'I have to go', that's what I said
But didn't say how sorry I feel to leave you behind
I know life is rough to you right now
But I'm afraid it's not in my power to hold you up this time

Now, I know I will go
Is there something I could have done to ease your pain?
Something, I could have said to make you just feel better?
Now, I know I will go
Is there something I could have done being there for you ?
Something, I could have said to make you not feel so lonely?

I know you will do it without me
I've always believed and will always believe in you
If only I could be half like you
This strong and brave like hardly anyone I've ever met before

Soon I will go
Is there something I could have done to ease your pain?
Something, I could have said to make you just feel better?
Soon I will go
Is there something I could have done being there for you ?
Something, I could have said to make you not feel so lonely?

I don't know how long it'll take
A promise, I fight for wildly and hard just to keep it for you
A broken heart, barely alive
A shot after another might let it helplessly die

And now as I go
Is there something I could have done to ease your pain?
Something, I could have said to make you just feel better?
And now a I go
Is there something I could have done being there for you ?
Something, I could have said to make you not feel so lonely?

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Ja, viel sage ich nicht zum Inhalt. Zu der Entstehung: Dieses Lied ist jetzt Anfang Mai entstanden, in einer Zeit, als ich schwere Zeiten auf mich zukommen gesehen habe.

8 März 2022

Vor Stunden habe das letzte Mal die Sonne gesehen. Es ist Nacht, und ich sitze am Fenster, wie ich es schon so lange Zeit getan habe, jede einzelne Nacht, fast mein Leben lang. Ich sehe jetzt klar mein Ende, und freue mich sehr, dass es mir nicht mehr davonrennt. Ich fühle große Schmerzen, aber auch Friede und Liebe. Denn ich mag jetzt alleine sein, aber das werde ich bald nicht mehr. Nie mehr. Es tut mir schrecklich leid, nicht für mich, sondern für dich, draga mea 💙 Bleib dieselbe perfectly imperfect Snegurochka die ich kennengelernt habe. „Human" von Cristina Perri ist dein Lied, und „All of me" von John Legend ist mein Lied an dich. Deine Misty-chan, die dich erwartet