while Saeran follows you and leans against the kitchen’s wall, watching you.

“Are you sick?”

Your heart drops for a second.

“No”

Both of you are in a relationship but now it seems like both of you are strangers.

You walk to him and hands him a drink. You decide to create a better atmosphere.

“Take a seat, Oppa. You must be really tired” you force to smile.

Saeran puts the glass down to the table and faces you.

“You are the one who looks tired”

“I’m okay” you say as you walk away to the living room.

“Then what is this?”

You turn your body and you see your medicine is in Saeran’s hand.

“How do you get it? It’s my friend’s…”

“You drop it moments ago. Don’t lie to me. You’re not a good liar” There’s a slight of anger in his voice. Saeran walks to you and grabs your wrist.

“Ouchh” you spontaneously groan as he touches one of your bruise.

Saeran stares at you and he lifts your sleeve, exposing you right arms where some bruises printed there.

“What’s happened to you? Someone did this??”  Saeran raises his voice, shocked.

“No, oppa. It is just a small accident” you pull your hand from his.

“Why don’t you tell me? Yesterday you look fine. Last night…”  he suddenly stops his words and taken aback.

He grabs the bottom of your shirt and lifts it up, high enough to show the bruises around your breast and upper body. He drops it and he stands still.

“I did this, right? I’m the one who did this??”  he looks straight to your teary eyes, looking for forgiveness than answer. You can’t help your tears to not fall down.

“Erggh”  he screams at himself and hits his palm to the wall. You walk to him and grab his wrist.

“You didn’t do it on purpose. You are drunk”

He turns his face to you and all you can see are sadness and regrets. His eyes are teary now.

“How can you… you still want to meet me after what I’ve done?”

“Because I believe in you, Oppa” you caress his cheek.

“You are just having too much pressure at these times but I can’t do anything for you”

Saeran pulls you to his embrace suddenly and put his chin on your shoulder. You can feel his tears on your wet shoulder. You caress his back, letting him know that you are here for him.

“I’m so sorry. I’ll never make a good boyfriend, right? I just…”

“I miss you, Oppa” you cut his word.

Saeran pulls his body so he can see you. You smile at him. Then he lands a kiss on the side of your lips, tenderly.

“Is it hurt?”  he touches your hurting lips. You nod.

“But it doesn’t hurts anymore since my oppa is back” you chuckle but Saeran looks at you seriously.

“Can we start all over again? Can I fix it for you?”  then he takes something in his pocket and gives it to you.

“What is this?” you look at the envelope he gave to you.

“See it by yourself”  he puts his hands around your waist.

You open the letter inside and read the only line written on the letter :

I LOVE YOU

“Omoo, Oppa…” a moment after you read that…

“HAHAHAHAHA” you burst into laughter.

“Wae??? I’m not joking”  he looks at you innocently.

“OMOOO… Really? A love letter? I have to be honest. It is so lame, Oppa. HAHAHA”

“Aishhh… Yaaa… Don’t be like that. I don’t know what…”  you lock his lips by your kiss.

“and that’s why I love you” you smile at him.

Saeran pulls you closer, kissing your neck up to your ear and whisper

“Don’t ever get bored because from now on, I’m gonna say I love you hundred times more often than you will ever imagine…”