As an adult
Though unmarried and without kids yet
One would think
A cultivated group of friends
Should be had
By someone in their mid 30s

Not I
In my region of the country
I have 3
Whom I barely see
Everyone else is
Never close

I'm lucky in those
Whom I know
Because they reside
All over the globe

But I do not have
People here
Where I live
If I wanted to invite
To make a party

My options of an invitation list
Would be scarce
Because the quality
Not just quantity is lacking

I am
For all intents and purposes
Alone
Here
In my city
State
Part of the country

I never had a group
Of friends
Who transitioned with me
Into adulthood

Anyone that I ever met
Lived ever so far away
Other then an occasional lunch
I don't see anyone

At 35
I'm a virtual shut in
I value those I have in many places
I just wish you lived closer

I have to start looking
For hobbies to expand
To meet new people
This just isn't good enough anymore

For an extrovert
Being forced with extreme introversion
It's nearly unbearable
Is incredibly depressing

Especially since
I'm 40 months
Into remission
I am not in a bedridden prison, anymore

I need more options
To find likeminded people
To go out and about
It's the only way to live
I refuse anything less
Enough

I have to find others
I need to live life
Not just exist from
One day to the next

I already did that
For 2 years
And 3 years since in remission

G-d didn't give me a second chance
At life just to have
Me not continue to fight
To live the best life possible

I am very lonely
It is extremely depressing
But that has never stopped me before
And it as hell won't now

I shall seek out others
And others I shall find
I deserve better
I refuse to be lonely forevermore