All my thoughts are a mess 

Everything going on of how my parents are so homophobic

Telling me constantly it's wrong

I can't be me here

Thoughts on how I am a disappointment to them
Constantly thinking what would it be if i didn't exist
Constantly staring at a wall
Hating physical touch
I don't show it
I let them touch me
I hate hugs but want it constantly
It hurts my heart when I get a hug
Always never been felt like anyone has like me
In school always hiding with a very happy smile
I give golden retriever energy for other people to think I'm fine 

I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine