Kitties, I have no idea, why I watch videos on YouTube.com about people's friends committing  suicide. You know what's surprising? I didn't know how to spell suicide, before. I didn't know it had a "C" instead of an "S". I also didn't know that, it had two "I"s.

Even though I watched "Suicide Squad" enough times, you think I would know how to spell a word that's, IN THE FREAKING TITLE!!!!!!! 

I almost, I repeat ALMOST cried in front of my granny and daddy. I know I could hide it from granny, but I can't hide it from daddy. You get lucky if a parent sees you crying, and you can lie your why out of it. But I knew I couldn't trick my mommy or daddy, so.......I would've had to tell the truth.

I didn't want to scare them, to the point where, they're always thinking: Why was she watching videos about suicide? Should I be worried? Is she going to commit suicide? OH GOD, NOT MY BABY!!!

My mommy would really think that, only with  bad words. Sorry, I don't wanna sound like a baby, saying bad words, but I didn't know how to spell the real word for it, and I didn't wanna put curse words because it wouldn't make sense.

One question stays in my mind. WHY THE FREAK DO I DO THIS!?!?!

(-__________________-) < I REALLY want an answer!