I'm feeling bittersweet right now.

Today was my last cross country meet.

Our team almost made it to state, but didn't.

I'm in a pretty emotional state right now. I ran my best today, not my top PR but I gave everything I had. I ran that race to the best of the strategic way.

First, it starts with a straight away in the muddy grass, then kinda loops around for about 800 meters, around the track, go back around the same muddy grass trail, then up the fucking incline that lasted around 600 meters.

Lowkey I was dying, but I remembered what my coach said.

During a cross country race, don't sprint up the hill because your heart rate gets SUPER HIGH, and it's nearly impossible to have it go down if you're still running after the hill, so that's the reason why your legs give out so quickly for the rest of the race with the burning sensation, from your heart not calming down.

I ran it perfectly, got back up to my speed, and the rest was downhill. The downhill lasted about a mile and some, so I took advantage and went super fast by using that free energy.

Towards the end, about 800 meters out, I caught up to Cece and was like "Let go girl, you got this, you can finish this!" I started going faster, and I really started sprinting around 400 meters out from the finish line, and my coach was yelling "ONE MORE CHLOE!!! ONE MORE!!"

I passed so many hoes 😎😏👏

That course is one of the hardest to run around where I live, so I was pretty fucking proud of how I went out with a bang.

The weather was honestly lowkey wing a savage. It only rained during my race, but all of a sudden it got so FUCKING HOT FOR EVERYONE ELSE'S RACE. The sun came out like Jesus was praising us.

So after my race, I was cooling down and I was like "Yeah, I can't wait to watch y'all race next year! I'll come to practices and bring fruit cups!" And the girls were like "UGH, LOOOOOVE!!!"

So a couple of my teammates were like "So whatcha gonna do for college?"

I honestly think I know my plan. I thought about it real quick, and said

"I think I'm gonna go to a college around here for my first year, so I can have time to come to practices and meets. I'm honestly nervous about moving to a college in California right now, so I think I'll move out later."

I always forced myself that "Yeah, I'm gonna go to this huge ass college so I can prove to everyone at my school that I'm better than them! Especially the basketball team!!"

Now that I'm actually thinking about college, I don't think that's what I'm gonna do next year. I don't feel ready yet, and I talked to my mom about it.

I kinda honestly wanna stay home longer, get used to being an actual adult, not just let myself suffer. I do want to show most of the assholes at my school that I'm worth it, but they'll see in a few years when I'll be at a division 1 school 👌

So for my freshman year, I think I'll be attending a community college because I realize that yeah, there's nothing wrong with starting out with baby steps. I'll have more experience and confidence to show to big colleges that I can handle it.

So y'all will have to deal with more of my sass and savageness a little while longer 😊💕❤️

Sorry KevinMacias796 I don't think we'll be going to the same college next year, unless you wanna come to Washington a little north of Seattle :D Maybe in a couple years!

I really want to play for WSU, but I'll just take the baby steps because I feel like I'll have a better advantage, more confidence, experience, all those great things. If I don't, I'll probably play somewhere in Oregon or California.

I ain't movin' just yet.

Comment below what you guys wanna do in the future for college, or what you want to study. Once I get accepted into a bigger college, I really want to study kinesiology.

If I don't play overseas in my basketball career, I honestly want to become a P.E teacher or a coach for a basketball team, maybe even a track or XC coach. Maybe I'll teach a Health class, you never know. Or become a physical trainer at a school, the ones who direct the workout sessions for teams & to help tape/ice/help athletes.

I'm just thinking about life at the moment.

Tell me what y'all want to do in the future, goals, anything.

Or I could just become a wife of a super popular athlete :P

Yaaassss.