When theres someone you are talking to and in the past few weeks they've been acting weird and you begin to blame yourself for it, I've done that it's the worst feeling in the world I feel worthless because I question am I their number one. But that question lead me to look into it in depth with the evidence I've seen on social media on their posts.

It all started when I was arranging to meet with them for the first time and they went from being 100% keen for it saying how much they like me and all the rest of that, to being like "i dont know rn". And from that moment I started to think there was someone else involved so i tried to repair and sort things out but the replies got blunt. Then we actually met and things went really well until I get back and look in the comments of one of their posts and someone comments something claiming them to be theirs and they in their own terms agree with them. But prior to this comment on another social media app they post something a friend said to them about that person and ****** being amazing together and wishing their relationship goes well.

This made me start thinking so I clicked on who commented and sure enough it was the person that had been text them when we had our first date and i was sitting there as i glanced at their phone whilst they were texting and realised that I'm just a pass time thing.

This honestly destroyed me as I'm sitting here typing this with tears forming in my eyes because I get a constant reminder that I am useless and will never find love or even happiness because bad things happen to good people, good people are always underestimated and mistreated, the underdogs in every situation.