"You are part of the Student Council. You have the capability of leading all the students. Aren't you considered the best?"

Nope. Not at all. Sure, I'm given the badge and I'm supposed to set a good example but it feels like nothing. Especially since I have no talent at all. No one takes me seriously and I always feel left out during meetings, even though I'm right there. I feel inferior as everyone else could lead, become a role model and still have many friends. Me - nothing.

The badge is a cage for me. And I hate it. I want to be able to lead, be kind, and do my own things. Having this badge placed on my shirt is a reminder that everyone will always be watching me, eyeing me and mocking me when I make a mistake.

And I hate it.

Ironically though, I crave the attention I'm getting. I know - saying that I despise the fact that everyone will constantly eye on me seems like the biggest contradiction I've ever made.

But then again, life is always filled with contradictions... am I right?