TW- self loathing, self harm.

read this to understand :D.
i tried to make a fluffshot of schlatt and a few of his friends, so now im making it angsty cus i was bored. ill link the oneshot in the comments :).

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Schlatts POV

I shut down my PC and decided to hop on Twitter for a bit. I looked at comments from past Tweets I made. At first they were good, but they turned worse and worse. 

I felt tears prick my eyes, I didn't know why I was crying. I don't even know these people.

I was tired of Twitter, and posted a Tweet saying I wasn't gonna be on for a while. A while is probably gonna be 2 days though. 

"Hey guys, I think I'm gonna take a break from Twitter for a while. All the hate, cancelling, and death threats are really damaging my health. I will still be active on discord but only to close friends. I hope you understand. Thank you <3."

I was proud of that and hit send. As soon as I set my phone down, it was spammed with notifications, all from Twitter. I, of course couldn't help but check. The first one I saw was from Connor.

"I'm glad he's leaving! he was so fucking annoying. he never knew how to shut up."

I kept scrolling, it was probably a joke. Right?

'Oh, who am I kidding. I was right, they were all pretending to be my friend. They all hate me. God, I even hate myself!'
'I deserve pain. I've put them through pain, they all hate me. All of this is my fault.'

I locked my door, I knew there was no point in getting a knife or blade I didn't have the time to disinfect it. 

I scratched, bit, hit myself, etc. 
I scratched until my arms and legs were numb, and bleeding.
I bit 'till it made almost permanent marks.
I hit until it would form a bruise.

Once I was done, I looked in the mirror and admired my work. 

'I. Deserve. All. Of. This..'

I looked at my arm again, it was bright red. Blood and blue spots covered my arms.
I could barely walk, the pain in my legs was unbearable. Yet it felt so good. 
My fists were sore as I hit the wall many times, it left small dents.

'I need some sleep.'

tell me if i fucked up on anything

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