I have been having anxiety attacks. The only started maybe three months ago, and somehow I have managed to only have them in private. 

Its like my brain shuts down, and I hyper focus on how I'm A failure and I should go die and other depressed shit, and I can't breathe and stuff.

Well today at school I had one, I managed to run to the bathroom and pass it off as an upset stomach, but it was probably the worse yet. I told my parents I just had a really bad stomachache,  but I don't know how I should handle this if things get worse. I can't tell them, my dad will be disappointed that I'm weak, and I can't handle that not right now.

Please don't say that I am just trying to get pity or that crap, I literally just need a place to vent, I apologize.