I feel so hopeless. I can't do anything right. I'm dissaponted in myself and I wonder if she's disappointed in me to. All always be like my stupid father who doesn't know how to do shit or achieve anything. All always be a fuck up like my dad. 

I don't know what to do. Can I just cry? There's so much on my plate and so much that's expected of me. I just need a break. You know why I like wattpad, because I can write anything on here. All my feelings, my fan fiction, the truth, and no one knows who I am. I'm sure that if any of my followers met me they would see how I really looked and who I truly am and they would be discussed. But anyway who cares right. No body cares anyway. That's just how it is.

And I think that's why most people don't like me because I tend to speak my mind. Tbh I don't give a fuck.

Today was just a bad day in general. This weekend I know I'm gonna fail at my swim meet. 

Why am I such a negative person? Well you see I grew up in a negative environment. I mean who hasn't. I'm sure there are people out there who didn't grow up in a negative environment but anyway.

Today was just a horrible day. I feel like crying. 

Idk