H fuck I want to talk to her again but I don't I can't I just fucking can't??? I don't know why I just I couldn't at this point- I SHOULDN'T

I feel terrible I know she's worried about me but I just Hh fuck just end me already that way she'll know what's happened and then no more need to worry

Cause no need to worry over someone who's gone right?

No no no no no no

Jesus Christ why am I like this I just want to go back to the way it was a year ago..everything was so much easier..

We were so much happier..

We were so much..closer..

Weren't we..?

Life fucking sucks I hate this I hate meeting people online I can never talk to them in person fuck fuck fuck sometimes I wish I never found this fucking app maybe then I wouldn't be feeling like this fuck this fuck life fuck everything and everyone that led to me finding this damn app

But it's too late for me to leave it behind isn't it it's always too late

always always always

Too late I was too late I could never to anything to help her and now she's just worried

Fuck why is she worried I feel like I've been horrible to her

She's always been so helpful and supporting when I've never been able to help her with anything and just

Hh

I really wish

I just..left

But I can't

I missed my chance

And there probably won't be another one for a very very long time

But maybe I'll have been able to get some help before that chance comes up

That would be nice

Maybe then things won't be so dark and lonely anymore

Here's to hoping