TW- self-loathing.

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3rd POV (wow, thats rare-)

Tears pricked his eyes as he looked at discord. He couldn't believe what his best friend of 3 years had just said to him, he was angry but sad. No, that's wrong. He didn't know how to feel.

"schlatt, im so tired of ur shit. you always manage to get yourself in trouble. dont consider me as a friend any longer, i bet you and your dumbass antics is gonna get both of us in trouble."

He felt like sobbing, but wouldn't let himself. He didn't deserve to cry, he knew he was right.

He knew he fucked up everything.
He knew he would end up getting him in trouble.
He knew this would happen.
He knew it all.
Yet, wouldn't believe any of it 'till now.

He got up and punched a wall, have to get rid of your anger somehow.

His hand turned red, almost instantly. 

He sighed, whispering something only himself could hear.
He looked to his side and walked to over his bed, lying down.

He didn't like how he felt. His best friend had just left him, without any warning. They laughed at how he acted, he had never expected him to leave him in an instant. He loved his friend (platonic) 

He felt a tear slowly make its way down his cheek but didn't do anything about it. There was no point, he knew his crying wouldn't stop even if he tried.

He felt so weak. No, he knew he was weak. Who cries over this? He could live without friends. He would survive. It's just a person. He is being weak.

The thoughts wouldn't stop. It was probably all just a cruel joke. 
He fell asleep, tears still falling down his face.

****

He woke up, the first thing he could feel were the dry tear marks on his face.

He swung his feet over the side of the bed and immediately went to his PC.

"hey will, this was just a cruel joke..right?"

He sighed and went on Minecraft to waste some time.

He got a ping from Discord about ten minutes later.

"no schlatt, its not a joke. we're not friends anymore. never fucking talk to me again. im blocking you."

He tried to message him back, but he was already blocked. 

He never felt so.. Alone.

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